i used to live by a ferry, it would take my teeth. you tie your tooth to the boat and your tooth. i miss it over there sometimes. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J7Pgvg_1EAU i forgot how to write.

@a_wesley_g So going back a bit, now that I actually have time to make a post. So I need to ask about this point. "Asking for an ID isn’t a race issue. Appalachian isn’t a race." The fuck do you mean by this? Like really, where in my post did I even say that it was? We're everyone who ended up here. That's a cultural identity, not a racial identity. It just so happened that a lot of us with white skin ended up in Appalachia because of Racial Pedigree Laws. For context, I identify as Human. I don't give a damn about the color of my skin. But I'm here because someone thought my ancestors of the West Virginian side of my family were "Clay Eaters, Offscourings, and Lowdowners who were polluting future generations to permanent defectiveness and needed to be separated from affluent white folk to keep from breeding." Paraphrasing of course. That's the part that relates to systemic racism. The rest of your argument basically boils down to egocentric assertions. Buddy, the DMV? Not everyone out in these parts can afford a car. If you aren't one of us, don't go speaking for us. (And if anyone is curious about the history of the word "White Trash", here's a nice little anthropological lecture. Trust me, it goes places even conventional civil rights activists are apprehensive to touch.) https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GVgATitO8c0

Real life picture of me and what it's like to be a narcissist. We will do anything not to grow up. We just want our needs meet or we get angry. Your not the baby I'm the baby. Imma baby how am I suppose to meet your needs. I need sleep and to have my needs meet all the time. Yep take a look at the baby man the most deplorable branch of humans. It is what it is. I'm getting stronger though enough to act my age. A baby doesn't have strength for the road ahead. Only a man does. Take a look at this man baby yall boo this weak man. Hurting others because he don't want to grow up. Boo the fucking narcissist a blight on the fucking world. Go ahead I deserve it. I been fighting but many times I choose comfort over growth. I think just because I did the impossible I can pat myself on the back. I'm still a fucking man baby. Just because i grew up a little which they say is impossible I became happy. Look at this fucker think he can do the bare minimum and escape the reality of being a man baby saying yeah look at me I took my first step but I gave up because it was hard but I'm Learning. Little nigga everything fucking hard. No body wants to hear about your puny steps. You should be moving already. Everyone else moving they don't give af how hard it is. Who tf do you think you are where you believe you can get away with giving up when shit gets hard. You know how many people you hurt? Taking steps isn't optional of when the baby feels like it or when the baby learns to take a step. You know how to take a fucking step. Don't delude yourself just because you fighting a disease that they say impossible to beat and you made progress that you a decent man. You know in your spirit what it takes to be a man. Delude yourself if you want you can't get time back. No one should like you don't give af because your fighting when you complete what's you know you should complete in your spirit then maybe you can have the luxury to worry about that. Worrying about if people fucking like you smh. You lucky to even have someone in your life who fucking loves you. You know you don’t deserve her. Tick tock mother fucker what's it gonna be grow up and show up or go to sleep like a little kid and pretendyou have no responsibility. All this luck in your life and you moving like you had it hard. You even know how lucky you been. You know everything you been gifted. You know nothing about Adversity. You think you know because you fight this disease how about you complete what's in your spirit and I'll acknowledge that you went through some shit. Don't ever let me catch you thinking about why am I not liked again. Like you deserved to be liked. You funny you don't deserve shit i don't care how unfair the illness is. Count every blessing you have and don't forget it. Sorry I had to give myself a stern talking to.

@gabriel_true Day 157: It was a beautiful 80° today! It was kind of breezy outside at times and all the doors and windows were open, so it felt really nice indoors. Which tomorrow it'll be ruined because it's supposed to drop to really cold temperatures (I forgot what temp exactly) and rainy, which stinks cause our parents' 31st Anniversary is tomorrow, but I'm sure they'll still enjoy the day nonetheless. - The Weather Needs To Be Consistent Already: Wei-Wei

Oshi no Ko S3 I knew this anime had a fairly dark story line, but dang. They went from pretty lighthearted to pitch black so fast. Talk about an emotional roller coaster. Maybe binge watching it wasn't a good idea. You need the time in between the episodes to emotionally digest it... Sheesh... I need to go watch something soft fluffy and lighthearted just to bring myself back to an even keel

Okay, this is an opinion I really need to get off of my chest because I've thought about it so much when I was younger and even still now. So, excuse the probably long wall of texts. My unpopular opinion (most likely within the black American community) is the use of the N word. My even more specific unpopular opinion about it is that I hate it, and that even means when black people use it towards themselves as well. I have discussed this with my sisters before, and I've told them that maybe we don't fully understand what's so appealing about this word because we are only half black (we're mixed race: our dad is black and our mom white), and we never grew up hearing that word because 1. Due to our living situation when younger, me and my siblings saw our white family members more cause they lived closer to us (even if they used the forbidden word to be rude, they never dared to say it in front of our parents about our dad or us) and 2. Our own dad didn't use the word (most likely due to our mom not liking it either/a mix of his parents not using it either). I know it may sound like I'm making light of something by saying I may not have the same opinion on it a black person may have on it because I'm not fully black, but I'm genuinely being serious, I didn't grow up around people who used it casually (in the sense of how black people use it to be friendly towards one another), but I think therein lies my issue with the word. My dad is a history geek. That's one of my favorite things about him is how book smart he is (our mom can be too, but she's really smart with financial stuff), and due to him being actually 100% African American (his descendants actually do come from Africa), he of course taught me and my siblings about black history and that includes the meaning of the N-word. Of course we were taught that IN GENERAL it is/has been an offensive and demeaning word towards our black brothers and sisters, so I think that's why I genuinely hate hearing the word...like, I guess (huge question mark here) it's great that you were able to take something really horrible and make it positive (ehhhh....), but I truly think they should use something else to refer to each other as, because the contextual and historical meaning of the word is very awful, and no matter how friendly you end up saying it is, it will never mean anything friendly (to me anyway lol). I view the word b*tch the same way, I feel like it's also a very commonly used word between black women to each other in their talk, and I also hate it too, because (and I mean this politely), that word was created for a female dog, let's not degrade ourselves to an animal. And I think I'm especially adamant on black people not using those terms IS because of their people's history behind those words being used on them to degrade and dehumanize, because people saw black folks as non-humans. Sometimes I've wondered that if people can inherit generational traumas, do they treat the N-word and b*tch the same way? Like, maybe black people got so used to being called those horrible things that they took on that hurtful language as casual speech to try and reclaim any semblance of control that they lost (and this is me referring to black slaves, not the modern day black man/woman). Idk, maybe it's partly my Christian beliefs and scriptures that warn against certain forms of speech, mixed with the fact that I personally wouldn't casually call someone those names (even if I meant well by them) myself because I was taught the meaning behind them, so I feel like I can't talk that way for fun just because. Like, when I was a kid I had a childhood friend that was used to talking that way (obviously we grew up differently: me in a family that doesn't cuss and her in one that does- and no, I'm not saying this makes me better than her or vice versa, let's not be ignorant now lol) and she tried to call me her b*tch...now, I knew she meant well, but I calmly told her to not disrespect me that way cause I'm not a female dog, and I likewise told her to not refer to herself that way around me at my house cause we don't talk that way, she thought I was joking at first but stopped when she realized I was serious, and I genuinely feel like she started acting like she respected herself a bit more after not saying that word about herself or others as much. Ahhh, this is getting long enough, but another problem for me is how black people say it's such a friendly word, and then switch up when other people use it casually as well (and I mean people that genuinely just try to use it in the same way black people do, to be friendly). Like, a part of my brain says they wouldn't be getting THAT defensive if the word as a whole was good, so there IS/MUST BE an underlying meaning they know about the word that gets them so heated when others use it – and again, let's not be ignorant here, this isn't me petitioning for literally every other person that isn't black be allowed to say the word, that's not it at all, but again, my unpopular opinion is that no one should use it, and that's just my opinion. Neither am I saying black people are somehow wrong either for saying it, I'm just curious, and obviously you can tell by how clunky this message is XD, because I'm genuinely confused about this word and it's appeal and how it's seen as empowering to black people.