I can tell my gf is a good gurl. Cause she always worried about using me or her family using me for money. She even the type to deleted tiktok and facebook cause it's to toxic. I don't know why she feels so overprotective of me and trys to carry everything alone then gets stressed out. I told her multiple times you and them can ask me for money I have no problem. And, I never displayed I have a problem with it or tried to make you feel any type of way about it. But, I guess she just a pure heart that doesn't want to use me. She hates that she can't take care of everything and over relies on me. One day she will know that's what I'm here for. I keep trying to tell her but she's really humble and knows the value of money. Can't wait for my next trip to spoil her and the girls because she doesn't take it for granted. Very sweet nice and genuine and God fearing woman definitely the type to keep your head on straight. She was just stressing out because her father has to go to the hospital so I told her I'm gonna send enough money so you stop stressing yourself out trying to plan everything when you have work. That way they won't need to call you or wait on you at the hospital and stress you out. I told her I would take care of her and she wouldn't have to work but she wants to work and it's a good thing she didn't listen to me her job is good but the pay there is next to nothing but that same job in the states pay alot so she will have a good resume once she come here.

Might be somebody for everybody but not everybody for somebody, hell someone said I could sell feet pics as a guy, she actually liked my feet kek.

Found out hard feelings against God = stone heart. Found out renewal of the mind is clearing the cache of all your hard feelings. This helped me figure out other stuff aswell. Like how to be beneath somebody. Narcissist always think themselves superior. It's like a switch in our brain that we can't shut off. But, I finally acknowledged I'm am not others equal let alone superior. I am beneath most of you. And, normally that would create anger and self loathing for my powerlessness and inferiority. But, it doesn't have to be that way I can be beneath others without getting mad or self loathing. Because I just learned to value who I am and not what I am not compared to others. I had hard feelings about myself = stone heart = barrier seperating me from loving myself because I was not as good as others. There are many things which to love myself for. And, maybe it's good to see others as above me so a narcissist pride can taste death often. And stay humble when my pride tells me to shine above them. No they can shine above me. Everyone wants to be the sun nobody wants to be beneath. People can't stand basking in another glow because it makes them feel inferior they want to shine and have everyone bask in there glow and make them feel inferior like they felt. You can be beneath someone without feeling inferior especially if you love them it's way easier there shining more than you is not a measure of or jab at your core identity. You must know you a sun at your core without even shinning. Cause once someone shines above you might do to much to prove you not inferior. Anyway, it's fun to validate someone else's shinning just like they validate yours. I could maybe get some more insights out of this but I'm tired.

Without labels, it will be like playing a video game on very hard mode without knowing it's on very hard mode and wonder why we are losing a lot. Some don't want to know why because they don't like it and want it to stop. Labels are like clothes. No rules; no limits.

God sees your heart, your pain, and your desire to keep seeking him. Don't let fear convince you that you are beyond his grace. Keep turning toward him, even on the hardest days. “The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.” Psalm 34:18

@talmerie1sback Late night talk show ahh thread lmao

(1:31 PM Sun.) Happy November 1st everyone! I hope everyone's month is starting off great? It's my second oldest sister's Birthday today, so I'm chillin' upstairs with my family while the Birthday girl scrapbooks and draws (she's an artist). Other than that, the end of October was definitely interesting. It's interesting because I ate a cricket yesterday...my sister got them from a store cause she always wanted to taste them, so I decided to try one because if she does something, there's a high chance that I'll try it too. The flavor of crickets were sour cream and onion, and...they surprisingly weren't bad, just very bland, like the shell of a sunflower seed in taste. It's surprising I even held one, let alone eating a cricket, cause if you were able to see me irl you'd quickly see how terrified I am of nature in general lol. I can at least say I tried a cricket. But, you'll NEVER see me trying or holding a spider, dead or alive.

Off to Orlando for the official Sonic the Hedgehog Live Concert! I was super bummed a couple years ago when I missed the Sonic Symphony tour. Been busting my butt working and handling family matters, but tonight I rock the night away! I think I may have posted about this earlier, but anyone else checking tgis concert out at one of its locations? https://sonicliveinconcert.com/

I just carried these bois. I got a Savage aswell lol first savage back since playing I'm de rusting. Granger that guy they double team me in my lane and still couldn't stop me.

The people who say "everyone's a little autistic" or "everyone's a little neurodivergent" are the same type of obnoxious people who go drink beer and when they hear James Talarico say Jesus would flip tables in the Supreme Court, they would say, "He should have done that in the first place."