Be a man push your emotions down so you don't appear weak till you blow up and kill your family. Works every time. Edit: Cause you know if you never admit as a pillar that your weak how are they suppose to know your about to break from there added pressure. Then boom you can catch them off guard. Instead of asking for there support. If you tell em your weak they might think lesser of you and disrespect you instead of caring for you they don't care about your world or want to communicate and you can't tolerate that so tolerate it and pretend to be strong the pillar of the family until one day just the slightest pressure breaks you because you was carrying it alone.

(3:22 PM Thu.) I have wifi for today and for two days on the twenty-first and twenty-second of this month. Obviously, I came to say hello since my mom left a phone with WiFi for me to be on while she’s out. Speaking of, I’m watching my grandma today since the parents, eldest sister, twin and baby brother went out to our aunts to pick up their van for our eldest sister’s Birthday coming up. I have to make her rice for dinner…which I’m scared of since I’m never able to get the rice just right. It’s either just a tad too hard or soft, but hopefully I do well today! Besides my eldest sister’s Birthday coming up this July 21st, I don’t think there’s much of an update to give? God's continuing to be faithful and provide for the family through random money donations or neighbors giving food, but other than that, we are waiting on Him always. I hope you all have been doing well in this weather and just in your day-to-day life? I love you guys very much! ♥️

Just take up gardening if you have the space for it. Simple as that. Being more active in helping my father with his property and being more environmentally concious tending to Monarchs at my place has done wonders for my mental health. It guve you a quiet space that reminds you how growth and peace takes patience and consistency. And just getting to see these little guys and watch the butterflies come tells me what I do matters to the Earth around me. A few little plants can do more than you realize.

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