(1:39 AM Wed.) Sigh...sometimes I despise how much I prioritize thinking about things deeply to myself, not saying that I act like I know everything I think about or even that I come to conclusions about said things I ponder on, but...simply thinking about things and taking the time to view the situation or topic is something I have always treasured in my heart. Especially when it comes to me...I admit I think harshly (which is something I've confessed on here before). Today though, my eldest sister was braiding the front of my hair to give me two antenna (that's what we called them cause they look like it), however, I believe I have severe (maybe not as bad as some people's) scalp issues. Which I really hate having because I really do love my hair and the severe dandruff/possible psoriasis is just yet another stupid thing in the long list of things that make me feel ugly. I've come to a pill that I've always taken before but it's grown larger each time I've pondered upon it, so now (as it's too big a pill) I can't ignore it and 'get it over with' anymore. I've realized that my family hurts me, not in the mean way, but it's a hard pill for me to swallow when realizing things I'm disgusted with about myself and curl up my face at, are things my family shows care for and gentleness. I felt embarrassed as my eldest sister took to gently picking away at my scalp to clear it up, because I realized that is a gentleness and love that I never show myself. I almost wanted to tell her to let me up because it's no use, to tell her I feel ugly when they see those things I hate...but I didn't want to break down crying so I let her continue. I think, in a sense, I am jealous of their love for me because I truly desire to have that for myself. I can say, however, that I truly thank God for my family and for placing them in my lives. I almost had to flee to the bathroom to type this out cause my eyes started watering badly, but I know this is only a pain from truth...and the truth shall set me free, so I guess I can't complain on such revelations. This journey to loving myself is frustrating sometimes, but I'm grateful for the ability to think still and treasure these things in the depths of me. ❤️

I don't look forward to having my car worked on today. I hope they don't find anything new to fix...gah... https://i.pinimg.com/736x/b7/5e/fd/b75efd8d5d8bba12a34b51b6213244c2.jpg

https://i.ani.me/0365/7809/1000006450.jpg I started watching this show and it seems pretty cool. https://i.ani.me/0365/7797/1000006449.jpg I enjoy the art and character design. Feels reminiscent of Slime, but as far as I know this isn't an Isekai, but a fantasy world with video game abilities. The characters are not supposed to be video game players like in Overlord, but actually belong to that universe if that makes sense? https://i.ani.me/0365/7801/1000006448.jpg https://youtu.be/kJdvhWfCLGM?si=Kaecy8s5TlaRYZFy Ending credits song is pretty dope, too!

Even if others don't show it on the outside, everyone is struggling with something on the inside. No one truly has it altogether.

@verucassault It was so emersive I felt like he was calling me his 'Cupcake!' https://i.ytimg.com/vi/-vC7fdfPaA8/mqdefault.jpg Made my little heart go doki doki!

Godfather of Harlem, Season 1 https://resizing.flixster.com/-XZAfHZM39UwaGJIFWKAE8fS0ak=/v3/t/assets/p17227509_b_v8_ai.jpg