This baby right here is a part of my nostalgia. My family and I used to live in a van like this when I was a kid, way before our baby brother was a thought. I slept on the floor right next to the door since I was only a toddler then, on a pretty colored fish blanket (it was a bright blue color). I still love vans to this day cause I just think of my family and all the good times we had in this vehicle (even though it was a tough time). Ah, I also can't forget the peanut fight lol. My eldest sister and I fought over the last peanut in a baggy/container cause we were hungry XD, that probably made our mom feel bad...but it was funny at the time (and still to this day tbh lol, our mom still hates the memory of that).

https://youtu.be/00lvNU9TgT0?is=jHOofHu0udFwpELr https://youtu.be/eN2K0ty9EVY?is=sWSbMzmyJeBAP51M https://youtu.be/G384R1CJryQ?is=AidLuoy2ouPLMwmN

https://youtu.be/UxYkB3BE5HE?si=CTDSe-xNLh3PddwX Also, please rethink about who you do things online with, especially adult things. People are weird and creeps out here and you never truly know who you are talking to (unless you are one of them? In that case, forget what I said lol).

I first got a design concept done with chat GPT so I have something to start from. The hard part was translating it into blender. I wanted to have a fully rigged up 3D model that will move and talk so I downloaded VRoid Studio on steam and used their free base female model. It already was fully rigged so all I needed was to do the clothes and hair and accessories. Now I'm working on the hard part. Here's what I have so far! https://i.imgflip.com/b10s3v.jpg

Can confirm. Before the AI did this, it was something corporations hired real writers for. Basically you post something relevant to what's being said in a thread, then segway into a landing page. I almost got a job doing that when I was strapped for cash, but chose to market myself more for world building. I dunno, I just need to write for something that has a soul. But yeah, before the AI indexing, we had Bit Coin Mining Bots constantly spamming accounts. Pre-Ukrainian war, most of em came from the Kremlin. That was them trying to prep for sanctions, I'll bet.

My back just started hurting out of nowhere guess I'm getting old. Pray for me that it's nothing serious. I probably should go to the hospital. But, imma ride it out and see what happens. I wouldn't be concerned if I didn't feel light pinches in my chest but they stopped. Back is one problem chest is another. Trying to see will it ease.

I'm not a pastor so this is just a man trying to understand God. I found when a pastor gives a harsh word it often times make people fall away from the faith. Here's what I learned from giving up on God for a couple days. People don't like a harsh word because it breaks there illusion of security and replaces that security with a impossible standard they must meet to feel secure. It feels like your on thin ice instead of the solid rock foundation Jesus is. When you realize you can't be perfect the weight becomes to heavy and that's when people start walking away from the faith. Because they feel insecure and heavily burden. The burden of trying to be perfect and the spiritual anxiety / insecurity of not knowing if your good enough to be safe makes alot of people fall away from the faith. Including myself. It's the fact that the word took your security away and you no longer feel safe for being who you are and where you are. People normally do one of 3 things after noticing that. 1. Some give up the faith to escape the constant feeling of guilt and inadequacy cause they know they can't be perfect and carry this heaven burden and they want to feel secure again for who they are and where they are. 2. They start to perform out of fear or as a bargain as if they can purchase safety with there good performance they always feel like they on thin ice with God never seeing Jesus as a solid foundation which to have hope in putting more focus on who they are rather than who Jesus is. I found myself at 3. 3. We are meant to be secure in God, but true security is rooted entirely in His faithfulness, not in the false confidence that we have done everything right. If you feel secure because you think you have checked all the right boxes, that is not security in God—that is security in yourself. The story of the Pharisee and tax collector MADE ME SEE CLEARLY AND I CAUGHT IT FINALLY number 2 thinks if he does everything right he will be secure just like the Pharisee believed. The Pharisee had pride in his own religious achievements. Number 3 knows he has no leverage here and cannot earn this but hopes for mercy anyway. Number 2 says I'm going to chruch cause I'm scared and I'm trying to perform and earn my way into heaven I'm paying god back. Number 3 says I have heeded you in love and have gone to chruch I know this cannot earn me grace it is your finished works through which I am saved nothing i do can pay that back. One moves from a place of fear of salvation. The other moves from a place of security in Jesus and is stirred to move from a place of awe and love cause of his sacrifice. He trys not out of fear of punishment he trys cause of the one who loves him even though he's a sinner. Jesus just want us to reciprocate some love back. Not do it out of fear like a slave or robot. Now that I understood the difference between love and fear I have some love to give to God. You know what that means A RELATIONSHIP. It's all God wants. For you to reciprocate some love back. Maybe like read your Bible not to earn something just to spend some time with him. 1 John 4:18 18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.