Saw a post on Twitter today that said: "When someone has already decided who you are, they will interpret everything you do through the lens of that idea. And at that point, it has nothing to do with you anymore." Reminded me of that feeling of sonder but in reverse. Might be egotistical of me but I do wonder what kind of person the people I'm close to see me as. And what sorts of ideas about me would they readily accept good or bad?

Irish Lilting, I love it: https://youtube.com/shorts/Y55U1YgYRHI?si=I2R7s8T3PyLi8jJx

Happy Super MAR10 Day! https://youtube.com/shorts/zlNxffBRJtI?si=OEIAqUwyTcPKHk2e

I own the official sampler album of all Excelsior Eco-Voyage albums. These are the only ones I found on YouTube. https://youtu.be/XfD4jj-K8tA?si=wkYMWKsaAUrbutGC https://youtu.be/91Gqe2vZF0A?si=JRR3Xo1pAH5ouRvl

Easygoing Territory Defense by the Optimistic Lord. It has 9 episodes so far. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-lgT3jToqOI

@arc it helps deal with dry meat a lot lol, I love a good vinagrette as well i dont know a lot of low calorie ones besides Bolthouse farms, Kens or Olive Garden. I learned that trick from this guy i think? I forgey tbh but i did find out about pickled onions from him https://youtu.be/hGytLxc95Pk?si=knxBWEak0R5mvfLK

@a_wesley_g Thanks man. I hope you overcome your struggles with that aswell. --------------------------------------------- Just a rant I can validate my heart anytime I want but that's to much like defending. I don't want to defend my image and heart. I want to accept a changed image and a changed heart. Changes happen and instead of trying to defend against them I accept this new image. And, I'm quite alright because I stopped fighting it. I went from wondering why I'm not liked and defending my heart and image against that to accepting that I'm not liked and being cool with that. I'm not defending my heart and image against not being liked and I'm not fighting to be liked. I just accepted a change to my image and heart. Not everyone will like me, and that’s okay. I don’t need to fight to control how people see me. I can still respect myself and keep growing. I'm not liked I don't have to fight it I don't have to defend against it. I just accept this new change. It's not like I will die lol. It just hurted because I defended against it and fighted for it not to be so instead of accepting it and just chilling with it. It's cool I can validate my heart though. And, it's cool I can stop my primal instincts to defend myself. I'm learning which is so much fun. God is good.

A conversation and even a relationship is a lot like two people rowing a boat: if only one side is doing all the work, it'll just keep going in circles.