Today a female personal trainer came up to me at the gym and introduced herself. She told me her client canceled today and asked me if she could train me today. Any time someone who is pretty comes up to me and talks to me out of the blue I get really flustered and kind of awkward, but I accepted. She showed me some good workouts to get a good feel of where I'm at. I could do a lot more pull ups than I thought I could. 10 easy. while I was doing some dips she told me how she always sees me at the gym diligently training and being optimistic. Then she flat out said she liked me and I dropped my set. My brain short circuited and I honestly don't know what I said in response after that. Full auto-pilot. It's been so long since someone told me that they liked any part of me that I almost forgot what it even felt like. It was a good feeling.

I don't know if I should just give up even trying to find that someone at this point...sigh...i can never find one that isn't with someone else already or just doesn't live in the same wave length as or at least accept my wave length as I would accept there's.