@Yuu-Chan I hope you and the kittens lungs are okay? I also hope you are able to get to the weight you want, I saw you expand on that further with Shizuku, and even though he already said it, just to reiterate: don’t beat yourself up too much about it! Not saying it isn’t upsetting or disappointing to gain weight when you thought you lost it, it but I hope you have some compassion on yourself as you take medicine cause of sickness and the fact you work hard and do so many things everyday just to survive. I pray that when I come on someday that you are no longer doing things to simply survive, but you are living life comfortably and healthier than you’ve ever been. ♥️ I hope you were able to build your mini greenhouse? Or at the very least, you know it will be easy to build cause it’s stuff you already have. Make sure to keep up on your water intake! It’s hot out here and you don’t need to deal with dehydration or heatstroke. As for me, I’m staying cool indoors and drinking plenty of cold water. @kuharido I’ve been trying to keep up on my punching, but I have no one to hit…unless you are offering my most beloved Ghost Babe?

I remember telling my dad that I'd much prefer to work than go to school, and him vehemently disagreeing with me. I get why he disagreed with me now ;_;

Just take up gardening if you have the space for it. Simple as that. Being more active in helping my father with his property and being more environmentally concious tending to Monarchs at my place has done wonders for my mental health. It guve you a quiet space that reminds you how growth and peace takes patience and consistency. And just getting to see these little guys and watch the butterflies come tells me what I do matters to the Earth around me. A few little plants can do more than you realize.

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Both false idols are covered in blood no matter how much there worshippers and idolizers wipe it off and lie to themselves and others to maintain perfected faith that there side is pure and unworthy of doubt from themselves and others. They both lack doubt in there causes and twist the truth. When others see a blemish on there false idols the worshippers call it perfection out of perfected faith free from doubt in there hearts. When others focus on there false idols blemishes they try to avert your attention to yours. Neither has doubt that there false idols are blemished. If they were they would lie that they not. They would clean off the blood and hide the evidence. Or they would just think even with there idols flaws there perfect and deserve praise and more worshipers that trust and have faith in there idols. They say forget about the blood this idol is righteous. Man made false idols make you fight each other. Make you believe you are better than each other. Make you believe it's ok to spill your brother blood. It's only my brother blood I am better than my brother he is no brother of mine. My false idol said we better than our brothers come let's kill them. Just like when Cain killed abel and God asked where is your brother. Cain famously replied am I my brother keeper? People today have that same mindset. They have a fasle idol of self thinking they better than others that they would kill there brother. It's only my brother blood I am better than my brother he is no brother of mine It's pride. I keep my eyes on Jesus in these troubling times with man made false idols. To God be the glory for this understanding and forgive me if my understanding is incomplete and displeases you. Have mercy on me Lord a sinner in Jesus name amen.

I've been prideful. I'm glad I figured out the idolizing thing cause God will humble you. But, another area where I been prideful and arrogant is thinking demons are scared of me. That the voices are scared of me. They scared of God's power that rests on me. They ultimately scared of God and not worried or fearful of human strength. Michael is an archangel of immense power, yet he did not display overconfidence or hurl insults at the devil. He relied entirely on God's authority ("The Lord rebuke you"). Jude uses this to condemn humans who arrogantly think they can insult or casually fight evil on their own. It is the Lord power and mercy that I am not consumed. Not my own. I've been acting tough and haughty at these voices as if the power is coming from me. If the power stopped I would eat my words and be consumed. I boasted about my own bravery when I should of boasted in the Lord mercy and protection. I'm arrogant like it's my strength it's Christ strength keeping the danger away. And I'm out here provoking fights in pride. The authority comes from Jesus and keeping the law and I haven't been keeping the law perfect. This is still new to me so this is all I got that I understand I won't be speaking for a while about this stuff a narcissist with pride if I'm lucky and shut up and repent I might not experience a fall. Lord forgive me if I lead anyone astray I will shut up now.

This is a very thought provoking poem right now I'm kinda obsessed with thoughts about weaving and Tapestry and how God weaves versus how I want him to weave and also noticing the threads between those I love is getting stronger thin but stronger. Also, kinda curious how strong these threads can become within a narcissist I guess time will tell. Just had some insight about layering and distance and time and God. Time to think I'll edit this later. Got some insights but can't bring it together. Another day then. “Life is but a Weaving” (The Tapestry Poem) by Corrie ten Boom My life is but a weaving Between my God and me. I cannot choose the colors He weaveth steadily. Oft’ times He weaveth sorrow; And I in foolish pride Forget He sees the upper And I the underside. Not ’til the loom is silent And the shuttles cease to fly Will God unroll the canvas And reveal the reason why. The dark threads are as needful In the weaver’s skillful hand As the threads of gold and silver In the pattern He has planned He knows, He loves, He cares; Nothing this truth can dim. He gives the very best to those Who leave the choice to Him.

They saying D is a fraud cause he look like Sasuke and trying to get revenge for his clan all I know is he died to soon. Hopefully he got some black wall quick hacks. Bruh might really be a fraud though lol.