Floral Mommy ®

I'm about to be the whole cornfield with what I'm about to say...so bear with me please, but one of the most fulfilling relationships you can form (aside from God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit) is one with yourself. I'm not sure who or what you believe in @solid_snake95 , so I don't want to sound like I'm trying shove something on you, but I think that maybe being tired of performing for others and doing things to get them to like you or whatever is one of the keys to trying to be happy. I'm not saying it's the permanent solution, but sometimes we can get so lost and confused showing up for others that we truly forget to show up for our own selves in the ways that matter most. Now, I'm not saying you making time for others is a bad thing, and neither do I hope your kind heart becomes calloused or cold because of those who took advantage of that, but sometimes we can get caught up in wanting to love others so much because we want to feel loved (even if it's by ourselves) that we become burnt out or it feels like a performance instead. Basically, I hope God is able to strengthen you right now, because physical strength can only do so much for you, especially when you heart is restless and your soul is weary. I pray you take care of yourself, and please try not to over do it with the gym stuff, you hear? I'm proud you've chosen a healthy life for yourself after expressing the desire to do so, but balance is key to all things (I just say it as a precaution because I have a loved one with depression who drowns himself in exercise to a dangerous degree). If there's a chance you do believe in THE true God (Bible), simply make room in your heart for Him in whatever way that looks like for you, and He can and will give you rest. I love you! ❤️