https://i.imgur.com/D7lGC80.jpeg Why did my father ask me, "Have you lost your damn mind?", even after MRI Scan shows no brain tumors in my brain? And why do most people told me I'm not a narcissist even though I had a physically and verbally violent history while repellent to most people seen as someone to even secretly hate? My stepmother and RFK Jr. both have similar opinions about neurodiversity while she dislikes him simultaneously. She is Democrat and trusts Autism Speaks. One of my classmates is Republican and distrusts Autism Speaks. Co-founder of Autism Speaks donated to Trump. I'm always Democrat and distrust Autism Speaks.

Going to be doing three different cosplays in February for a big convention for each day I’m out there. First is my Sam Raimi Spiderman Second is my sleeveless jacket Trunks Third I decided I’m gonna be Chuuya from Bungou Stray Dogs and found a really decent cosplay I’m procuring now

I finally did it! I ran for 40 minutes straight, even longer than a 5k distance! My heart rate shot to 164BPM and stayed steady. I FINALLY have enough stamina to briskly jog a 5k. This has been a whole month of struggling trying to reach that level. You guys can do it in just a month if you really commit yourself to it.

I became a soldier today more than my time in the Army. Maybe it's a sign. Spending the day seeing what I'm made of. Happy Veterans Day!

I finally reached the point where as a narcissist I'm tired of being selfish. I'm so tired of it. Idc how hard it is to love anyone but myself I'm tired of it T_T. I always said it was to hard it's alien diffuclty to us because we have to understand something that's alien so I didn't change but I'm tired of it. Idc how hard it is. Somebody else besides me deserve love even if I don't have empathy to power than that love I know in my spirit and in my mind I care. I didn't have the strength before but now I'm tired of it I can't go back to what is comfortable for me but hurts others. I have no choice but to move forward cause I'm tired of it. I guess I'll find out what I'm made of cause I can't go back. It should be easier cause I'm tired of that place that gave me comfort. I got a life to live no matter how hard it is with people I care about. I can't let it fall apart. The world think a narcissist is to weak well I'm tired of that being the case. Maybe God answered my tears. Cause I'm finally tired and willing to care for others. My gf love made me tired. She was the straw that broke the camel back.

Been doing some mad scientist crap in my kitchen in preparation for holiday football season when my brother comes to visit. Been trying to perfect my recipie for fried pickles! Latest attempt using beer batter with just a touch of buttermilk. Inside are jalapeno popper pickles for an extra kick! Who wants to be a test subject?