@solid_snake95 I'm sorry to respond to this...I know not everything is deserving of a response, and I also feel like there are certain things I shouldn't talk about due to the fact I've never dated or searched for love before romantically. But, I do want to say that there is absolutely nothing wrong with having preferences or standards you want a partner to meet, and I've talked about this in a different thread before, but those preferences necessarily shouldn't be (especially if it's a physical kind) the end all be all to a relationship. This is not me shaming people for having physical preferences, everyone does – including me! I really like guys with long hair or just nice hair in general even if it's on the short side, I also do enjoy a height difference between us, but a guy having neither of those things aren't the thing that'll make me not want to be with him. I feel like this sounds like I'm trying to scold you, but I'm not. I'm saying it's very understandable if you want a partner to do certain things, or be physically healthy/capable to do things around the house or simply going out to have fun, but just from what I've seen from healthy couples that actually try together is ultimately this: sometimes your queen/king and lover in life is simply someone that completes/helps you in ways sometimes God only understands how. And it won't/doesn't matter ultimately how they physically appear before you. Who knows? Maybe your future woman will be someone who doesn't physically look the way you may want, but inwardly she has all the love you could ever need. Or, maybe because you started this wellness journey, you meet a woman who is also trying to change her body for the sake of health and confidence in herself, God likes to work in mysterious ways, and those very situations we thought we would be alone was actually preparation to help not just yourself, but others in the same place you once were. Again, maybe I got a little ahead of myself by assuming you meant attractive in a physical sense, you could absolutely mean their personality or something (cause I thought I saw you say somewhere you're demisexual?), but my point ultimately is: don't lose hope and keep looking forward to the future. Trust me...as someone who has struggled with finding confidence in myself, doubting myself heavily AND having self-worth/image issues, take these moments where it's nothing but you and God very seriously. Cause maybe there's still something that you need to figure out in yourself before you're fully prepared to receive something as special as a lover, even if that 'figuring out' is first learning how to properly treat yourself so that you can fully and wholeheartedly love your woman as you love yourself. I always ramble...but I hope you know that as long as you still have breath in your lungs, nothing is ever too late, not unless you keep your mindset in that small space, then that's what it will be. I pray that you find a woman who is humble in character and who God knows will be your rib/pillar and support/helper in this life, because you deserve a good woman. ❤️

It's all about crushing the opposition until they reach a breaking point and admit there mistakes and submit to your rulings. Politics and War. That's the way this crude planet operates. Imma crush you No imma crush you Admit your mistakes No you admit your mistakes I will break you No I will break you You will submit to my rulings No you will submit to my rulings Such crudeness Such Pride

I rely on anayzling people to let the little pieces of them change me for coherence sake. Many narcissists struggle to see themselves without distortions so the best method we have is to see ourselves in other people and through other people. We watch your every reaction because people are the puzzle pieces to ourselves. For some reason we can't complete the puzzle of self alone without distortions. So we rely on others judgment and validation of us to see ourselves. Most narcissist would like that judgment fixed to there same upheld beliefs about themselves. They will try to manipulate you by only telling you information about themselves that paints them in a good light. And, they will leave out the rest of the bad information. No matter how much they coherence to reality and your coherence to reality suffers. It's all the primal instinct to defend the mask of perfection. We go to such greats lengths to defend the mask of perfection cause it protects us from acknowledging our mistakes and exposing the shame of who we are and feeling the shame of who we are and being seen a lesser than we envision. Though thanks to my fighting narcissim publicly here on this site and not receiving likes or validation for fighting the good fight that most narcissists don't care about I cried and realized that no one has to validate my heart and I only could. I switched from external validation to internal validation during that realization at my lowest. I'm glad nobody validated me because that is what ultimately set me free from needing others love, attention, and validation. Not that i don't need people i just depend on them differently. I expose the shame of who I am because I'm not trying to defend the mask. For a narcissist I have a strong inclination to being truthful and vulnerable over being cool and seen as more or superior rather lesser. Though that inclination doesn't always win out. The primal instinct to defend the mask of perfection is strong. Also, I have a woman who loves me for who I am so the selective pressure of getting a woman won't be the demise of my authentic self. And, because of that I have no inclination to be cool here just truthful and vulnerable to understand narcissism even if I have to be viewed as lesser even if my weakness makes others cringe and hate me. I rather be hated for who I am than loved for who I am not. But, that is half true for me. It's a battle to expose who I am. Edit: I now have a internal identity from validating my heart that others can refine. Instead of others views being the crux of my identity. I went from borrowed identity to internal identity.

@gabriel_true Day 164: ❤️ - Nothing Much To Say Today, I Just Love You: Wei-Wei

-=New Anime This Season =- Witch Hat Atelier The Warrior Princess and the Barbaric King Daemons of the Shadow Realm An Observation of My Fiancee Who Calls Herself a Villainess I Made Friends with the Second Prettiest Girl in My Class Liar Game I Want to End this Love Game Marriagetoxin The Strongest Job is Apparently Not a Hero or a Sage, but an Appraiser Petals of Reincarnation ...and others...

Aria the Animation https://myanimelist.net/images/anime/2/77620.jpg Rating: 4/5 Stars Aired: Fall 2005 Genre: Slice of Life, Iyashikei, Feel good slow life I feel a need to throw this one out there, but it's definitely not for everyone. Still they did a really good job with the feel good, slow life, heartwarming story that soothing and relaxing. Think cute girls rowing gondolas in Venice Italy, and that's pretty much the setting of the story. It did well enough to go for on for 6 seasons. If you've seen "Amanchu!", then it very much has the same feel. As the both have the same Original Creator, and Producer. But that one is 10 years old itself.

i confess ive eated meat on a friday. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MDN0xX-GhBM

At least the 1st one got good taste LOL. Todd Howard, man... you have truly, truly done it again. Even the clankers are gettin their 3rd copies of Oblivion.

Woah, woah, we doin this? Aight. We need at least ONE barefoot girl. Or... barehoof.. for that matter. That is my one and ONLY request.