I broke my new year resolutions... I don't know how to shut up lol People feel shame when they express there emotions. Because the world told them your weak if you do and you need to be strong. I'm a narcissist I'm different. I'm not wired like yall. I start frolicking to show a emotion. Because I started without them. I'm just like look at me I'm human this feels great without any shame lol. Why would I feel shame for having a god given human experience. Though I would like to feel shame for sharing my emotions because that's a emotion to and I just love emotions because I'm a narcissist so feeling anything is a gift that I cherish and happy to talk about. And, I found that act of talking about what your feeling and what you going through helps you anayzle for correction and processing so ultimately you get stronger by being a little vulnerable. I love being vulnerable that's where I get most of my work done. I be like oh I felt that oh I thought that wow that explains alot. Lol, they say narcissists can't be vulnerable. Lol, I'm as vulnerable as they come because that's what heals in the end. I have no problems laying my soul bare for all to see. But, I'm wired different people don't want to be vulnerable because that leaves the door open for people to hurt them. And, normal people feel emotional pain on a different level that I do. I was finna lie and say I'm not scared of being hurt but my emotions work a little bit. Though I always appreciate the hurt coming my way and accept it because after all I am the bad guy. And, I always learn so much from pain. I'm surprised nobody here has hurt me yet. Yall some good peeps. Though I'm always free to be a punching bag if you hate narcissists. I could learn alot. Anyway, yeah normal people feel the full brunt of emotions me not so much. They probably don't want to be burdened with emotions of shame for being vulnerable. Also, it fucking hurts yall like wtf what is that like I wonder? It hurts so much people actually get tired of having emotions and they wish they didn't have them wow that's crazy. I been in pain in my head and heart before. I suffer from schizophrenia and narcissism but I don't suffer the same as normal people. I was gonna lie and pretend like I don't know what it's like to try and kill your emotions I do. I'm just not hurting rn of have been for a while. But, I would like to feel overwhelming shame and grief for my actions. I remember one time I did feel it probably nothing comparable to how normal people feel. But, it was alot for me. I was wincing, rolling, crying, folding, and screaming at the top of my lungs with grief and in that moment I felt alive more than ever overwhelmed but alive. But, then the schizophrenia voices said I'm faking it because they was scared of my emotions coming back online. They wanted to deprive me of that moment of connection to my emotions. One day they will come online I don't care what psychologist say they gave up on narcissists long ago. They don't know how much will I have to change and the God that's on my side helping me. Though I just share my feelings here on maiotaku and analyze myself for correction and processing. Sorry if my words make people feel some type of way I don't understand matters of the heart. All I have is cognitive empathy that's not perfect but I and Jesus put work into building it and a miniscule amount of emotional empathy. If I hadn't talked to my gf and told her I was a narcissist at the beginning of the relationship I would of been terrified and anxious she would find me different. I'm still a little terrified she would find me different but she has shown me nothing but love and I have loved her the best I can and she doesn't make me feel bad for my shortcomings the level of happiness she at makes me feel like a human good boyfriend. Most narcissists would of hide that they narcissists because of shame and not wanting to be vulnerable. But, how can you be loved back to wholeness if you don't take that chance and tell the truth. I told her the true me and I told her I'm fighting everyday and I will fight to love you properly and she's proud of me and loves me for who I am. I never could have such a blossoming love if I wasn't vulnerable and shared my emotions. Though I don't rant to her lol. And, I try not to share my emotions if they not nesscary. I just rant here to strangers. Which is frowned upon because you suppose to share with someone you trust who loves you. Instead of being messy around strangers. I'm sorry yall I can't help myself I just like sharing here. Pls do tell me if yall get tired of these rants. Anyway, I like being strong enough to be vulnerable or as they say weak. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong". 

Hi, I’m new here so I thought I’d say hello. I’m a big Deadpool fan, love the humor and chaos. I’m also into reading fanfics and still figuring out the best places to read ones posted online. :D I remember there was a Deadpool story where he appears with All Might. Does anyone know where to watch/read that part online?

(1:36 AM Thu.) Happy New Year everyone! You should be proud of yourselves for making it to a new year‐and no, I will not be taking excuses! It doesn't matter what you did and didn't get to achieve in 2025, or did and didn't get to do. Growth-true growth-takes time, and there are so many things we often achieve that are simply unseen, and it can be hard because we want to see physical results, but sometimes the results that matter most are those invisible goals or abstract one's. I pray that in 2026 that everyone is peaceful in a way that we've never been before, that even though there may be hardships (cause in life there always is) that you matured so much that those old problems/people/situations that once moved you off of your peace, can't even shake you anymore. Applauds to everyone for thriving and growing, even if you cannot yet perceive the seeds planted in your life yet. And again, Happy New Year everyone! ❤️