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For me it's logical to believe in God because of schizophrenia. They say it's psychosis and that I'm just disconnected from reality. I'm not disconnected from reality. I just became aware that in reality there exist negative forces that can interfere with your mind for whatever reason. Though the voices would like me to be disconnected from reality lol. But, they picked the wrong one to target. I understand grandiose beliefs. I'm a narcissist so I had to study it. They always try to inject your mind with this false power narratives to get you to go crazy lol. They especially tried it on me and thought it would work because of my innate reflex for grandiose thinking. But, I been countering darkness for 5+ years and I have Jesus on my side. If I couldn't counter and understand there attacks to make me crazy then I wasn't serious. And, I'm always serious when it comes to dark vs light. Anyway, they just want your mind to think that your power is valid. They will keep echoing the validity of your power until you believe you are the only thing that is valid in the universe. Being constantly told your powerful the mind trys to gauge how powerful am I and that's where they want you constantly making guesses about your power. All they have to do is keep saying your powerful without specifying and the mind will spiral on it's on until you think yourself into a godlike existence. And, you start blaming yourself for things God is in charge of. Cause you've been constantly told your power is valid. The only defense I found when you find yourself knowingly ensnared in a false power narrative and delusion is to know that God is in Control. For God said for if a man think himself to be something, when he is nothing, he deceiveth himself. That's what snapped me out of that abomination of a delusion. The transition from having pride in my own abilities. The kinda pride that would make me even think or entertain that I'm something superior or powerful to having faith in God as sovereign. I can tell you even though the experience of being godlike was false it was the most humbling experience I ever had. Because I got to understand and feel the limits of humans. I understood how imperfect we are and how we know nothing but God let me eat of my pride until I was full and I didn't want anymore. I tell you it was disgusting. The existence pride had costed me was to much to bear to even begin to fathom. I'm so thankful it was all false and I was able to trust in Jesus to come back down to reality. I'm thankful he spared me from that existence of me eating of my pride and regretting my own existence. Lord forgive me. Have mercy on my soul. Lord have mercy on the other narcissists we are afflicted be gentle with us and be merciful to us like you was to me Lord. I beg you Lord. Thank you for this breakthrough today Lord. In Jesus Name I Pray Amen. Writing always help me reach within and reach out to God that's why I never stop. Anyway, yeah it's logical to me God is real because the voices showed me there exists other intelligences out there that we don't understand by circumventing my mind and showing me pieces of my mind I didn't have access to. You don't know what you don't know. But, they made me to know my darkness which was there mistake because instead of being swallowed by it I learned from it. To a blind narcissist who thought he was putting in work to get awareness the voices showed me I wasn't on shit and blew the doors wide open. I never would of got close to sanity on my own. Schizophrenia re zeroed me out to recheck everything again throughly. I was on the way to be another casualty of the mind otherwise. They stupid should of just let me crash out. But, God would of made a way. And, I would of never gave up. I'm not saying schizophrenia is good. I just found it handy cause I was blind and a fighter who has God to uplift him out of trouble. PRRAISE BE TO THE MOST HIGH. THANK YOU LORD JESUS. Also, I believe God exists because nothing else can explain a narcissists pride. The Bible explains our pride we are foolish men. Cursed men.