I'm beginning to see why some early complaints of Re:Zero is that it gets caught in endless loops of "character development." I mean I get what the writers were going for, however season 2's begining half was admittedly irritating as I felt Subaru relapsed some of the lessons he learned in season 1. Now in season 4 we're back in the trap of endless stalled character growth. Yeah I know it's building up to a grander reveal in part two of season 4, however it's gonna take a hot minute to get there and my patience for these types of scenarios is next to non-existent no matter how much I enjoy the characters overall.

I should try prepping chickpea salads for breaky, it would be nice and cheaper then protein bars n shit. Waking up early and eating just feels weird to me.

Classroom of the Elite 4th Season You and I Are Polar Opposites Killed Again, Mr. Detective. I Made Friends with the Second Prettiest Girl in My Class Marriagetoxin Gals Can't be Kind to Otaku!?

I listened to my pastor on tiktok today. And, he talked about how bloody the cross was. That being a Christian doesn't mean your not gonna have to go through things and everything is gonna go your way. The followers of Jesus in the bible had to go through many sufferings and had to bear the weight of there crosses. And, I realized I have to get down and dirty and bloody and shed some sweat and tears for the sake of the God I follow. The world may call me a narcissist a kind of parasite or a energy vampire. The world will say he doesn't have the love of God in him he's going to hell. The world may not include me in there prayers. But, you know what instead of feeling dispirit as if my weakness disqualifies me from the love of God. I know the truth... 2 Corinthians 12:9 But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. So I boast in my weakness so his power can rest on me and be displayed through me. I am not dispirited by the afflictions of narcissism and schizophrenia. That's just the weight of the cross I carry. The weight is heavy but that's the cost. Faith costs you something. And, for the world who thinks lesser of me. 2 Corinthians 12:10 That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.

So I had some fun alligator incidents lately. One night I drive home in the evening in my Zelda cart during the rain. Suddenly in my neighborhood, there is a gator at least 10 feet long in the road. I almost hit him with limited visibility. He is angry and hissing, so I back my cart away and honk the horn. I feared he might lunge from the side and get my leg, but he runs off. About a week later, I enter the neighborhood and folks are waving at me. I stop on the curb asking what's up and the point to a gator waiting right at the entry gate where every car would pass through. So everyone keeps stopping to pull over at their house wondering what they are waving for, stopping near the alligator they don't see. So they achieved the opposite of keeping people away and lure people to wandering near it.

Gotta start telling my homies goodnight pookiebear https://youtube.com/shorts/Oeq3W9BnLEI?si=NYeSdz1g_hqLMplS

Almost the midnight hour and this birthday bash needs to go out with a blast! https://youtu.be/nzFdG412xOU?si=6vWMIzChoTmoqv6r

It's a full moon tonight and on my birthday no less. Apparently this morning it had turned blue, but I didn't notice the coloration change.