Attending conventions only holds appeal for me if I am with someone I know. While COVID was a thing I found going to them much more bearable because the venue was smaller and intimate. However after social distancing stopped it became almost impossible to move around in a sea full of people. In the end, I had my entertainment getting to meet a few celebrities. Mostly the cast of Aqua Teen Hunger Force, haha! https://media.invisioncic.com/z328913/monthly_2022_05/shake2.png.ce70bdd86a6afc0fff38400852a1a0a3.png

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https://youtu.be/mAW37LSCkQg?is=7lfDLSt0gOuyuz2_ Band: Foster The People Song: Pay The Man

Yes there is, it's a fun game called Deactivate the Account. All you have to do is go under settings and click a teeny-tiny button called "Deactivate" and then you win! https://i.ani.me/0384/6699/1000009871.jpg Bet you can't click the button before me! Go on, I double dog dare ya! Or are you a rotten egg, hmm?

That's easy, cause the Devil Wears Prada and the Bride is a Runaway. https://lumiere-a.akamaihd.net/v1/images/tdwp2_teaser_poster_united_kingdom_6a72f273.jpeg https://bingeddata.s3.amazonaws.com/uploads/2020/11/runaway-bride.jpg

Meanwhile the farmhouse located in Nowhere, Kansas... https://wegotthiscovered.com/wp-content/uploads/2022/11/courage2.png

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https://youtube.com/shorts/2dytk5MAE3M? This is a powerful cover of the song is=eBHlcA9YO6_q_7RP https://youtu.be/Hsc3-BHPfSw?is=5qbCx-WhIuWcZPco I like to imagine Jesus singing this to me And, I feel the longing connection of the world from the song aswell. How I wish our love could be louder than all our pain.

Ephesians 5:11 11 Have nothing to do with the fruitless deeds of darkness, but rather expose them. https://media.tenor.com/n4o4I_wN4mkAAAAM/troopers-responsible.gif I be on they ass they hate me. I'm to crazy to be afraid. And, have to much faith in Jesus to bow to fear. I know where I'm going don't threaten me with a good time lol.

Dreams are like what your reflexs or instincts are they may not play a big role in building the dream all the time but if you honed your instincts and relexs they will show. If you have a pleasure dream how much you give into pleasure in real life will have a hard time become a instinct in a dream to the point where you can deny. I heard my instinct / reflex but I ignored it especially because I dream lightly not vivid just my reflexs and instincts are present it's honed some what just to make me aware but the instinct / reflex is not strong enough yet but my fighting demons reflex is kinda honed they offered to train me in mixed martial arts my old dream that involved me being devoured by a dark strength but in my instincts I don't want that strength no more I declined and when they approached me I blocked all there attacks for declining. I didn't want to be a UFC fighter for sport i just wanted to see myself go mad with power and show people what a real monster is which later I realized wasn't me it was just the darkness talking promising strength and I got attached to that sweet powerful feeling like I can do anything if I let go of my humanity. And, I was ready to give it up just so I can feel the rush of being the most powerful monster it had nothing to do with sport everything to do with showing the world the extent to which I am broken. I would of held the twisted delusion that they are after my life and this is more than sport to justify my lack of pity and twisted joy for battle. How twisted I was I had to denounce that darkness as being me. I'm actually meek without those dark impulses and feelings I don't want to hurt anyone. My instinct now is to fight but it's a different type of fight. I don't want to show the world what a monster look like. I want to show the world that narcissist can be people to. Some of the best of them. I don't want to hurt anyone. Had a dream two white men wanted to fight me and I kept persuading them no and avoiding them because I love my brothers the instinct and reflexs and twisted lust to overwhelm fellow humans in battle is dead I killed it. I would much rather let you hurt me and talk about christ as you do it and just say it hurts doesn't it but my instincts and reflexs aren't that high yet not to corroded by some semblance of anger and will to protect myself. They call that suicidal empathy now days they scared of what empathy might cost them. I'm scared to but the chance of gaining a brother and not a foe is to much to pass up on. There more afraid of getting hurt. Edit: have to hone my reflexs and instincts not to soil myself in a dreamscape. Not that I want to dream I really would like to stop dreaming every night. Atleast it's not vivid because I've had enough of consciousness in the waking hours. Though that might not be a good idea I don't want to become aware I just want to grumble and let my reflexs and instincts deal with the bullshit without annoying me and my rest. And, say good job you look like me out there. You really grew. Or I have grown.