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@gabriel_true Day 134: I changed my mind about my Birthday dessert, I'm not having a layered cookie cake, but I think I'll do banana pudding since I love it so much. Or, should I do chocolate filled croissants? Oh! But, I also really enjoy macaroons...help a girl out, what should I get? I need to decide soon so my mom can get it when she goes out shopping tomorrow, but I'll probably end up choosing that banana pudding. In other news, our aunt Jim (who is NOT an aunt but in fact our cousin lol) will probably visit us at our aunt Jackie's house on our Birthday. The reason we call him aunt Jim is because our dad was trying to call his name once and accidentally referred to him as aunt Jim XD, he messed up because he still was thinking of talking to our aunt Jackie at the time, so now it's our tradition to refer to our cousin by his proper title: aunt Jim anytime we see him. I do think it's funny though, because we met our cousin Jim quite recently for the first time (only sometime last year) and he is enamored with our family already, hence why he wants to try seeing if he can come over on time during our Birthday. He's very funny though, takes after his mom (our aunt Jackie) very much. - Family Can Be Very Fun: Wei-Wei

^ I feel like it can be a plethora of reasons with the anime thing. I have seen enough anime that have overly weird (sometimes to the point of awkward or disturbing) concepts/characters/themes/plot points and nothing is really done about it in the shows, so I think when you have certain things that are extremely weird and normalized in the anime, people who ARE already creeps themselves see it and cling onto certain animes because they see themselves being portrayed as normal or funny in these shows, so they probably think it's way more okay to be unhinged in anime spaces because of that (like with yandere or the perverted characters. If there's an already mentally unsound individual seeing these characters being portrayed as cool or normal, they'll most likely be most comfortable being that thing in anime conventions/places because the community 'accepts' those behaviors for the most part). That being said, I think it's ultimately up to the consumers watching and not the anime itself inherently. I am a firm believer though that a lot of animators over there in Japan/Manga writers have their own mental issues too, especially with the Loli and Shota characters, because that IS full blown pedophilia/creepy behavior for you to have the unmitigated gall to even write a show where children are having full blown sex (with an adult OR another child). But again, it's also up to the consumer to not consume certain content and feed into that. But, if you are already: 1. A creep, 2. Mentally unwell (not in a creepy way) or 3. Struggling with certain things (thoughts, behaviors and desires), then you will most likely gravitate towards an anime that feeds into your present struggles in the first place. What I'm getting to is that like with any form of content/media there's going to be good and bad people/spaces as well as shows. I do believe there are plenty of healthy and good anime consumers out there, but with practically much of everything, usually the bad side(s) end up being pushed so that's the only thing you end up seeing.

Narcissists cannot build genuine self-esteem because their sense of worth is based on a fragile, external "false self" (grandiosity) rather than INTERNAL VALIDATION. They require constant admiration to mask deep-seated insecurity and core shame stemming from childhood trauma. Because they avoid self-reflection, rely on validation-seeking behaviors, and fear exposing their true selves, they cannot develop authentic, stable self-worth. I'm proud to say thanks to my God I can long as we persevere. It feels so good to know who you are and validate your heart and your worth. I'm no longer twisted in my ability to see myself. I use to only see the bad but now I see the good. The voices or people opinions can't take that away from me. I boast with joy what God has done in me he set me free from needing others attention and validation. Now my heart belongs to me. I don't have to seek out others to ask if they see or know my heart because I can't see it myself. I have eyes now that can see and validate it what a blessing to have self esteem and a sense of self and see your accomplishments not through the lens of others but through your own eyes with nothing twisting your gaze. Though I'm still open to others views of me to learn and better myself but the difference is I don't need others views to be able to see myself anymore. I have eyes now. My love for people and learning won't change even if people can't see me the way I see myself. My heart stays open to those who are real and can meet my realness. But, I can see me now it's so fucking cool. They said it would never happen praise the Lord he made a way. I know the devil and the voices hate that I have eyes that can validate my own heart. Now they can't twist it. Man I serve a mighty God man. Wow. Also I self reflect and show my true self everyday I'm doing pretty good for a narcissist. They say we would never do that lol. The Power of God breaks curses.