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I'm busier than ever. Between 60 hour long weeks and working exclusively overnight I don't get much free time during the day. In addition to expanding social circles at church too. I somehow squeeze Anime into my schedule though usually once a week during my only off day. Haven't been to any conventions over the past year. Probably not doing anything for this year either. All that to say, life is going well. Well I did go to court last month because a cop randomly was running radar outside my house, however God be willing I got it tossed out, haha. Cost me $100 dollars regardless just to fight the charge. However it was worth it to not get points against my CDL.

This theme... https://youtu.be/n6ZN_rsEAGA?si=9GEOzJVF9pZxctdF https://youtu.be/APumJ95UH7w?si=fXqi0qAYB7NQVuMW https://youtu.be/NKSUb1734ng?si=8ReoxH4OKnFSJDxM ...was likely inspired by this song by CASIOPEA... https://youtu.be/s5z_QmegP1U?si=rDbL5DeEhHGPtQNc

(10:32 PM Mon.) Maybe I'm speaking too soon...but isn't it kind of odd how Gabby (gabriel_true) comes back and we haven't seen a bot in the forums yet? There's usually one for each day with a stupid new advertisement, but now that he's here again, they've stopped. If anyone suddenly sees a bot making a post in the forums, don't believe it! They just heard my complaint and are trying to prove that they aren't suspicious (when they totally are). That leaves us to wonder though if Gabby were those bots, or has he learned to control them and they were used to monitor us? XD

That femboy isn't the Emperor, it's this guy. Roboute Guilliman https://cdn.donmai.us/original/3b/25/__roboute_guilliman_and_lion_el_jonson_warhammer_40k_drawn_by_babulon__3b251876a53bc211581886e094637a82.jpg

I discovered empathy something they say a narcissist can't do. They say it's impossible. But, nothings impossible for God. I discovered in a low place remembering myself. The emptiness the loneliness the unfairness. The thought that nobody is coming to make it all better. That made me realize how I didn't come for people. How unfair I been to people. The pain I feel made me realize how I must protect people from the same pain. In my wrestling with God I realized he remembers me. And, I realized one crucial thing as a narcissist I keep remembering myself. The reason I'm not there for nobody is because I keep remembering myself. I remember what I can't do. I remember how selfish I am. I remember the lies the devil told me about God. I remember the pain inside me and the pain around me. I remember to fight with God. But, then I realized I don't have to remember this pain it's already remembered by God. I'm forgetting self. I'm forgetting my pain my limitations my beef with God my beef with myself. Cause God remembers me and I'm important to him. Narcissist remember themselves to much I see now I must make room to remember others. I found I'm more susceptible to God teachings if I don't remember myself. To me that's dying to self not remembering the pain that made me question God. Because God remembers. And, by not remembering I can forget the old and step into the new. I don't have to stay stuck remembering the old I can move forward with new memory Edit: I'm always remembering something old that God can't put anything new in me. Therefore I forget myself. The pain The limitations The knowledge against God.