Vent

A great sword must be forged in a hot fire , then beaten and folded many times over before it can be considered good enough to be sharpened. Life can be shit. However, it's how we deal with the shit that makes or breaks us. Also, if you believe there to be an after life, think of this... Time does not exist on the eternal scale, so the time you view here is not even the blink of an eye for those on the other side to see you again. In other words, they are there and in an instant, so are you to them. They won't be away from you, ever. Let's hope there is something and hope every creature will get it's chance to be seen again.

*VAGUE SPEAK BUT COULD BE SPOILERS IF YOU GUESS THE FRANCHISE* controversial, but like, its pretty cheap to just introduce characters to SIMPLY kill them. like i get its ment to show 'nothing is safe in this world, people drop like FLIES' but it actually does the opposite. i now feel like the protags are fucking immortal cause everyone dies but them. and THE ENTIRE organization, the o0nly one that successfully copudl combat the facist government is just gone now? like holy mother of all deus machina's. and whats the point of mercing her like that? on screen? in such a manner? like this is your world, your youniverse that you craft with your own two hands, why not make her death into something with meaning? her one character trait was she wants revenge, let that need be her downfall. let her survive, but she crippled her organization by sending all their resources after one person. dont need to show her death, just say on the radio or passing gossip next time people are around that 'yeah they collapsed and the fascist government took over.' the last death was so well done, so quick like how that shit happens in real life, but like come on. i knew from the moment we saw he was deaf he was NEVER going to live. characters like those are only ever built to pull on the heart string so killing them will have emotional impact, but that shit always rings hallow. best way it could have been done, 100%, but the core of it stands. introducing a sweet character we will love for the soul purpose of the gut punch of their death. once is fine, three times ok pushing it, but 5 characters now theyd done this too? the first 3 made sense, but now its getting a bit much. especially because in the source canon one of these characters DOES live. everyone except the main two are red shirts. again, this show has down these tricks as good as ANYONE could possibly do it, but at the end of the day it is still a trick. if they kept *redacted* alive like they did in the games this wouldn't be a pattern and id have no complaints. but they didnt, and why? i have a theory that the writers dont want to keep people alive, because death is final, its a way of wrapping up that character in a nice little bow. which is well and good, til every single character that has a name fucking dies lol. i hope this doesnt continue, and i think even the writers will know it would be too much to kill off all the coming named characters

I often wonder "Why?" and then I remember literally no one cares. No one. Born with a disability,I suppose. Back to howling at the moon...

I spend about 300 bucks on my pets per month for skyrocketed inflation cat litter and food. And yet still, I can't file my taxes with dependants

https://media.tenor.com/-I1NoJDSREAAAAAd/game-of-thrones-ghost.gif Still struggling with you being gone, how I wish I could wake up to the sound of you howling and coming home to you causing a ruckus, what I would give for one more day with you. There are days where I cant help but feel like a failure and wish I could've done better for you. I know you're in a better place now, but I still miss you Lobito, my little wolf <3

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For nearly a year, I'm still pissed off by a coworker calling me a narcissist while most others considered me to be honest, precise, "not fucked up", observant, and even boss considered me to be very compassionate while my narcissistic father tells me to stop helping others too much. My family doesn't believe I'm a narcissist and considers the individual that called me a narcissist wrong, but society hates the Autism label being used.

Being considered a "narcissist" because of not following this even if I was sent on The Lord's mission for the same exact purpose. People doing the wrong things are looking down on, making fun of and even criticizing the ones doing the right things. The Autism label feels ironically like a shock collar that society only thinks it's child-sized. At the same time, I don't care if I'm considered most beloved or not. Much like when George Washington said he didn't want to be called "king". https://i.imgur.com/qT1TDVW.png