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squirrelatemycookie

35 year old Male
Single
about 12 hours ago
FL
squirrelatemycookie
Woo! Well my 2025 is off to a busy start. Making some serious lifestyle changes after some intense personal revelations, I might be getting a promotion at my evening job, looking to take on more hours at the morning gig, and there may be some other matters coming down the pipe. Here's hoping your 2025 is less hectic than mine. Keep powering through, everyone!
squirrelatemycookie
Well this is a part of dementia. There is a mix of impulse control, thus personal filter that breaks down during the run of this condition. But there is also the element of increased aggression stemming from confusion and memory lapse. Just not sure how to respond to anything. So it may be a 50/50 split on this. But as someone who comes from a family with a long legacy of bad blood relations and even some of my own negative traits I am learning to confront, I would say try to give her as much understanding and forgiveness as you can manage. It may be that if she had more self awareness, dementia or not, she'd probably break down from the weight of guilt and self loathing towards her own words and actions. I say this because there were sign of this in my grandmother as well when she had moments of lucidity.
squirrelatemycookie
I am so sorry that you all are going through this. I get what you are going through as my Grandmother had some bad episodes with her dementia in her final years. I pray for all of you, and especially your grandmother.
wei_ying
Villain Mommy ® @wei_ying Sometimes we theorize about if some of her violence stems from parts of her actual personality. Our grandma apparently wasn't actually a very nice person deep down (nasty comments, putting on an act when others were around, etc.) And she was prone to make very negative comments (something she has no control over now that she has no proper brain function). We don't doubt that it is the illness effecting her at times, but we also ponder on if it's taking feelings that have been buried for a long time out of her. Sorry for rambling, Cookie, your prayers are greatly appreciated. ❤️
wei_ying
Villain Mommy ® @wei_ying There's no issue in giving her that understanding. Though it's a bit more tough on our mom who doesn't have that proper relationship with her mom due to the way she treated her growing up, but, our mom makes her own efforts to be as patient as can be while my sisters and I try to relieve her stress in anyway possible. We do also believe that she thinks our mom is one her sisters and not her daughter, because she really despises one of her older sisters and the way she talks to our mom sounds like she's thinking of someone else.
chocopyro
Chocopyro @chocopyro My brother went through some of that during his chemo treatment towards the end. Kept misremembering things, thinking conspiratorial thoughts about his doctors and nurses, and stuff like that, because the neuro passages in his brain were shutting down. He'd be talking to people, calling them names that weren't theres. Misremembering his age as 22. What happened to him as a result of blasting his brain with chemo and radiation constantly is what occurs naturally in some older folk. Here's one thing I learned. The memories? They're still there. It's only the path to them that decays. If you could find a back door in, they will gain lucidity, but sometimes you have to walk them through what they do remember to get there. Something they have an associated memory to often does the trick.
wei_ying
Villain Mommy ® @wei_ying Yeah, we definitely know that she has memories that stick, especially due to traumatic incidences she never git proper healing with. It doesn't help she grew up in a time period where the phrase: "out of sight, out of mind" was a huge thing. Funny that you mentiom chemotherapy and she's also had that done at least twice I believe.
squirrelatemycookie
I am so sorry that you all are going through this. I get what you are going through as my Grandmother had some bad episodes with her dementia in her final years. I pray for all of you, and especially your grandmother.
wei_ying
Our grandma has it and it's getting worse. She talks to the TV as though the people in it are talking to her, and she's attacked our mom about three times and our baby brother once (on top of talking about guns, dying, shooting herself/someone else, on top of occasionally threatening to stab people).
wei_ying
Villain Mommy ® @wei_ying Sometimes we theorize about if some of her violence stems from parts of her actual personality. Our grandma apparently wasn't actually a very nice person deep down (nasty comments, putting on an act when others were around, etc.) And she was prone to make very negative comments (something she has no control over now that she has no proper brain function). We don't doubt that it is the illness effecting her at times, but we also ponder on if it's taking feelings that have been buried for a long time out of her. Sorry for rambling, Cookie, your prayers are greatly appreciated. ❤️
squirrelatemycookie
Sorry I've not been so active lately, everyone. There has been a hecking lot happening over the past couple months. Here is a quick run down. So stuff has come to my attention regarding my parent's health and I've been in a process of having affairs with my brother set in place for the eventuality of their passing. They are in good health as of now, but some stuff came up getting us more focused on this. Been in a process of downsizing stuff from my apartment and selling on Ebay like crazy. Been shipping out 3-10 packages almost every day for the past 4 weeks. That and I have been going through some training that should prepare more for the next phase of my career in finance. So yeah. All of this has been happening the past couple months.
squirrelatemycookie
I am so sorry you are having to deal with this. Coming from a dysfunctional family myself, I get how it is dealing with someone like this.
yuuzora
Mar 03, 25 at 4:03pm
I am ending up paying for my mother's oxygen concentrator on my own because my mother is refusing to pay it and I can't get the company to drop the charges. Her insurance is covering most of it but still has a $169 for the equipment rental fee or some shit. I of course *cannot* tell her this or she'll freak out. It's $27 that will put me in another deficit. It is stressful living with a person who is filled with such hatred and is unable to control their emotional outbursts.
kurahara
Feb 20, 25 at 1:11pm
Hey man, Hope you are gdoing good!
squirrelatemycookie
Walking in a Winter Wonderland! ♡
gabriel_true
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It's currently 29° F.
gabriel_true
Gabriel @gabriel_true Don't figure Florida gets much snow.
squirrelatemycookie
Super cute! Just what I need to rest my herbal tea on. ♡
sakurakiss
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A flower coaster I’m making.
wei_ying
Villain Mommy ® @wei_ying That is so adorable (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠`⁠)⁠。⁠*゚⁠+.
sakurakiss
sakurakiss @sakurakiss Thank you! ♥
wei_ying
Villain Mommy ® @wei_ying You're very welcome, Kura! Is this the first one you've made or have you made a couple already?
sakurakiss
sakurakiss @sakurakiss It’s the first one. I’m thinking of making a blue or yellow one next. Maybe both if I have enough yarn left.
wei_ying
Villain Mommy ® @wei_ying Aww, I'm biased towards yellow as it's my favorite color, but I hope you have enough yarn to do more, these are adorable. Do you sell them?
sakurakiss
sakurakiss @sakurakiss I don't but I think it would be neat to open an Etsy shop someday or sell things at a convention.
wei_ying
Villain Mommy ® @wei_ying I hope you get some good business if you ever choose to open up a store someday. I know from watching my eldest sister, word of mouth and even self advertising doesn't hurt either. ❤️
chaostabbean
Tabby @chaostabbean omg i love this i used to know how i emboidered more than did this thats probably why i dont remember how to do it i recently within the last 3 months learned a new crochet pattern >_> its a rectangular granny square pattern but one used to make like actual full blankets, so i am making a redish hues and shades, gold, silver and black colors of yarn for the blanket and am making it california king sized and i am going to give it to my husband on our honeymoon king sized for my king^-^ along with a pair of customized by me nike airforces with his name and his favorite anime character on mine on the ring finger side with his ring finger hand holding the anime characters wifes ring finder hand and there is a string of fate on their ring fingers. super romantic shit i be doin the most i swear...i go all out for my man ^-^ i also think it would be cool to write a song and have us paint to it at our wedding reception and have him be like, "YOU WROTE THIS DIDNT YOU?!" because he knows me just a fun wedding game ^-^ <_<
sakurakiss
sakurakiss @sakurakiss Thank you! ♥
squirrelatemycookie
The power of Santa was with me. Thank you. But then that power quickly diminished once there was no more honey baked ham. XD
kuharido
Dec 25, 24 at 8:15pm
A very Merry Christmas! https://media1.tenor.com/m/j8COOATrOg8AAAAC/brave-exkaiser-yuusha-exkaiser.gif
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