(10:32 PM Mon.) Maybe I'm speaking too soon...but isn't it kind of odd how Gabby (gabriel_true) comes back and we haven't seen a bot in the forums yet? There's usually one for each day with a stupid new advertisement, but now that he's here again, they've stopped. If anyone suddenly sees a bot making a post in the forums, don't believe it! They just heard my complaint and are trying to prove that they aren't suspicious (when they totally are). That leaves us to wonder though if Gabby were those bots, or has he learned to control them and they were used to monitor us? XD

That femboy isn't the Emperor, it's this guy. Roboute Guilliman https://cdn.donmai.us/original/3b/25/__roboute_guilliman_and_lion_el_jonson_warhammer_40k_drawn_by_babulon__3b251876a53bc211581886e094637a82.jpg

as a recovered hikki neet and currently on meds, i try not to associate with people with mental health issues. i grew up with someone who was absolutely bipolar/extreme emotional irregularity that made my whole life hell is likely the reason for my anxiety disorder/social anxiety, (i remember my first reaction to learning she was arrested was to be relief that she wouldnt be around. i celebrated with my brother. we were just little kids and i think my mother was actually surprised. she has no idea the shit she put us through) and i never want to be in that situation ever again. plus iv spoken with some people on here that had problems related to emotion regulation that were not so great. its kool if you got your issues that your managing, but your issues can not be my issues. i dont make my depression/anxiety anyone elses issue, never have and never would. it feels like the pengulum has now stated that 'never hide your mental illness, dont be embarassed by it, ANNOUNCE IT AND MAKE EVERYONE ELSE YOUR THERAPIST.' i do think a healthy amount of shame should accompany a diagnosis. iv always had immense shame/guilt regarding others being involved in my own struggles, and i hold a subconcious disdain for those who do it (probz cause thats the kinda person i grew up with, made her pain everyone elses with 0 accountability)

@gabriel_true They're doing good, thanks. My daughter is getting a sassy side developing and my son is being recommended for advanced classes in school, so aight I suppose. lol As for me? Sinus and ear infection, double whammy... Yippee!!! Hope you've been doing well, too.

I discovered empathy something they say a narcissist can't do. They say it's impossible. But, nothings impossible for God. I discovered in a low place remembering myself. The emptiness the loneliness the unfairness. The thought that nobody is coming to make it all better. That made me realize how I didn't come for people. How unfair I been to people. The pain I feel made me realize how I must protect people from the same pain. In my wrestling with God I realized he remembers me. And, I realized one crucial thing as a narcissist I keep remembering myself. The reason I'm not there for nobody is because I keep remembering myself. I remember what I can't do. I remember how selfish I am. I remember the lies the devil told me about God. I remember the pain inside me and the pain around me. I remember to fight with God. But, then I realized I don't have to remember this pain it's already remembered by God. I'm forgetting self. I'm forgetting my pain my limitations my beef with God my beef with myself. Cause God remembers me and I'm important to him. Narcissist remember themselves to much I see now I must make room to remember others. I found I'm more susceptible to God teachings if I don't remember myself. To me that's dying to self not remembering the pain that made me question God. Because God remembers. And, by not remembering I can forget the old and step into the new. I don't have to stay stuck remembering the old I can move forward with new memory Edit: I'm always remembering something old that God can't put anything new in me. Therefore I forget myself. The pain The limitations The knowledge against God.

https://i.ani.me/0381/7119/1000009309.jpg https://i.ani.me/0381/7115/1000009336.jpg I've kept some of you waiting, huh? https://i.ani.me/0381/7127/1000009320.jpg https://i.ani.me/0381/7135/1000009325.jpg But today marks the beginning of a new dawn thanks to the connections I appear to have made along the way with some of my faithful followers. To those who've prayed for my return I come now to fulfill those desires. May I not fail to uphold your expectations of me for I am in gratitude for these heartfelt well-wishers! Thank you, truly. All of you!

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