I don't like people who glorify schizophrenia on Twitter. They be like schizophrenia is a super power. I'm schizomaxxing. If I'm not schizophrenic by 40 I have failed as a thinker. Mind you the shit is completely random what type of voices you get. The voices may not be helpful at all and just random noises or worse horrifying noises. Though I don't think I have schizophrenia in the random sense. My voices always feel targeted which I'm thankful for because in the early stages of schizophrenia it's hard to determine what's real and what's fake thankfully my voices wasn't random because that would of made my delusions random. My voices always say the same thing. Your powerful. Your ugly. Your evil. They just trying to put chains on me because they scared I'll move. With great power comes great responsibility. That's why I think they tell me I'm powerful lie the I'm ugly lie and your evil lie is to drag me into the darkness. They just want to make me scared of myself and scared to move. Did I benefit from these chains I sure did once upon a time when I shouldn't have been moving. Those chains helped me discern myself more to be sure I can move when nothing in life was stopping me. Are they still useful? A bit though I don't like the chains the voices put on me because they try to drag me into darkness. I benefit from this situation being called evil and ugly repetitively causes me to discern myself often making me bypass a sure nature which helps me not get complacent. I'm a narcissist after all. Being sure of myself sounds like a trap. When I know there could be more flaws to be discovered. But, still I rest in the peace of sureness everyday. Sureness of myself and the sureness of God. Because it's the only defense against the voices. But, should I really be sure of myself I know it's correct to be sure of God or should I be in a low place surrounded by my darkness until the light within me recognizes it. Problem is I'm happy how I am. I made great strides. I don't want to willingly put myself through more punishment and let down my guard against the voices they are uncaring whether they destroy my mind or not and I think it's there goal. It's only through God gift of discernment I benefit. It's not like they helping me I helped myself in the chaos they caused. And, the people that glorify schizophrenia gloss over how sticky it got in the beginner stages. I could of hurt someone or myself. This illness has claimed so many lives so i wouldn't call it a super power the voices are to uncaring for that. It's not like i can just revert to being unsure even if I still can't know what I don't know and I can't even reach that low place to find out because I'm sure of all my effort. I seen the progress. I'm kinda sad that I have self esteem now and can validate my heart because I can't reach that low place because that's where my best work get done. Though I know the voices will keep trying to destroy me so there is a chance I visit there again until I'm sure the chain breaks. It was horrible times being tormented so I wouldn't glorify this illness. But, I know all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.

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Had to reach into the old archives of my dusty ass closet for this shit. Got an unedited one, and one with obvious fucking edits. Regardless... and dare I say it? She steel on my balls till I run. Edit: My shit is missing a button, isn't it? Fml I guess.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1OzJVlp-qO4 Everyone's smiling, they're smiling. It pushes me far, far away. I can't understand. Everything is blue. Can you hear me out there? Will you hold me now? Hold me now? My frozen heart. I'm gazing from the distance, and I feel everything pass through me. I can't be alone right now. Will you hold me now? Hold me now? My frozen heart. I'm lost in deep winter sleep. I can't seem to find my way out alone. Can you wake me?

My cousin's girlfriend was kind and treated me to lunch, and then we visited an antique and thrift store. She doesn't know it, but that meant so much to me since I rarely get invites to hang out. We plan to have another girls day out soon.

Thought I'd reboot a thread to help people find ways to watch anime. Where do you watch anime? Crunchyroll - crunchyroll.com (Pay streaming site) Nyaa - nyaa.si (You need a BitTorrent client to download them) 9Anime - 9animetv.to (Free streaming site with popup ads) Disclaimer: 9Anime is free because of the popup ads. Depending on the browser you use, they can be an annoyance, or almost nonexistent. Firefox and Safari seem to work really well. Tip: If your browser isn't stopping them, once you open the anime to full screen, you don't need to worry about them.

Gonna have to 2nd that one. https://myanimelist.net/images/anime/13/80515.jpg Action, historical, organized crime, drama It's kind of a 1920s prohibition mafia anime.

Got tickets for the last showing of the Demon Slayer Infinity Castle re-release. On my way to Megacon Orlando the day before the event and the show times line up perfectly for my arrival. A very good omen for this trip. So anyone else going who likes Demon Slayer, let's give this film one last hoorah! https://www.regmovies.com/movies/demon-slayer-infinity-castle-ho00020940

The top 5 “Scoring” anime this season. Scores averaged from multiple sites. 1st. Sousou no Frieren 2nd Season (Frieren: Beyond Journey's End) 2nd. Jujutsu Kaisen: Shimetsu Kaiyuu - Zenpen (Jujutsu Kaisen: The Culling Game) 3rd. Oshi no Ko S3 4th. Ikoku Nikki. (Journal with Witch) 5th. Medalist 2nd Season (wasn’t expecting that one to make the top5)

Catastrophic Necromancer on my 4th time reading it. Somebody please recommend me something obscure in the fantasy category I'm dry as shit.