https://youtu.be/OJN_JctN38E?is=zlrddrMyQ665zIvQ It's so boo boo but I still kinda want to play it

1 Peter 1:7 That the trial of your faith (being much more precious than gold that perisheth, though it be tested with fire) might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ A tested faith is more precious than Gold that perisheth in fire. It's saying if your faith is tested in fire and does not perisheth it is worth more than worldy Gold. This proved faith will bring you and ultimately God praise, glory, and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed. They can't stop a black man who know the game boi. Narcissism and schizophrenia I have so many weak areas that can be exploited yet I still keep faith and fight valiantly with my sword of the spirit and shield of faith. I be bombarded with attacks they know all my weaknesses but still can't make me drop my sword and shield. They hate me boi the voices be saying they gonna cut my head off lol. Like I'm scared lol. I recently came upon some information to that could rock anyone world and faith but I still choose Jesus. That's worth something when you don't turn your back on him. I can purify my faith with that information but I can't trust it to others. Yes my shield of faith has faltered at times and let through some attacks against me and I lost faith in my shield but it wasn't the shield that was the problem it was the shield arm though my defense faltered I wasn't destroyed I was just injured and as a Christian on this battlefield I asked how could I get injured for this God on the battlefield and I began to be filled with resentment for my faith. Nobody wants to get injured we don't want to do battle were weary but then I remembered I do want to be here fighting for my God. It sounds good to fight for him on paper but the moment we get injured we curse his name. Injuries separate the warriors from those who will surrender to there injuries and put down there shields of faith and curse God name instead of cursing the enemy they run away from the battle doubting God's protection and already established victory real warriors get back up and grab there shield because the shield of faith can't be destroyed you just not putting enough strength into it you know what I did I put more strength into my faith and the shield reacted against each attack some times slow some times fast your strength is not wasted in battle I learnt from battle how to keep my shield up and firm and parry the enemy attack. Keep putting strength into your shield to meet attacks and with perservance you will keep yourself from getting injured and faltering. It's a righteous battle worth fighting. As a narcissist I never even felt the normal emotions human feel called love I feel like God is far from me and the enemy knows that and they prey upon my anxiety that God is not within me or by my side to help that I'm fighting a pointless battle that I'm doomed to lose yet I still raise my sword in the name of Christ knowing I'm am not forgotten that my sufferings and injuries aren't for not. The battle was already won by Christ so I should be fighting from a place of victory giving all my anxieties about defeat to Christ and putting more strength into my sword and shield. And, letting his perfect righteous protect me with the breastplate of righteousness that protects the heart from satan accusations. Edit: The shield of faith understanding just came to me while writing. I don't have much understanding of the sword of the spirit if anybody wanna jump in be my guest. I could mull it over but I'm comfortable just digesting this first. The helmet of salvation is crucial though. They try to make you think you battling for nothing so you falter. Maybe I'll talk more about the Armor of God when I get more understanding. All the pieces are important I have something to think about. Twas fun. If anyone wants to correct my understanding of the shield of faith be my guest. Here's a banger for all the soldiers out there. https://youtu.be/IR5_rTCi-Bo?is=DISspRacml2sDVWL

Today I received a windfall from beyond the pale. God knows Christ arranged for the time and place for such a gift to be sent. I deserve it not. It goes without saying that better people should hold onto what I've been handed. I tell a vulnerable truth, not to garner sympathy or to seem great in my weakness. Simply to connect in your time of hardship. Someone I knew little just reached out to place something great in my hands. I am beyond tears while feeling the most hollow I've been in quite sometime. We all have our insecurities. So do I. Though in moments such as this I am reminded how much responsibility I have to carry the hope as well as love of those made silent in this world. People find strength in me even when it's not spoken. Sadly I can't say I live up as the man they believe me to be. Still people like yourself give me your precious time. Time I can't give back. Yet you'd refuse it if given the opportunity because that's the type of person you are, Wei Ying. You're a giver. I am a taker. I'll take everything you'll give because it's more than I'm worth and I'm indebted to your honest love. So much I could say, but I will not steal away anymore of your precious moments. Just know that your words over the past year were a currency that paid the deficit in my bankrupted heart. May it be enough to carry us both through to the next chapter of our stories. Christ be at least you if not the rest of us. Be well always my dearest friend! And thank you, Ms. Ying.

I created a hypothetical situation with Chat GPT. I asked what would happen if two beams from two different pulsars collided perfectly, an event that would be so incredibly rare that there are no observable instances of this. Through a lot of thought it was theorized that the pulsars would create something similar to a nebula, except that it would be made with nothing but pure hot plasma energy. Looking at this from the surface of a planet with sunglasses, you would see a lot of flickering and blinking while your body is wracked with x-ray radiation pulses. You would get sick an nauseated within minutes, but you could survive underground.

Today I took the day off. To relax? No. I have to renew my driver's safety certificate with State Farm because it expires after a only few years. State farm believes all their drivers have the memory of a goldfish. It is 6 hours of the most insufferable, un-skippable, brain dead common sense content. Not only that, it's the same exact videos and content that they made in 2010. Not only do you have to watch old people get into and out of cars telling the camera they don't know what a "twitter" is, AARP insults you by playing back the same video clip multiple times.

Lilith and the Knight is dope. How did you come across this artist? @piccologirlie https://youtu.be/AOV4gOMx-qw?is=1jiKBCjKw8cah-CC

Loving someone who hates you may sound impossible but it can happen to anyone, anytime. When supporting their relationship, they hate on yours. When asking about their day, they don’t ask about yours. When being there for them, they’re never there for you. Having to face the truth and finding out the person you “love” actually hates you is heartbreaking. Having to rethink all the time they wasted on that person is truly stressful. And the worse part. They’ve become attached to the person. So attached that they can’t forget them.

I have finally reached the threshold of knowledge to where I have become dangerous and gotta slow my role a massive degree. So I can no longer share what's on my mind for fear people won't be able to handle the information the benefits do no outway the harm it could cause. I finally understand that it's better to shut up and talk about anime and stuff here. Anybody excited for Kenpachi Bankai and Yoruichi cat form in the bleach new season?