The one thing I notice with those who have schizophrenia. The voices operate off poisoning so I know who they come from the one who poisoned us in the beginning. They poison the mind heart and spirit. Your spirit gets weak and more susceptible to the venom with each bite. Your mind gets weak and susceptible to venom with each bite. Your heart gets weak and susceptible to the venom with each bite. But, the word of God is medicine to all flesh and spirit. They attack with the same things over and over that they know will hurt you the words you fear and that cause you the most pain because they want to inject as much venom as possible. You hurting let's them know there venom is effective. Over time you start hurting more and more deeply. Now the strikes and the venom is pushing you into a mind heart spirit state of helplessness and you chose to succumb to your wounds cause your tired of fighting. I can't lie I'm very sick. I'm not holier than though. They been striking me from a long time. And, I don't know if the word of God is enough to heal my wounds the poison is deep. And, I don't feel like God is on a rescue mission to save me. But, I'm still fighting I'm stubborn. But, the pain is louder than God's promise. So I won't preach something I don't even fully believe I just know the word of God says... Luke 10:19 19 Behold, I give unto you power to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy: and nothing shall by any means hurt you. Mark 2:17 When Jesus heard it, He said unto them, “They that are whole have no need of the physician, but they that are sick. I came not to call the righteous, but sinners to repentance. Edit: I just peaked game and overide that shit because everything was manufactured for me not to believe. My life narcissism schizophrenia. Looking at my circumstances I say yeah I know why that manufactured little faith in you. But, now I'm appalled that I could be manufactured by these circumstances like I just can't choose to go against this unbelief at the moment of my choosing because I feel like it instead of being in a manufactured state of unbelief cause of my circumstances. What that sound like? They must not know me I hate being boxed in. I want to have faith. All glory to Jesus for helping my faith.

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8n8Wd1c/ I just found out I'm super super sexy... Cause even life got hard for me

I'm going back to the Philippines soon my gf been missing me and been working really hard I'm proud of her she deserves a break she's been having a rough time with her daughter. I thinks it's best we all go on a trip for some family bonding time. She's really been killing the game at work she was promoted. We all deserve some good times together.

1. What is your favorite color? Teal or the that iridescent green bugs seem to have. 2. What music is on your playlist right now? I listen to whatever mainly vocaloid and whatever sounds good cant for some reason like metal. 3. What anime/manga have you been reading/watching lately? Havent been reading any manga lately too busy trying to finish reading lord of mysteries. 4. What languages do you speak? English and Spanish if I wanted to fully embrace the weeb stuff I wouldve learned Japanese by now. 5. What job do you have? Use to work Retail... 6. How many siblings do you have? 5 siblings Im then middle child. 7. Do you get along with your parents? Straight for the meat and potatoes cool and it's complicated and a grey zone . What is your favorite drink? Guava juice. 8. Do you drive like an asshole? I try not to but nobody is perfect. 9. What classes did you like in school? Art classes and game dev class even if the teacher was a cringe lord that trauma dumped on us when his girlfriend broken up with him. 10. What is your MBTI?(myers-briggs personality assessment) Im intp it seems cool I took a personality test before and I got a different result such as istp. 1. Do you have any religious beliefs? Not religious whatsoever still go to church mainly for the sake of placating my mother. 13. If you were an anime character, who do you think you'd be?(in an existing anime) Well I dont really know maybe Anzu from romantic killer or background character B. 14. Are you a brave person in the face of things others would run away from? Depends on the scenario if I determine its likely I'll survival I'll be brave. 15. What is your favorite food? Choco flan 16. What is your ideal first date like? Cheesy ass date like eating shitty 7 eleven food and watching the stars. 17. Do you have the brain worms? No what does that even mean. 18. What sort of exercise do you like to do? Walking alot of walking essentially touching grass. 19. Are you a workaholic or a sofa surfer? Sofa surfer I guess do you mean couch potatoe because im not that much of a couch potatoe. 20. What is love? Am i suppose to write the next part of the lyrics lol. Well love is a nice feeling.

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8nR3WWU/ Bro got seduced by a error message XD

so many recomps coming out. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuPJnf9cBkA

Finally filled my bio out Feel free to add me for watching anime together or being passionate otaku's No minors please though.