Day 98: My eldest sister says that 1 AM is actually when it's the next morning, not 12...so no, I'm not late today and I didn't forget to leave you a message :3. I love you! - It Feels Great To NOT Be Late: Your Not Late Friend

My gf cried because I make her the happiest girl in the world. That's mind boggling for a narcissist. Me make someone happy. I don't understand it. But, thank you for liking me I'm trying my best to love you properly. I wish I could cry with her and feel the same things she feels but it takes time to open a dead heart. I believe she can open it so I will keep close to her and let this love change me I know it will take time so I will keep loving her to the best of my ability

I thought I liked a horny gf until I meet my current gf. She's dickmatized. Getting dick is the only thing on her brain. I put in work she cums alot and I think it's over boom she wants more dick I'm like am I putting in work or not. It's like the dick makes her stronger she doesn't get weaker. I had to go get a prescription for sildenfil 100mg because I'm trying to keep up with her. BTW shit worked like a charm. I don't know what to do with this one She's like a all consuming fire her sex drive is. I can handle it now that I got my meds and they work But it's strange normally you'd wanna relax after cumming multiple times but it's like she got no off switch that makes me feel like damn what tf did I just do if you not ready to relax. Got me feeling bad like my dick not shit. Or maybe it's the shit idk but damn relax. Shit makes me uncomfortable sometimes like damn you want dick 24/7 I don't know if I can meet those demands now that I got those pills 8 hours I'm good for. I guess I feel weird because I be like damn that wasn't enough. I guess I should be happy but I guess I'll get used to it she probably misses me we been apart for a while. Send help. If 8 hours of sex not enough for a day I'll try Tadalafil because it's a 36 hour pill. Edit: Shout out to spiagra it came in clutch I got hard just by her touching it which was a first for us normally we'd have to do foreplay. I also felt myself getting hard 15 mins after the pill for no reason. Pretty cool. My gf tells me I have a big dick but what's the use if it won't stay hard. I finally have some peace of mind that I can keep up with her sex drive. Nobody wants to be that nigga that can't keep up. Men if you ever have problems sexual go get a prescription that other bullshit don't work. Don't fall for anything that's not a prescription that bullshit don't work don't waste your money. Try to get 100 mg of sildenfil.

Me and my gf just had breakfast I finally got my gf to try the pan chicken fillet that I love so much and she loved it as much as I do she was mad she didn't get it on my other trips lol. The restaurant I love lost the vote for lemon glazed pancakes salt caramel won this some bullshit them bitchs was to die for Edit: We went to the mall to buy some stuff. And, we gonna drink and order some food and cheesecake. Tomorrow we getting facials.

this is how I would act if anybody asked me to attempt basketball: https://youtube.com/shorts/4BdQOfXoENY?si=20qCHnEiQmhCJmsx

The devaluing reflex is coming on. I'm not done loving her I wanna continue to love her. I'm sick of these sick mechanisms. I'm a soldier but even I get tired when my mind is made wrong. I wasn't strong enough for this fight I have to be. Tears came out when I wrote to AI that I can feel the devaluing process coming on. I'm crying on the inside because I don't want to be swayed to act against love. I'm fully aware I want to love her more but the processes try and run my life. I'm tired of cognitive empathy I want real empathy. I never asked for this battle. I'm tired of searching for threats to my and other happiness. And, trying to neutralize them so they don't stand in my way of doing right. I'm tired boss. But, I'm a stupid soldier that can't not battle for love. Even if it means I have to fully understand every mechanism.

Digimon cyber sleuth and Persona 3 q u q slowly, tho- I want more free timeeee orz