Finally achieved a big long goal of mine of getting a Bow of Faerdhinen with full crystal armor on my ironman. Now I need to decide on a cool recolor!

1. How are you today?: Can't complain. 2. What is your favorite style/aesthetic for clothes?: Preferably something comfortable. 3. If you don't really have one style/aesthetic, what would you choose out of them, or which would you try?: Cottagecore maybe. 4. Would you say your music style fits your look?: Probably not. My music style is pretty random at times. 5. Are you picky about music or no?: It depends on my mood.

Just got finished thanking God for my gf and her 2 girls. And, the tears just came out of no where. God and them provide me with water for my soul. They give me hope and life. Slowly my heart is changing. The threads of connection may be thin but they carry meaning. Who would of thought I could heal another person and care for them adequately that's a big deal for someone like me known for causing hurt. I pray the threads of connection increase with meaning and love and stay healthy in Jesus name amen. I never had a healthy relationship before and it's bringing me to tears that I'm having success. Though there are times I am the darkness in others lives I can also can be the light. Jesus don't let me fail myself others and you please. Do what you have to do please amen. Help me keep growing Jesus amen. To God be the glory.

An adult doll company accidentally sent a board game reviewer an adult doll to do a sponsored review on. So friggin funny lol https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RhJWvt6MB5A

Black Torch Grand Blue Season 3

If anyone never told yah. Trump is a narcissist a false idol. As a narcissist who fights the good fight I consider it my job to warn others. I have the same chains he has but I'm fighting it. Our brains need praise and admiration to confirm our beliefs that we are perfect and superior or great. It comes out of no where beyond our reach the best I can do is try to correct it after. We think like this are they praising me yet they must be I did something interesting as if we are so interesting that all eyes and thoughts must be on us at any given moment we desire it and not on others things. The desire doesn't care about reality. The reality that maybe people aren't interested in us. This desire wants all eyes and thoughts on them and will do anything to make it happen. Where this desire comes from idk. But, God was right about false idols and pride and a sick heart I'm living that shit. We think we the center of attention at any given moment we desire it It's quite sad when your mind keeps telling you you desire to be the center of attention right now now and you are with all eyes on you because of how great or superior you are. Then I have to check that thought / desire because it doesn't align with who I want to be. Idc if I'm not the center of attention I only go so hard and put myself out there to spread awareness about God, narcissism, and schizophrenia. Because not many fighting narcissism and people think God is a joke. If people were fighting narcissism and winning I could just fade away and be happy we winning. Instead of putting myself out there calling myself paving a way when I know I'm not strong enough or smart enough or brave enough. And, I really don't wanna carry the weight of our failures of the people like me and find hope for them. But, who fighting? They all gave up on us the psychologists the people. I think most narcissist even believe God gave up on us. But, we can't give up on ourselves. I won't give up on myself it's to beautiful this thing called love this man called Christ. I want to experience it. I just hope and pray one day people are smart enough to catch on without someone literally spelling it out for them. But, people will perfect there faith in him and the left and right no matter what. People really just wanna serve and believe in something. But, don't get me wrong them mfers on the left insane but so is the right. But, i guess people will choose the insanity that benefits them. Since the game is rigged with no real sensible options or people to vote for. Nobody has a spine.