https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8iC3h-ll1RM My favorite YYH ending song. Listen to this in the rain lit only by the soft hues of a cloudy sky and I felt a sense of wistful reflection. I think the word is saudade? It's a nice song that takes me back.

so many recomps coming out. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=uuPJnf9cBkA

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The physical sensation in my head that I rarely experience when I have a bad thought about something or someone might not be from the holy spirit I think it's the voices cause last night this sensation wouldn't go away. I know i asked God if it's the holy spirit show me more. But, I thought nothing bad so for it to come and not leave must be the voices fucking with me. As if I would go crazy just cause they can fuck with me. Most schizophrenics would be like there is a chip in my brain or there is a bug in my brain. Oh no I'm AI. There mind would go crazy jumping to all kind of delusions. It's likely they just fucking with me so I think it's God they great pretenders and manipulaters you can't manipulate a narcissist. They know I'm desperate to receive guidance from God so they can use that. They want me to see it as something grand and become grandiose they really adamant about how powerful I am. I know power corrupts. My servitude is meant for my God only. Satan can do signs and wonders and counterfeit miracles to deceive people. I'm not a fresh spawn nibba I do this. One day God will evict the counterfeit from my mind and make his wisdom and glory known. Tactile hallucinations are known for schizophrenia so it's in the voices repertoire. If God wanted to make his presence known he would do so in a way that doesn't cause confusion and you would be sure. To these counterfeit voices my God is greater https://media.tenor.com/DVkZ269GdysAAAAM/borat.gif I have to be cautious about what I perceive as signs knowing other forces at play and at play heavly. I don't know why God left me in the wilderness with monsters to talk to. It's loco that I can't hear from you. But, I trust your wisdom. Just don't forget this lost boi he doesn't want to talk to monsters but he's alone and lost. Don't forget him please. Monsters lie try to manipulate then act like your friend. Lord Jesus how long will you let my guides be monsters? Sometimes they take me deeper in the darkness Sometimes they make it seem like they trying to get me out. They untrustworthy. Edit: Lord Jesus how long must I deny my aching heart that feels unseen passed over left to the persuasion of the ungodly. They say he doesn't see you he doesn't care for you he has forsaken you I know it to be the persuasion of the ungodly? I trust your wisdom. Don't forget this soldier. Because this soldier won't forget about you. Edit: Learned about the persuasion of the ungodly today that should be effective going forward.

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZP8tEB3RS/ Everybody switching up now lol not that I care both sides are looney to me.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=28Sdj4DS32g Tie me to the mast, I'm going under. There's a maiden waitin' for me in the depths. She's promising a life of pleasure and plunder. Come search me, sir, you'll find I've nothing left. A mutiny, good Lord, that's what they called it. Just for questioning his command. But jokes on you though, sir, 'cause I live forever. Sailor overboard, just how we planned.