I always begged and pleaded with God for emotional empathy but I'm starting to see that's not part of my testimony. I am the way I am to give God glory and to show that as long as you fight and trust God even us narcissist can find solace in our own skin. We can find comfort in our own abilities if we fight and trust in Jesus. My inability to feel doesn't bother me that much because I leveled up my cognitive empathy a great deal and I'm still growing it. He didn't give me that emotional empathy miracle because my testimony to other narcissists will be move and take action even when you don't feel anything. Love when you don't feel like it and don't feel it in you. Follow God against your selfish nature and against your flesh. Nothing gives God more glory than following when you feel nothing, loving when affection is absent, act rightly when desire is opposed, remaining when your flesh wants out. If you have Jesus in your eyes then God says I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you." Jesus says, "I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing. I guess I'm bearing fruit cause my girlfriend has been over the moon about me for 2 years now. She has emotional empathy and the things she tells me about how I make her feel blow me away that I can even do that to someone when I feel dead. I guess my cognitive empathy was worth the suffering it took to get it. It took work and it serves good. I couldn't of done it without Jesus. I cooperated so that it could be created. When you feel alive, motivated, inspired — you can’t tell whether the good you do is driven by: love of God. or love of the feeling. When you feel dead and still do good, motivation is stripped bare What remains is will. That makes fruit clearer, not weaker. I know my testimony that even if you feel dead that means your walk with God means something to God even if he doesn't reward you with emotional empathy you can still follow him. I know having it would make the walk easier but are you willing to carry that cross for his glory without recieving the reward first. Knowing that in time with patience and perseverance you will be rewarded with a new heart. Jesus can touch us I saw a testimony of a narcissist get anointed with holy oil on his head by the power of God and he was changed and later he felt the holy spirit more clearly. It don't always happen for us but it could if we keep the faith. Maybe I was lucky to not have a excess of emotions cause I heard and see people having emotions that burn them out. Also, emotions can be manipulated. I'd be really vulnerable if God just dropped emotions on me like a new born calf I'd have to learn how to walk but schizophrenia would just use that as a new avenue of deception especially because having a overflow of emotions would be new to me. One time I had grief so profound that I was rolling around screaming and crying and wincing people try to escape feeling stuff like that but I love feeling human but the voices interrupted because they knew I was having a breakthrough so they called me fake to confuse me. Lol they was scared. Anyway, I do wonder what I'm missing out on. To be able to remember a moment by how it made you feel and have that place marker I guess that would be pretty nice and special. Maybe one day if I keep the faith. Being a narcissist is boring. The only fun thing is climbing because they say you can't and defying the odds. Other than that we are boring creatures. Not being guided by emotions is boring and sad. But, atleast I have cognitive empathy. My head will tell me what's right. So boring yawn. It's hard to update this cognitive empathy shit to because I was never like normal people so how do I know what they feel. And, the silly thing is people don't talk about how they feel so how tf do i get data. I guess it makes them feel in ways i don't understand. I just shout my truth all the time without second thoughts because how do I know what it makes people feel. I'm clueless. I could be a bad guy for having that disconnect. Like that episode of family guy with the serial stabber when he gets stabbed and realizes what pain feels like and realizes he's a monster. Anyway, cherish your emotional empathy it's boring sad and lame not feeling things. It's truly a gift.

@gabriel_true Day 68: Nothing much going today, Gabby, just chillin' is all. I watched over our mentally ill grandmother while our parents ran out to wash clothes. Each day her Dementia is getting worse, and from a video our mom found about the seven stages of it, it seems our grandma is on stage six...which isn't good. She's definitely getting more temperamental though and even having psychosis type episodes more, but we are trying to keep her as happy as possible (which is hard considering how much our grandma hates joy...literally, like, I wish I was joking XD). I hope you are in great health this year and upcoming New Year, Gabby. And even if not, I hope you are in a place where you are able to properly focus on your health (whether physical or beyond that). - I Can't Believe It's Almost Christmas: Wei_Ying

I had a dream about running an entertainment companion cafe. You would be served food and drinks by robots controlled by AI with character personalities. On the menu you could choose your server. There were 6 humans, a cat, a dog. They had numbers on their backs to show that they were AI. You could summon any of them from a kiosk if they were available and could chat or play simple games with them.

Hi there My Name is Alex, I'm a super shy otaku who joined this website to make friends and find that special someone in life. I am also a total star wars and Whovian nerd plus I am currently writing my own fanstasy book series. favorite hobbies including drawing manga style, reading good books and playing Video games

Uh... So Cambodia and Thailand got into a territorial dispute that escalated to armed conflict, back in July... Oh, and Syria is still in civil war. Have been since 2011. ...Yeah...

There might be more than one Christmas song in Tetris video games, but this is all I know. https://youtu.be/B9zRToy-mwk?si=9XiGsf1-WsacdseO https://youtu.be/KdPevomELLc?si=RZxlUsKyuOYS6WIA Here are other early popular Tetris themes. https://youtu.be/r6X5hJwAYoc?si=jLRrLoeduo-0V3s9 https://youtu.be/tfjfenbUF7w?si=dymLlsgZK9GCoyXG https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLmUv64sLevIznb1VYNkF2TzdWneh8oUrJ&si=5WUtaAKMjyarOd3J https://youtu.be/85U_lFLFuZ8?si=NQHNDWMMbrvc6EWA https://youtu.be/vJY8723TvSo?si=fOBsnDm2m9bPjSQt https://youtu.be/S098e4mSLDY?si=CWWsZHITbDSFwaWA

https://youtu.be/Yn4KZ-_SGzQ?si=lWm11rSF1mBJ5B70 It was fascinating to listen to someone’s take on the Chainsaw Man movie that isn’t an anime fan lol