I said I would stop talking about sensitive topics because I now understand boundaries and the sacredness of others. I would ask if it's ok to preach the gospel here and share what I learned. But, I have a feeling i'm not a liked messenger. The realizations I have just to good to keep to myself. I would like to share them but I don't want to cross any boundaries. I listen to bk pastor every morning on tiktok he said he gonna call me about a question I had. I'm gonna ask him if I'm doing the right thing by sharing the gospel with strangers when they didn't ask for it. I understand and acknowledge that I like sharing the word of God and what I learned with others. Maybe that will blossom one day and I will blossom as a christian and I will be sharing the gospel and what I learned with people who want to hear it. I don't know what that will look like. But, I know God has a plan for me I just don't know what it is. I know I want to help people and other narcissists and other schizophrenics find God and share what I learned during spiritual warfare. This may not be the platform for it. And, I may be to inexperienced at connecting with people. Also, my faith is not mature. I may not reflect Christ in my writing. It's gonna be hard to keep my mouth shut. But, I know there will be a time and a place to share what I know if I keep following God.

@gabriel_true Day 139: Dinner for me tonight was a packet of my 2x spicy Buldak noodles with peanuts, lettuce, seaweed, spicy kimchi and andouille sausage in it and butter garlic bread (don’t question the combo). The rest of my family ate sausage and rice. It was very delicious! Though my family laughs at me and my eldest sister for eating the extra spicy noodles like they’re nothing lol. - I Feel Bad For People That Can’t Enjoy Spicy Food: Spicy Mommy

Darius the Conqueror was such a great hack https://youtu.be/xCW6rHJwkRg?si=cvoDWwf68Dpodu5b https://youtu.be/Bk1k-aK8ifs?si=61W9SwfrSJV45h2z

I just understood boundaries for the first time thanks to the word sacred. I won't be posting about sensitive topics anymore. I feel I may be crossing boundaries and making people uncomfortable. Sorry I'm a narcissist I didn't know. No one told me so I can learn what not to do. Thinking as others as sacred helped me realize I don't want to be like those other narcissists. I'm truly sorry it won't happen again. Sorry I'm so dense and insensitive. Please forgive my transgressions. I'm no better than the people I despise. I'm sorry it took so long for me to realize the error of my ways. Lord forgive me. Edit: And, to the guys sorry if my ramblings scared the females away. Truly, thank you all for putting up with me I learned so much being able to express myself honestly while also learning about others. I don't know how to repay you all and this space. This new sensitivity for what is sacred is opening doors.

They manipulate the odds in there favor while everyone blames the victims for being the problem. Smh. They view the victims as the enemy not as the manipulated. They been doing it for a long time and I'm sick of it. Manipulating people and then saying they the problem. This runs deep in America's blood and has been a go to stragerty for years. Manipulate and take no accountability become intangible to there accusations and then blame the victim for the damage done. It happens over and over again. That's why I had to get smart. Because intelligence gaps do exist. They say it's racist to think certain people are less smarter than others. But, I know what type of timing we on it's elite deception most people can't handle that. Yet they blame the victims for being low IQ rather than blame the manipulators for badly influencing there sacred and vulnerable growth paths. They bash the unknowing victim of manipulation but spare there wrath on those manipulating. I guess they just want a problem they size they can beat on because the manipulators stay intangible. But, there victims still are problems. Smh this shit is getting old. They can never influence me to grow within there lines of thought cause I know that's how they control. I know what timing I'm supposed to be on. Edit: They never respected the vulnerability in our intelligence and the sacredness of our potential growth paths. They rather have everyone think they are smarter and better than each other while they manipulate your growth paths. Everyone is a victim and our potential for growth was manipulated. Smh. I don't play there games. I expose them. Edit: But pay no attention to my ramblings I'm a narcissist. I respect others sacredness and potential. And hate when it's trampled on.