@gabriel_true Day 153: Brother in Christ...I genuinely think I'm ovulating or something rn? I have been getting the urge/thought recently of wanting a baby, which isn't a bad thing in my book, oh no, no! However, I feel like there's still so many things I have to work out with myself before ever carrying such a precious thing right now...that and I also have plenty of self-deprecating thoughts/insecurities/reasons on why I'd actually be a terrible wife and mother, so I reeeeeally need to work on the self-sabotaging thing honestly. One of my reasons on why I'd make a bad mom is-and I know this probably sounds so stupid-but I think I'm an idiot sometimes. Like, seriously lol. I don't feel like I'm book smart, and I don't trust public schools so I know I'd want to homeschool my kid myself, but I beat myself up about a little human that isn't even in existence because I tell myself that if I did that, then they'd end up dumb and ignorant of school things, but only because their mother is a complete numnut. Also, not to mention the way I view myself at times/right now, I know my babies would be looking towards me as a learning example of many things: one of those being a healthy source of self-confidence and independence, and I DO NOT want my kids to EVER overhear me being mean towards myself, cause then they'd think that's normal when it's absolutely not. Okay...let me stop ranting now, Gabby. That's why no biological kids of my own right now XD...but maybe one of these days, sometime in the future if God permits it, I'll come in announcing my pregnancy. - I Want To At Least Hold One In My Arms, It Doesn't Even Have To Be Mine: Wei-Wei

25 days until my mead is ready for it's next step. The wait is excruciating XD https://media1.tenor.com/m/g02Xs9DcGt0AAAAd/piddel-piddel-meme.gif

Okay round 3 of the 5k track. Today I decided to just haul ass, push the entire run as far as I could, heart rate high. Halfway through I felt like I was sick to my stomach and actually had to slow down to a walk with splitting side and breathing heavily. But after a minute, I carried on, trying to pick up a faster pace than last time. I thought I wasn't doing the run that great, but I managed to finish the run in 31 minutes 15 seconds! That's a couple seconds lower than the fastest time I ever clocked 3 years ago. I shaved about 4 minutes off my last run, but this was almost my absolute limit. My goal is to have a good pace all thee way through and finish under 30 minutes. I also checked my weight and I lost about 6 pounds since I started this 5k challenge a week and a half ago. That's actually pretty crazy weight loss. Doing a 5k while fasting will burn fat really fast! Right now my weight is at 130 after the run which is awesome considering my goal is to see under 130 on my weight. This weekend I'm going to try to jog part way up a mountain and see how fast I can get to the summit and back.

Block Out arcade by Technos Japan ported, but never released it for FC/NES. Some BGM were taken from the arcade version. https://youtu.be/RAIny5LWss8?si=DS3mM8oZxwjSRJct

"This thinking music is the GOAT!" - Diehard Conformists https://youtu.be/vXGhvoekY44?si=vPIChp3bhTRZ0Jih "WTF IS THIS S***!?" - Diehard Conformists https://youtu.be/nSXZCCwUJTg?si=YTLfpzrtDVIwzG7O

https://youtu.be/6nGITYREWF4?si=3DaATjzS4R6I6O2h https://youtu.be/Hh6j6dwxykQ?si=b_GfNjcvk4p3EO67

Got tickets for the last showing of the Demon Slayer Infinity Castle re-release. On my way to Megacon Orlando the day before the event and the show times line up perfectly for my arrival. A very good omen for this trip. So anyone else going who likes Demon Slayer, let's give this film one last hoorah! https://www.regmovies.com/movies/demon-slayer-infinity-castle-ho00020940

Woo! Heading off to Orlando for Megacon! Going to get my holy grail Ratchet & Clank statue signed by James Arnold Taylor. I haven't had time to finish my LED fire legs for my Sanji Cosplay, but the voice of Sanji will be there too. Gonna have Eric Vale sign one of my DVDs. Any other Floridians there hit me up! More pics coming soon!