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(11:36 PM Sat.) WARNING: VERY LONG MESSAGE MOST LIKELY. I've decided to do a bit of a life update everyone since I have wifi atm. To be honest...it's been a very interesting year so far. I have stated before that there was a thing God called me and my older sisters to do, a thing that has started since 2021– as usual, a walk with the LORD is no easy feat, but why should it be? If Jesus - God in the flesh- also went through hardship, why as His people are we exempt? Anyways, this thing he asked us to do hasn't been easy (I'm sorry that I can't say what it is specifically yet, God still is working on this thing, so I don't want to speak out of turn), and honestly my faith was really shaken at a LOT of points in this walk He had us do. There were spiritual attacks that God has revealed from the people (not you guys) closest to me in my life that hurt a lot more than I thought it would. He's taught me through these trials though how to release these people into His hands fully and to let go of them to start caring about myself more, cause He revealed that with these certain individuals, me continuously allowing them into my life despite repeating offenses was doing more harm to the both of us than good. And in being obedient to the LORD despite my own fears, doubts (that the enemy tried to use to get me to not obey) and anxiety – in choosing obedience rather than sacrifice, we (me and my sisters) have caused a sort of discourse/schism between these people God had us politely confront about the things He revealed unto us. Honestly, everyone, these past three years have been so hard...because just like @gabriel_true said about me in the messages to me thread, I tend to give and give and give...to the point it has drained me. I've felt like a jerk so many times because I actually had to stick up for myself and not let things slide anymore, by God's command, because if it were on my own terms? I'm afraid I'd never tell anyone that I'm tired or in pain, even if it's cause of what they are doing to me, because I know I am a safe space...but God has been teaching me that others see that too and prey on it, which is something I've seen manifest in others as a legit spirit/entity- I wish I was joking, but these things truly aren't a joke. I still have A LOT to learn about learning to talk about my issues. But God continues to be faithful as just this year, sometime in January I believe, God broke a spirit of heaviness/depression off of me through my obedience to write a letter to my oldest sisters as He commanded, and when I did? The weight in my heart immediately ceased and He showed me His love through my sisters caring for me, because during that time I hadn't showered for months cause I didn't love myself enough to. He also showed me care by my mom doing my hair for months because I still couldn't find the strength to do it, and everytime I asked, I was met with her bright smile and a "of course!" Being directed my way. Another reason I struggled heavily is because one of the people God exposed to me is someone I had a dream about before who is really close to me...in this dream they were slowly decaying in front of my eyes and losing their life in front of me everytime they went out. I warned this person about what I saw because they were living an unhealthy lifestyle: partying literally everyday and drinking/getting high, but they stopped...at least for a time. This person has recently gone out again and has pucked up drinking and smoking again- and this time, drugs are coming into play I believe. I don't have solid confirmation myself...but it's a feeling, and this person is literally starting to look the way they did in that dream I was given: unhealthily skinny, tired, unbalanced, not completely there despite them walking around and I feel horrible cause I don't feel as nervous as I would be if this was a younger me looking at this person. Instead, a part of me does feel a little heavy hearted at the state this person is in...yet I find myself oddly peaceful in spite of it all. Even though I know there's nothing I can do to further help this person, cause even in their sobriety they denied my help, them being constantly lost mentally isn't going to suddenly change that. But, I feel peace because God is faithful in all things, and He's reminded me that prayers I've prayed for this person are lingering in the air. Yes, it hurt to let go, but I know they are in God's hands and He's promised that these circumstances are not unto death, but to bring about life. I know there are still plenty of things I don't know, and things that I definitely need to fully surrender before the LORD, but guys, I've seen my Salvation in Christ, and even when it looks like there's no way out, I know enough to know He is The Way, The Truth and The Life. I pray that all of you are able to be encouraged and not fear over your life, but when you've hit your lowest point, the only way to look is up. Please, don't give up. I believe in every single one of you. You are more than what others have spoken or thought about you. You are more than what you think of yourself, for all of you are made in the image of a wonderful Creator, and it has truly been such a pleasure to talk to and encourage all of you when you needed it most. You could never waste my time, any of you, because sharing the love I've been given by God is literally my childhood dream come true. I love you all very, very much. ❤️

Unfortunately wco.tv has been giving me issues the last week or so ;w; hopefully it sorts itself out soon, but if not I’ll need to find a new streaming site

Why look for dating if single and happy is peace, money (so much more money) and being a better person. Nobody's gonna complete me if I'm already whole. Dating is at best we just walk through life side by side for a while at worst good bye it was fun. Dating is optional, happiness and peace is not.