My gf cried because I make her the happiest girl in the world. That's mind boggling for a narcissist. Me make someone happy. I don't understand it. But, thank you for liking me I'm trying my best to love you properly. I wish I could cry with her and feel the same things she feels but it takes time to open a dead heart. I believe she can open it so I will keep close to her and let this love change me I know it will take time so I will keep loving her to the best of my ability

I thought I liked a horny gf until I meet my current gf. She's dickmatized. Getting dick is the only thing on her brain. I put in work she cums alot and I think it's over boom she wants more dick I'm like am I putting in work or not. It's like the dick makes her stronger she doesn't get weaker. I had to go get a prescription for sildenfil 100mg because I'm trying to keep up with her. BTW shit worked like a charm. I don't know what to do with this one She's like a all consuming fire her sex drive is. I can handle it now that I got my meds and they work But it's strange normally you'd wanna relax after cumming multiple times but it's like she got no off switch that makes me feel like damn what tf did I just do if you not ready to relax. Got me feeling bad like my dick not shit. Or maybe it's the shit idk but damn relax. Shit makes me uncomfortable sometimes like damn you want dick 24/7 I don't know if I can meet those demands now that I got those pills 8 hours I'm good for. I guess I feel weird because I be like damn that wasn't enough. I guess I should be happy but I guess I'll get used to it she probably misses me we been apart for a while. Send help. If 8 hours of sex not enough for a day I'll try Tadalafil because it's a 36 hour pill.

Me and my gf just had breakfast I finally got my gf to try the pan chicken fillet that I love so much and she loved it as much as I do she was mad she didn't get it on my other trips lol. The restaurant I love lost the vote for lemon glazed pancakes salt caramel won this some bullshit them bitchs was to die for Edit: We went to the mall to buy some stuff. And, we gonna drink and order some food and cheesecake. Tomorrow we getting facials.

this is how I would act if anybody asked me to attempt basketball: https://youtube.com/shorts/4BdQOfXoENY?si=20qCHnEiQmhCJmsx

The devaluing reflex is coming on. I'm not done loving her I wanna continue to love her. I'm sick of these sick mechanisms. I'm a soldier but even I get tired when my mind is made wrong. I wasn't strong enough for this fight I have to be. Tears came out when I wrote to AI that I can feel the devaluing process coming on. I'm crying on the inside because I don't want to be swayed to act against love. I'm fully aware I want to love her more but the processes try and run my life. I'm tired of cognitive empathy I want real empathy. I never asked for this battle. I'm tired of searching for threats to my and other happiness. And, trying to neutralize them so they don't stand in my way of doing right. I'm tired boss. But, I'm a stupid soldier that can't not battle for love. Even if it means I have to fully understand every mechanism.

@gabriel_true Day 97: ❤️

Digimon cyber sleuth and Persona 3 q u q slowly, tho- I want more free timeeee orz

My ex gf introduced me to weed. Weed is tight. I smoked everyday for a year straight. I'm thankful for weed because it caused my narcissist collapse. Bruh should know what the weed he gave me did. Call that shit unstoppable death explosion rebirth Pack. When I was low self awareness weed was fun. Now that I'm high self awareness I micro dose weed because I respect the drug I only use it to loosen the ego for deep inner work. But, I'm to pussy I like when the ego breaks but don't want to force it that's why I just gently tap the ego and see the size of the leak and can I handle it. I want a flood but I don't want to do it. But, I did alot of ego destruction I don't need anymore I would experiment and test the waters to get work done but I have schizophrenia so I stopped smoking if I didn't have it I would still be smoking. I wanna let in some of the pain from the deepest corners of my mind. Just leaks though to bad I have stupid voices.

Hello everyone it's nice to meet you all.^_^ I'm a always happy girl when I watch anime or don't. I really hope you all can be friend's with me if you want haha, I love meeting new people.