My back just started hurting out of nowhere guess I'm getting old. Pray for me that it's nothing serious. I probably should go to the hospital. But, imma ride it out and see what happens. I wouldn't be concerned if I didn't feel light pinches in my chest but they stopped. Back is one problem chest is another. Trying to see will it ease.

Have you guys been wondering why the constant bot posts? I did some investigation out of curiosity and found out why. It's all about how google does search engine results to influence AI search indexing. The bot creates a long article about a game, stuffs it with bullshit phrases like “buy MLB Stubs” or “cheap game currency,” and then links to the site it wants to promote. Because MaiOtaku is an old, publicly indexed website, Google can crawl those forum posts. The goal is to create backlinks. A backlink is simply a link from another website pointing to theirs. Search engines can use links and the surrounding text as signals for what a website is about and how relevant it might be to certain searches. They post a bunch of AI slop gibberish just to make the google AI think the link is legit. They likely do this automatically across thousands of old forums and poorly moderated websites. Even if most of the links are ignored by Google and nobody here clicks them, they still think it's worth doing because generating and posting the spam costs almost nothing. Maiotaku's verification process is so laughably outdated, bots can just automate account generation and posting whenever they want with total impunity. This can easily be fixed but since nobody is really working on the website anymore, it's kinda just like watching an old thing rust away.

I'm not a pastor so this is just a man trying to understand God. I found when a pastor gives a harsh word it often times make people fall away from the faith. Here's what I learned from giving up on God for a couple days. People don't like a harsh word because it breaks there illusion of security and replaces that security with a impossible standard they must meet to feel secure. It feels like your on thin ice instead of the solid rock foundation Jesus is. When you realize you can't be perfect the weight becomes to heavy and that's when people start walking away from the faith. Because they feel insecure and heavily burden. The burden of trying to be perfect and the spiritual anxiety / insecurity of not knowing if your good enough to be safe makes alot of people fall away from the faith. Including myself. It's the fact that the word took your security away and you no longer feel safe for being who you are and where you are. People normally do one of 3 things after noticing that. 1. Some give up the faith to escape the constant feeling of guilt and inadequacy cause they know they can't be perfect and carry this heaven burden and they want to feel secure again for who they are and where they are. 2. They start to perform out of fear or as a bargain as if they can purchase safety with there good performance they always feel like they on thin ice with God never seeing Jesus as a solid foundation which to have hope in putting more focus on who they are rather than who Jesus is. I found myself at 3. 3. We are meant to be secure in God, but true security is rooted entirely in His faithfulness, not in the false confidence that we have done everything right. If you feel secure because you think you have checked all the right boxes, that is not security in God—that is security in yourself. The story of the Pharisee and tax collector MADE ME SEE CLEARLY AND I CAUGHT IT FINALLY number 2 thinks if he does everything right he will be secure just like the Pharisee believed. The Pharisee had pride in his own religious achievements. Number 3 knows he has no leverage here and cannot earn this but hopes for mercy anyway. Number 2 says I'm going to chruch cause I'm scared and I'm trying to perform and earn my way into heaven I'm paying god back. Number 3 says I have heeded you in love and have gone to chruch I know this cannot earn me grace it is your finished works through which I am saved nothing i do can pay that back. One moves from a place of fear of salvation. The other moves from a place of security in Jesus and is stirred to move from a place of awe and love cause of his sacrifice. He trys not out of fear of punishment he trys cause of the one who loves him even though he's a sinner. Jesus just want us to reciprocate some love back. Not do it out of fear like a slave or robot. Now that I understood the difference between love and fear I have some love to give to God. You know what that means A RELATIONSHIP. It's all God wants. For you to reciprocate some love back. Maybe like read your Bible not to earn something just to spend some time with him. 1 John 4:18 18 There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.