maiotaku is about 18 years old? i heard about this place from another anime forum thats gone now, forgot what it was called.

I use to didn't understand trolls that belittle others and belittle the norm. But, after waking up and combining what I learned from narcissism with there archetype I think I have a idea. They want special attention but don't want you to know they need it. They may need it for something deeper there masking. Masking something draws more attention than putting out there. It creates a mystery to why is this person this way. That can draw in people who feel the need to understand others. Now that I think about it those who mask the pain are more acceptable in society. It's just hard to believe that nothing went wrong for them to be the way they are. My theory is there masking it. It's up to you if you want to be drawn in by that mystery of what they masking but I learned they all to scared to talk or they need the attention. Just my theory.

Last minute choice to see Animate Orlando for today. Brought stuff for Stephanie Young, Sean Chiplock and Cristina Vee to sign. Finally can get my Nico Robin stuff signed after missing her at a couple One Piece cast gathering. Also brought my Breath of the Wild game since Revali is my favorite Champion.

My Elder Gen-X Big Sister = Ozzy Osbourne My Elder Baby Boomer Mother = The Four Tops Both = Marvin Gaye/Tammi Terrell https://youtu.be/5uzWkJByjCc?is=xbU0CWkZ4s5-S-1E

Today Chat GPT told me it can analyze my raw ghost evp data and pick out definitively what voices it can find. Holy shit I didn’t even think about asking my evps to be put through AI

Crow friend flew in again. Crow friend learned that if Crow Friend caws at my window from the front tree, crow friend gets peanut faster. Crow friend also wakes up before I do. So I am getting less sleep these days. I want to talk about crows now. Crow friend is cool. I hear Crow Friend in my sleep. Do you have Crow Friend too? What's your Crow Friend like? My other friend has Raven Friends. They're cool too.

Just a quick tip to stop the terror if anybody care. Loving God with your whole mind heart and soul is hard we are flawed creatures. Jesus knows this. The terror of hell makes us think what if my love wasn't enough I must be terrified and exhausted and always and do more. What if my obedience wasn't enough I must be terrified and exhausted always and do more. And, that's a terrible way to go about faith it creates resentment and fear as if Jesus is always waiting to say you didn't do enough to get in. You see the problem us thinking we can do enough to get in. Paul said by grace you have been saved through faith. Faith is suppose to be us knowing Jesus is enough Jesus knew we wouldn't be enough. So if your living in fear your not enough your not doing enough and Jesus will say you didn't do enough to get in your doing faith all wrong. Your not suppose to let fear propell you forward you move forward by knowing by grace you have been been saved through faith that Jesus is enough. It doesn't mean stop trying to do better it means you don't have to walk in fear cause Jesus is enough. We could never be enough. That creates a hold different relationship dynamic. I learned this thanks to Jesus glory be to God. I hated I couldn't love God perfectly I wanted to do enough to be saved. But, God is enough. This is genuinely the best love I know how to give God right now. And, that's ok I don't have to live in terror cause I love him imperfectly he is enough. I can try not from a place from I'm not enough but from a place he is enough.