HAPPY NEW YEARS!!! I pray many new people find Jesus this Year. And, I pray my narcissism and schizophrenia is healed. My New Year Resolutions is to work harder on my relationship with Jesus and read the whole Bible. And, try not to talk so much.

Narcissism and schizophrenia not all bad there's a couple things narcissism and schizophrenia saved me from. It saved me from magic, witchcraft, chakaras, occult, myself, and false gods. Because schizophrenia delusions introduced me to how it feels to be powerful in your own mind. I realized I don't want to be powerful it's terrifying thinking you a human are powerful without God. What schizophrenia made me realize is I don't want to be powerful it made me acknowledge how God is powerful and the ultimate sovereign of creation because I was terrified under the delusion of power a narcissist can come up with. It was lonely, forsaken, abominable, corrupt, disgusting, hopless, disgrace, human, ungodly, loveless, futile, incompetent, incomplete, embryo, chaotic, wild, foreign, unstable, foolish, ignorant, devoid, baren, harrowing, and destroying. I was lucky to believe a delusion of granduer because it showed me how disgusting believing yourself to be your own God or Godlike is. The fear, disgrace, shame, hopelessness, I felt for being a disgusting human with power they shouldn't have can't be put into words. I was thankful when the delusion subsided and I came back to reality. I was grateful there is a all powerful God and it's not me. Narcissim saves me from occult, charkra, witchcraft, magic, and false gods because us narcissist are weak to power it easily corrupts us. So where some people can dabble in that stuff I personally can't afford it. I just keep my eyes on Jesus. Stand for something or fall for anything. I won't be falling for that stuff. Because I don't want power if it's not the graceful, divine, correcting, guiding, holding, merciful, tempering, washing, gentle, loving, and safe power that Jesus gives to us as a gift. What the narcissist and schizophrenic extreme delusion of grandeur made me realize was that I need a Savior. What I wished for with all my might at that time and moment was a Savior to get me out of the trouble I'm in and fix the things I've done. I cried for superman repetively that's all I could do when I realized that I'm not superman myself. Because back then I had no relationship with Jesus so his name didn't cross my mind. I was tormented by that delusion for a while but it brung me closer to Jesus. Now I don't think about it anymore but I have internalized the lesson. That God is greater than me and I am nothing. For if anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing, he deceives himself". And, I'm so happy to have faith and belief for that to be true. Cause like I said we narcissist are weak to power and delusions of power they corrupt us easily. So greatful I have to avoid that stuff or else I would have played with it if I wasn't a narcissist. I'm greatful God let me experience schizophrenia delusions to destroy my narcissism and myself and show me I'm not no godlike or my own God. Though I do pray for healing from narcissism and schizophrenia there's up sides and down sides to it but I about learned all I can learn from these conditions. The upsides are running out.

@gabriel_true Day 77: Can't believe tomorrow is January 1st, Gabby! I'm excited for what God is going to do in this New Year, because I know He's going to move spectacularly. I hope you cheer loud and proud of yourself for making it another year, because I know I will. Happy New Year's Eve, Gabby! ❤️ - I'm Waking Up The Whole Neighborhood With My Excited Screeches: New Year's Mommy

It's gonna be the year of the horse. Specifically the fire horse so it's Rapidash's year. https://img2.gelbooru.com/images/70/03/70031927ea2644b5d30d79cdcab9de1a.png

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