(11:36 PM Sat.) WARNING: VERY LONG MESSAGE MOST LIKELY. I've decided to do a bit of a life update everyone since I have wifi atm. To be honest...it's been a very interesting year so far. I have stated before that there was a thing God called me and my older sisters to do, a thing that has started since 2021– as usual, a walk with the LORD is no easy feat, but why should it be? If Jesus - God in the flesh- also went through hardship, why as His people are we exempt? Anyways, this thing he asked us to do hasn't been easy (I'm sorry that I can't say what it is specifically yet, God still is working on this thing, so I don't want to speak out of turn), and honestly my faith was really shaken at a LOT of points in this walk He had us do. There were spiritual attacks that God has revealed from the people (not you guys) closest to me in my life that hurt a lot more than I thought it would. He's taught me through these trials though how to release these people into His hands fully and to let go of them to start caring about myself more, cause He revealed that with these certain individuals, me continuously allowing them into my life despite repeating offenses was doing more harm to the both of us than good. And in being obedient to the LORD despite my own fears, doubts (that the enemy tried to use to get me to not obey) and anxiety – in choosing obedience rather than sacrifice, we (me and my sisters) have caused a sort of discourse/schism between these people God had us politely confront about the things He revealed unto us. Honestly, everyone, these past three years have been so hard...because just like @gabriel_true said about me in the messages to me thread, I tend to give and give and give...to the point it has drained me. I've felt like a jerk so many times because I actually had to stick up for myself and not let things slide anymore, by God's command, because if it were on my own terms? I'm afraid I'd never tell anyone that I'm tired or in pain, even if it's cause of what they are doing to me, because I know I am a safe space...but God has been teaching me that others see that too and prey on it, which is something I've seen manifest in others as a legit spirit/entity- I wish I was joking, but these things truly aren't a joke. I still have A LOT to learn about learning to talk about my issues. But God continues to be faithful as just this year, sometime in January I believe, God broke a spirit of heaviness/depression off of me through my obedience to write a letter to my oldest sisters as He commanded, and when I did? The weight in my heart immediately ceased and He showed me His love through my sisters caring for me, because during that time I hadn't showered for months cause I didn't love myself enough to. He also showed me care by my mom doing my hair for months because I still couldn't find the strength to do it, and everytime I asked, I was met with her bright smile and a "of course!" Being directed my way. Another reason I struggled heavily is because one of the people God exposed to me is someone I had a dream about before who is really close to me...in this dream they were slowly decaying in front of my eyes and losing their life in front of me everytime they went out. I warned this person about what I saw because they were living an unhealthy lifestyle: partying literally everyday and drinking/getting high, but they stopped...at least for a time. This person has recently gone out again and has pucked up drinking and smoking again- and this time, drugs are coming into play I believe. I don't have solid confirmation myself...but it's a feeling, and this person is literally starting to look the way they did in that dream I was given: unhealthily skinny, tired, unbalanced, not completely there despite them walking around and I feel horrible cause I don't feel as nervous as I would be if this was a younger me looking at this person. Instead, a part of me does feel a little heavy hearted at the state this person is in...yet I find myself oddly peaceful in spite of it all. Even though I know there's nothing I can do to further help this person, cause even in their sobriety they denied my help, them being constantly lost mentally isn't going to suddenly change that. But, I feel peace because God is faithful in all things, and He's reminded me that prayers I've prayed for this person are lingering in the air. Yes, it hurt to let go, but I know they are in God's hands and He's promised that these circumstances are not unto death, but to bring about life. I know there are still plenty of things I don't know, and things that I definitely need to fully surrender before the LORD, but guys, I've seen my Salvation in Christ, and even when it looks like there's no way out, I know enough to know He is The Way, The Truth and The Life. I pray that all of you are able to be encouraged and not fear over your life, but when you've hit your lowest point, the only way to look is up. Please, don't give up. I believe in every single one of you. You are more than what others have spoken or thought about you. You are more than what you think of yourself, for all of you are made in the image of a wonderful Creator, and it has truly been such a pleasure to talk to and encourage all of you when you needed it most. You could never waste my time, any of you, because sharing the love I've been given by God is literally my childhood dream come true. I love you all very, very much. ❤️

Just letting everyone know that this user is a pervert. @maimaisu posted an explicit photo of himself on my wall, and I apologize to anyone who saw it.

Happy 4th/Independence Day, my lovelies! I have wifi today due to a neighbor, so I thought to come check in on everyone and see how y'all are doing. I'm sorry to hear about your tabby passing away @yuuzora and the fires/heatwave you've had to survive through, but I'm happy you're still here fighting and got to enjoy a nice BBQ after a rough time ^^. Don't be worried about me over here though! My family and I are doing just fine in this heat (fans and ac are on constantly)– heck! We've been sitting outside in this weather to work on our tans XD, but today was rainy and we've been having fun with the neighbors watching fireworks. As for food though, God has truly been faithful and has provided a way for our mom to buy what we need daily, as well as using our neighbors kindness to help us even though they don't know we need it. We enjoy a delicious polish sausage hotdog, Mac and cheese with French fries for dinner today! @healthy_walrus Thank you, my dearest knight. I pray your days continue to be blissfully quiet and hope against hope that your work load will become at least somewhat lighter than what you said you've experienced lately. While the bots may have become bold in my absence, I have the most dedicated of people still here who fight on my behalf to keep us free from these bodyless beings. <3 @sakurakiss It's also been a bit strange not to log in everyday, even if it's just to momentarily check on everyone. Thank you for the well wishes! I have been trying to do better at self-care...and it's definitely a process, but I'm nowhere near being in a slump like how I was in the past, so one step at a time, y'know? I'm sure you have finished organizing things with your aunt? It sounds relaxing, I like doing stuff like that ‐ but then again, I'm someone who finds almost anything relaxing XD. I love you very much and miss you too, Kura-Chan. <3———————— ———————————————————————————— @gabriel_true I still don't have wifi, my dearest Gabby, but I am very touched that you all miss me so dearly. Like, I do believe that all of you love me and care for me...but it's so surreal that there are people out there that genuinely miss me so much, y'know? And miss what I have to say too, whether it's just randomly talking or me having my sappy/encouragement moments, cause I don't think I'm someone that's the most eloquent person or even the one that has anything of genuine substance to say...in real life I have trouble finding my words just like my mama, but I tend to write letters when I can't say everything I want to, which is probably why I find it easier to write to everyone the way I do here, those are my genuine thoughts and deepest feelings towards ALL of you: to be happy as one can be in a world like ours and to be prosperous in all that you do. Now, this message will be long, but oh well! As for your recent blessings ‐ I'm so very happy to hear that the LORD God has provided for you! I always pray that He takes care of my friends just as He has done this family of mine, so whenever I log in to see or hear you guys being suddenly provided for or just finding peace where you are in life, it truly touches me because it's like God is reminding me He hears me through you all <3. I also don't think you're trying to garner sympathy...and even if so, I don't think it's all too bad? Sometimes you need to be vulnerable and just want to have someone understand, which isn't an issue, I'm just thankful that I apparently seem to be that person for a lot of you here. I think you are absolutely deserving of it, simply because of the fact you aren't seeming to be prideful about this sudden gift. Trust me...I understand how you can feel unworthy- and in a way, all of us technically are (not saying it to be a downer), as that's the whole story of the Bible: we sin greatly and all take, take take, but it ultimately isn't us who chooses who is deserving of what, it's God's decision. Maybe He trusts you to receive such a great financial blessing rn, which is a very exciting thing! Especially as my own family have been waiting our whole lives to be financially stable - but, God still has us in a season of trusting Him, so it's what we will do cause one day He'll move on our finances. As for you not living up to the man other's think you are or should be - I understand ^^. But everyone is like that. I say that not to make less of how you feel, but to remind you you are never alone in how you feel. I too have sometimes felt like a fraud cause people always have seen me as a cheerful person who loves unconditionally- but the reality is that I'm just human like anyone else. ALL credit to how I care and love the way I do is to God and Jesus, because on my own I am just as bitter and angry as the next human lol. I've just always prayed for God to keep my heart and to give me the willingness to want to be kept, which is the key thing about our relationship with Christ: willingness. So, I pray you are ALWAYS willing to grow better as we all are through Christ Jesus, Gabby, and just know that this blessing was meant for YOU. Also, thank you. As I've said before...I never truly think that what I say is important or holds weight on other people's hearts, but I'm grateful that whatever it is that I've said has been able to be encouraging or helpful to you. I'm so happy you got this monetary blessing and I pray all my other friends bank accounts are just as blessed as yours has been, I love you very much!

Unfortunately wco.tv has been giving me issues the last week or so ;w; hopefully it sorts itself out soon, but if not I’ll need to find a new streaming site

Why look for dating if single and happy is peace, money (so much more money) and being a better person. Nobody's gonna complete me if I'm already whole. Dating is at best we just walk through life side by side for a while at worst good bye it was fun. Dating is optional, happiness and peace is not.

1 Peter 1:7 That the trial of your faith (being much more precious than gold that perisheth, though it be tested with fire) might be found unto praise and honor and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ. A tested faith is more precious than Gold that perisheth in fire. It's saying if your faith is tested in fire and does not perisheth it is worth more than worldy Gold. This proved faith will bring you and ultimately God praise, glory, and honor on the day when Jesus Christ is revealed. They can't stop a black man who know the game boi. Narcissism and schizophrenia I have so many weak areas that can be exploited yet I still keep faith and fight valiantly with my sword of the spirit and shield of faith. I be bombarded with attacks they know all my weaknesses but still can't make me drop my sword and shield. They hate me boi the voices be saying they gonna cut my head off lol. Like I'm scared lol. I recently came upon some information to that could rock anyone world and faith but I still choose Jesus. That's worth something when you don't turn your back on him. I can purify my faith with that information but I can't trust it to others. Yes my shield of faith has faltered at times and let through some attacks against me and I lost faith in my shield but it wasn't the shield that was the problem it was the shield arm though my defense faltered I wasn't destroyed I was just injured and as a Christian on this battlefield I asked how could I get injured for this God on the battlefield and I began to be filled with resentment for my faith. Nobody wants to get injured we don't want to do battle were weary but then I remembered I do want to be here fighting for my God. It sounds good to fight for him on paper but the moment we get injured we curse his name. Injuries separate the warriors from those who will surrender to there injuries and put down there shields of faith and curse God name instead of cursing the enemy they run away from the battle doubting God's protection and already established victory they want nothing to do with God after they get injured real warriors stay and fight get back up and grab there shield after each injury they choose to trust God again and again and fight through the pain knowing there's a greater purpose behind there suffering they know the shield of faith can't be destroyed they just wasn't putting enough strength into it. You know what I did I put more strength into my faith and the shield reacted against each attack some times slow some times fast your strength is not wasted in battle I learnt from battle how to keep my shield up and firm and parry the enemy attack. Keep putting strength into your shield to meet attacks and with perservance you will keep yourself from getting injured and faltering. It's a righteous battle worth fighting. As a narcissist I never even felt the normal emotions human feel called love I feel like God is far from me and the enemy knows that and they prey upon my anxiety that God is not within me or by my side to help that I'm fighting a pointless battle that I'm doomed to lose yet I still raise my sword in the name of Christ knowing I'm am not forgotten that my sufferings and injuries aren't for not. The battle was already won by Christ so I should be fighting from a place of victory giving all my anxieties about defeat to Christ and putting more strength into my sword and shield. And, letting his perfect righteous protect me with the breastplate of righteousness that protects the heart from satan accusations. Edit: The shield of faith understanding just came to me while writing. I don't have much understanding of the sword of the spirit if anybody wanna jump in be my guest. I could mull it over but I'm comfortable just digesting this first. The helmet of salvation is crucial though. They try to make you think you battling for nothing so you falter. Maybe I'll talk more about the Armor of God when I get more understanding. All the pieces are important I have something to think about. Twas fun. If anyone wants to correct my understanding of the shield of faith be my guest. Here's a banger for all the soldiers out there. https://youtu.be/IR5_rTCi-Bo?is=DISspRacml2sDVWL Edit: Just got done listening to a pastor. I realized I'm putting myself on a pedestal by thinking my blackness is leading me to victory or my strength leading me to victory it is ultimately Christ strength who has already won the battle giving us strength. I know I owe the victory to Christ but I just caught the superiority complex from being black as if the victory is partially owed to it. Sorry I'm foolish. I'm still learning. I would be nothing without Christ. The victory doesn't come from blackness. The victory doesn't come from your own strength. The victory was won by Christ and our strength comes from Christ. Every color person can be strengthen like I have to do exceedingly more than I have. I owe all my victorys to Christ he's the reason I keep getting up. It's not about color it's about Christ within us who strengthens all to do great things. Though I was trying to understand the shield of faith I may have been arrogant in my understanding. It is a collaborative effort of us trying our best and God strengthening us more than we will ever know or understand. I still got some learning to do. Especially when it comes to being humble. Glad I tuned in to that pastor. If anybody has something to add be my guest. I can finally drop the whole my fighting strength comes from being black complex. Good riddance. Shit was blinding me. I was wrong my strength comes from Christ. To him I owe gratitude not to the color of my skin. He placed that dog in everyone. All that superiority stuff divides us so it feels good to come back down to earth. Anyway, now that I kinda understood the shield of faith my defense has become more robust. I now know I'm gonna get injured in the line of duty. I expect it now. I'm not confused why am I getting hurt. I just let the pain the voices cause pass over me like air. Because I refuse to let a injury define my love for God. My shield has gotten firmer and hurt is expected and I don't panic I accept the hurt and move forward thanks to the love and strength of god. I don't run from a fight and I don't go looking for a fight but I fight if I must ready and unweary.

I created a hypothetical situation with Chat GPT. I asked what would happen if two beams from two different pulsars collided perfectly, an event that would be so incredibly rare that there are no observable instances of this. Through a lot of thought it was theorized that the pulsars would create something similar to a nebula, except that it would be made with nothing but pure hot plasma energy. Looking at this from the surface of a planet with sunglasses, you would see a lot of flickering and blinking while your body is wracked with x-ray radiation pulses. You would get sick an nauseated within minutes, but you could survive underground.