https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Fgt7vA1-6Xw It's a very beautiful piece...I want to make knives again.

l said I wouldn't talk about sensitive topics anymore cause I felt I crossed others sacredness and boundaries. But, nobody has said I crossed there boundaries. So I may be over reacting. I will try to share the gospel as respectful as I can. This forum page exists so I think it's alright. I'm not seeking human validation I'm seeking to please God. What I found helpful in my walk is this... Submit your thoughts before God. I just understood this thanks to listening to pastor bk on tiktok. God says casting down imaginations, and every high thing that exalteth itself against the knowledge of God, and bringing into captivity every thought to the obedience of Christ; surrender is hard to understand but I finally have something to practice. I just realize some of my thoughts and emotions are untrustworthy and bring me out of alignment with God. Sometimes I get angry at God when the voices provoke me. Now I submit that anger to God. I didn't understand what submitting your thoughts before God meant until pastor bk said he submits all his emotions to God. And, that stuck with me. When I get anger I exalteth myself against the knowledge of God. So I learned to submit such thoughts and emotions to God. When I doubt and despair I submit those thoughts and emotions to God and don't allow it to effect my solid footing. To better explain it I'm in the beginner stages of understanding that I can better please God by trusting him rather than my thoughts and emotions. My emotions and thoughts lie on God. My thoughts and emotions challenge God. My thoughts and emotions lie to me. But, God he does not lie. When I realized my thoughts and emotions sometimes stand in the way of me loving God I started submitting them. Because they are sometimes untrustworthy. But, God is trustworthy. His way not my way. Jesus said unto him, “‘Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind. I understand we have to align our minds with God and actively try to be submit it. I'm trading what I think and feel for something solid. I can now handle the voices at high volume and can even fall asleep easy with them like that because I'm holding my thoughts captive to the word of God. When I first learned to hold my thoughts captive and submit my thoughts before God I kept crying in the process of taking thoughts captive. I don't know why i was crying. But, I was submitting even those emotions and tears to God I just didn't want to be disturbed out of alignment cause I had just understood it for the first time. Now it's easier to submit my thoughts to God without crying now that I understand it. Sometimes I lock in fr onto Jesus that is solid. And, sometimes i listen to my thoughts and emotions. Not that they all bad i just have to learn to discern which is helping me get closer to God and which isn't. To God be the Glory for strengthening my mind enough to hold thoughts captive. And, if you don't know Jesus love is unconditional so don't go putting conditions on it. It's a trap to put conditions on it. Humans put conditions on love God doesn't. Now I know how to pause examine thoughts then anchor into something solid. Knowing that you can actually take thoughts and emotions captive and do something with them like submit them to God will be a big help in my walk. I found it keeps me from getting worked up about the voices and some of the things I think and feel. Definitely improved my quality of life.

@gabriel_true Day 143: I just finished dinner! I had spicy noodles tonight again with the same toppings as before, though my eldest sister added a modest garnish of parsley to make it fancy like those cooking shows XD (it actually tasted good). Now I'm about to play Heartopia with my baby panda (one of my MO children, but y'all would know her as Soojin - AKA: Panda's wife). - I Love My Daughter: Mama Wei

a anime thats about playing pool on a octagon table with obstacles. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ysfeorar-2M

After I took this screenshot and was about to post I heard a cry of pain. Apparently Eve fell off the cliff by herself while posing as I had the game minimized lol I call this screenshot "seconds before death" https://i.ibb.co/ds1LWbCb/4.jpg

racist | ˈrāsəst | adjective characterized by or showing PREJUDICE, discrimination, or antagonism against a person or people on the basis of their membership in a particular racial or ethnic group, typically one that is a minority or marginalized: we are investigating complaints about racist abuse | the systems work to uphold and enforce racist policies. noun a person who is PREJUDICED against or antagonistic toward people on the basis of their membership in a particular racial or ethnic group, typically one that is a minority or marginalized: he has been targeted by vicious racists online. Lol, I know its dumb, but I couldn't help myself.

Dang has it already been that long since I last posted? Well, I've been kind of in a slump on running. I don't like the route I take by my house. Probably going to find a place to go after work to jog from now on. Also, I really got into Pickleball from the guys at work. It's so fun! I can't believe how many people are into this game! I go to the pickleball courts after work about 2 days a week now and it's slam packed of people of all ages, races, and genders. It's the most popular sport in my area and it's not even close. I play for about 2-3 hours after work 2 days a week, and I play with my dad on the weekends sometimes. I'm finally back in shape! This weekend I hiked up a mountain up and down and was surprised how easy it was compared to last time. I kinda want to find a complicated hiking trail with rocks and streams and just hike. I don't have any hiking friends though :(