https://youtube.com/shorts/k_gmkrTZ39w?si=R0QJcnGBYdGmsQ27 https://youtube.com/shorts/J_faV-FYdU0?si=SRnlRUAtUjQ-n-cK Credit to Pleum School. Animations are not my own.

I been looking for this song for so long https://youtu.be/0D_V0_7GisM?is=7GPLds7A5-VnxIwR

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Went to a retro video game convention I've been looking forward to for a good chunk of the year, and it was sadly a bit overcrowded this time. Vendor area was harder to move through than usual, and quite frankly, there was a severe lack of manners from other guests. Blocking things they aren't looking at, and cutting ahead of people waiting to look at things just to name a couple. Vendors see this stuff happening and quite frankly don't care. I ended up spending $0 on games, I guess it's bad for business when potential customers can't even browse the goods. The real kicker? I was looking for Neo Geo Pocket Color games, these things are kinda scarce and I spent at most 10 seconds scanning any case I could actually look at. The rest of the con was honestly fine, found the Japanese candy cabs and had a good time playing Mushihimesama, among some other cool titles.

https://youtu.be/Q0g5LjQQ124 I genuinely hate telepaths in fiction.

Starting to understand the core wound of narcissism better... It says what about me. Am I in this and that did they forget about me? I'm great did they forget about me? I have to remind them. Some uncontrollable deep desire inside me wants to be acknowledged and not forgotten. The counter I found is saying what about you as if you require special attention because in your mind you feel special. Still trying to figure it out maybe more will come to me. Trying to be more grounded. I'm glad nobody here treated me special or I would of missed this gap in my awareness. I gotta work this out with God. Edit: I'm at a middle ground I don't require special attention as if it is only right you give me your attention as if the world revolves around me. I'll ask for attention in the future going forward on matters I think are important if I ever get the chance to help other narcissists. May I have your attention to this matter please is what I will say. And, acknowledge I may not be worthy of others attention. But, please hear me out. That's more grounded.