Jesus allowed me to understand empathy for others for the first time. My heart never formed and I'm in so much pain because of that. That I realized that no one should have they heart destroyed. I'm in so much pain that i never want to be the reason someone feels a similar pain. You can't be like me it hurts to be like me. It's so unfair to be like me and I've been unfair to many. The hurt inside me was so unbearable that I realized the damage I done to others. The pain inside me will move me now I can't let your heart resemble even a fraction of this pain. I asked God to move me for others sake now I understand wounds of the heart. The thing you have is precious I won't be the reason it stops functioning like mine nobody should have to go through that. This unbearable emptiness I won't let others experience it. This is the only empathy I can understand it's imperfect unlike yalls. I may still misunderstand but I'm trying.

The main charecter in "Monster" (2004) is a Doctor and the plot is based heavily on his work as a Doctor. Also it's an incredibly good and gripping series.

okay so I searched on how to get notified if a merch drop happens from a game I play. The only thing it came up with is this stupid software where you have to sign all your data and life away to use. I just said F that. I went into python and literally had to write my own bot that scrubs an anime figure X account for keywords of characters or anime I like once every 48 hours and sends me a link to a discord channel I made if it finds anything.

That girl on tiktok who say as a man why aren't you a super saiyan yet. She right lol. There was this guy in my military school named barkos he was Mexican bruh would do 300 push-ups none stop he said he wanted to be like Goku. Bruh didn't know what muscle failure meant. He ate a shit ton 2.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xsOlQlrxPec This song is peak RPG nostalgia for me

for me, my axiom is some blend of normatism and happiness. no crazy matrix machines to maximize happiness, but people should be socially free so long as it doesn't harm other parties. i also disagree with transwomen in sports, as its unfair to a mass group of people vs being unfair to a minority. sometimes life just sucks, so make it suck for the least amount than the majority. mitigation i guess you could call it. equalization is extremely important in society, so long as others aren't being dragged down for it. things like affirmative actions are a balancing act that tends to trip, as we're trying to right the wrongs of the past, while (possibly) creating an unfair environment for others. id say the worst thing about affirmative action though was A. the marginalized person not knowing if they got in because of this and not pure merit, which would feel shitty, B. that actually, these added to college drop out rates because these kids were NOT ready to go straight into an ivy league school was 0 prep. so that system (possibly) fucked over white dudes, AND still fucked over black students. my point being, liberal politics isnt centered around the "nicest hugbox" thing on paper, affirmative action SOUNDS great, but ended up hurting everyone. that doesnt mean get rid of it, that means we need to rethink it, we need to get ~progressive~ kukuku

Dr. Stone: Science Future S4 Part 3 https://myanimelist.net/images/anime/1773/155779.jpg It's what you'd expect from Dr Stone. But why all the bare ass? Still a great start for the new season.

@gabriel_true Day 168: It's getting warmer outside...which means bugs will be coming out more soon. I saw a cockroach in our bathroom yesterday AND a spider (*꒦ິ꒳꒦ີ), I hate it. I had my baby brother come kill the cockroach for me, but I saw the spider too late and had to kill it myself (which I managed to do, which is surprising cause I really hate them). - I Pray For No More Bugs Today: Ying

Howdy y'all! Wondering if anyone is going to Weebcon 03APR26 (tomorrow) - 05APR26 and would be interested in hanging out! I plan to cosplay Himmel, Light, and potentially Yuta. Shoot me a message :D

today I did some detailed plugging in of what I do at my job and ran it through ChatGPT to give me a range of if I'm getting paid fair market value.

finishing ranma, starting inuyasha, middle of blue lock, preorder out for Mujina, finished Tokyo Tarareba Girls, dandadan ongoing (reading online but collecting the manga as i go)

I went through the darkness and fire today to be refined. I had my faith tested and broken today but jesus held on to me when i couldn't hold on. What I learned that got me through it that now remains with me is I'm still loved. Think of any excuse or feeling your still loved. The voices had no counter that could continue to hurt and confuse me I'm still loved defused it all. Knowing how loved you are is powerful and protects you. I don't question it anymore that leaves doorways to the enemy. Before being put to this fire I questioned it. Now it's refined faith in me that I'm loved. Hopefully God chill on me that wasn't fun I was lost. I'm not as strong as I think I am but I love running my mouth. How sweet it is to be loved by you and unchanging love. One you can hold on to that's steady and sturdy in times of need. The unfailing love of God thank you. I couldn't see your love clearly till it saved me. Your love gave me strength. This fire forced me to rely on your love and acknowledge it as the only thing worth holding on to where I was iffy about relying on it and acknowledging it before. You gave me strength when I was weak thank you.

https://youtu.be/1ChPd9hQEx8?si=CQ6esznKR1COBy_e https://youtu.be/rbUIAmxEzw8?si=utYgsFRiwO-qVNGQ