Confessions

I confess that I am still trying to figure out why I cannot convey what I say properly to certain people in my life. It's really confusing.

i confess ive never felt so neglected before. In anything i do whether in discord, VRChat. or IRL i feel like nobody ever acknowledges my presence and im just there. It happened 3 times in VRChat to day by my own friends. People are ignoring me outright on discord and the fact that ive been single for a year and now its valentines day just makes it worse. I guess ill play video games or something

Love is a complex mix of emotions that link with someone else's emotions. For most they confuse love for lust, and instead of realizing it's so much more than that. Love is comfortability with someone; wanting to share every moment with them. Waking up to them, laughing with them, smiling with them, and facing life with them looking forward to the future together. Not at eachother, but forward. Doctor Seuss once said, "We are all a little weird and life's a little weird, and when we find someone whose weirdness is compatible with ours, we join up with them and fall in mutual weirdness and call it love", and what Seuss means by this is that when we as people find comfort in mutual minds we want to keep that. To cherish that. From that there is almost like a chemical reaction in the brain to where every time you look at the one you love everything they do is amazing to you. However this is also an achilles heel in love itself, because when something bad does happen to them or they do something bad to you there will be this pit inside that will turn and turn. With every turn your heart aches terribly writhing in pain. This continues until you move on or just turn numb to any future attempts at love. What about those that cannot move on? Do they continue too feel that pain inside? Is it because they lost their loved one in an accident. As previously mentioned, love is complex to us. We cannot begin to comprehend the feeling of being im love or the loss of love. "Love is patient. Love is kind. It is not proud. It does not dishonor. It is not rude. It is not easily angered. It keeps no records of wrongs" (1 Corinthians 13:4-8a). With that I deeply hope that you will cherish the ones you love now, and have a Happy Valentines Day. https://66.media.tumblr.com/3acc2a913d1f626b751fabcd7db04b6b/tumblr_ph4e5coRRo1wsl65zo3_500.gif

so, my brothers going to china to work for a company involving art >w> whos to say art degrees dont get ya anywhere

I confess that I'm really scared. I don't want to doubt someone that I care about, but I'll getting plenty of red flags. I confess I could really use a friend...