Religious rants

@chocopyro Appreciate the tips. But, I try to stay as far away from the concept that I am powerful. It's poison to us narcissist. As a narcissist thinking I'm powerful enough to do something to the voices would just make me more ill. I escaped the headspace of delusions of power and wouldn't want it to flare it up again. Power corrupts. I'm in a good spot they know I know they trying to oppress me so they don't bother me as much. I can wait for Jesus to settle it. He knows what he's doing I don't. I'd rather know Jesus handled it instead of me so I don't give fuel to my ego. The last thing I need is more fuel. I'm trying to strave it. Shit can get wild off a simple crumb. I have to be extra careful because of what I am.

@willworkforisekai Ego of any kind should likewise be kept away from the occult. Power without wisdom is the name of death.

I found something that hinders my faith. First I would like to draw attention to this verse. Lamentations 3:22-23 KJV It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not. They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. If the Lord mercies are new every morning why do I carry with me the past? If I'm called to be like Jesus and walk in his foot steps I must start letting go of the past to strengthen my faith. Cause I find myself answering my own prayers with the past instead of letting Jesus answer them. Example: I prayed and asked before and he hasn't answered so this prayer won't be answered aswell. I find it's better to renew your mind and faith everyday and don't get caught up in the past. Our Lord renews his mercies every morning. Why can't I renew my mind and faith every morning aswell. I find the more I take the past to heart the weaker my faith gets. Each new day is a chance to experience God's Love. Psalms 143:8 KJV Cause me to hear thy lovingkindness in the morning; for in thee do I trust: cause me to know the way wherein I should walk; for I lift up my soul unto thee.

Sorry I'm back. Hope my presence can be tolerated. 1 Peter 4:1-2 CEV [1] Christ suffered here on earth. Now you must be ready to suffer as he did, because suffering shows that you have stopped sinning. [2] It means you have turned from your own desires and want to obey God for the rest of your life. As a narcissist I always was vividly aware of the fact that it hurts to go against my nature. But, I never knew why. This verse finally help me put two and two together. It's suppose to hurt. If it hurts that means your doing good and on the right track. The deterent of suffering when going against my nature loses some of it's impact if you know that you are in alignment with God by suffering. I'm use to alleviating that suffering until I found out just now that it aligns me with God. It just means I'm done with sin. Now I have a reason to weather the storm. It's a ray of sunshine where before I would just feel like shit from suffering. But, now that I know the suffering from going against my nature is good. I can feel good about myself in the mist of suffering. Maybe this will help me dampen the impact of suffering enough to withstand it. Being aligned with God sounds kinda nice. I'm thinking so. But, I'm just a narcissist a fraud. This may or may not help me. But, my chances go up knowing why it hurts to go against my nature. Now that I understand. I'd be confused if it didn't hurt I am a narcissist after all. Honestly it's a huge moral and motivation boost. I never thought I'd be this close to understanding how to take heart in the mist of suffering. I look forward to practicing it. Though I have a track record of letting precious information go to waste. Aligning with God sounds pretty motivating and tight. It should be I'm thinking. If not I can survive off small changes they add up big time. Then I can work out my next breakthrough with God and wait on it and try to get more of his word in the forms I enjoy for inspiration. I'm not perfect and won't pretend to be I will fall short. But, there is power in his word. I found the strength in his word. It gave me a fire within to go against my nature and take on that suffering but it's a small fire. Can't cap it might dimmen and flicker in the face of suffering. But, as long as I keep feeding it one day it will be a strong flame that gives me strength to weather any storm that I believe. I believe one day even a narcissist like me will have a strong reliable spirit. As long as I never give up. Inch by inch. Just wanted to share what I learned forgive me for being what I am and having the nerve to talk about God. Forgive this fraud this sinner Lord Jesus

Galatians 6:9 KJV And let us not be weary in well doing: for in due season we shall reap, if we faint not. Galatians 6:9 NIV Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Lot's of people are weary in well doing. And, you can tell the world is getting colder. They feel they ain't recieving there harvest. They look for worldy things to quantify there harvest and become upset. But, the harvest that's coming is of the spirit not of the world. Well doing makes your spirit rich. But, people let there worldy connection dull there richness. Because of what was taught and learned in the world they ignore the richness within. Cause the world might take advantage of it. The world then covers your gold with darkness so you may never find it again. Each person has some riches hiding in the darkness. But, not everyone wants there riches they tossed them away because the world told them so. God says... Romans 12:2 And be not conformed to this world: but be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind, that ye may prove what is that good, and acceptable, and perfect, will of God. See the world conformed us and we prove things good and perfect to ourselves that are not good and perfect. We believe they good and perfect because the world taught us and we learned from it. But, Christ was above the world with perfect knowledge he overcame the world. He said thou shalt love thy neighbour as thyself. Because it was perfect for the perfect world. Our idea of good and perfect is conformed by the world. Sometimes the world will have you hate one another because we conformed by it. He said do not be conformed by the world. The will of God is perfect, good, and acceptable. He is trying to lead us to the perfect world and to heaven but we continue to be conformed by the world. Because the world doesn't take kindly to those being lead by the spirit. The world tell us to lose our shine or we will be taking advantage of. Because not everyone is following Christ. I want to be a soldier on the battlefield shining regardless.