Vent

Sometimes religion irks me. When my son, who's six, is crying because he's scared he's going to hell... That pisses me right off. That same stuff used to bother me as a kid, fear and believing because you're scared. I've explained as best I can that it's a personal journey that he must face and he has to choose what he believes (As best as that can be put in child friendly terms.). He believes since he believes in Jesus that he'll be ok, I told him that's what you need to believe then. Rationality isn't there at that age, but that fear is and man, I detest it.

From a black brother to my white brothers and sisters and those of who are in Christ... TO THE FACE OF THE DARKNESS SURROUNDING US BOTH I say to you with a heart that remains open I LOVE YOU ALL.

It's a shame that the cost of lumber is going to skyrocket when the trump tariffs take hold. We simply don't have enough trees here in the US. The trees that we do have, we have to cut down with diamond-studded chainsaw blades and we have to have the lumber transported upon sheets of satin on gold-plated lumber vehicles. Nah I'm just joking. We just have to play the CEOs of every company 1.3 billion dollars+ a year. They simply can't survive without having an 11% pay increase every year. Get ready for another round of pure corporate greed, you guys. "B-but tarrifs you guys! Sowwy, we gotta increase the price of hamburgers by another 50%!" https://images3.memedroid.com/images/UPLOADED660/61d88ee793bfe.jpeg

I hate when manhwas and anime thrist trap you with some adorable character that likes the main character but you know damn well the main ship ain't sinking so you not gonna see more of her cute antics. #BestGurlsAreSideCharacters

To all my fellow commercial drivers that don't have cameras or limiters placed on their tractors and trucks. It is still your responsibility to drive reasonably safe especially when it's below freezing and the roads are covered in visible ice as well as black ice. The following distance between any vehicle on the interstate should be between 10-12 seconds when the roads are not clear and extremely slick. Yet many independent drivers attempt to ignore those standards because "They are seasoned pros." I drove passed 3 seasoned pros that flipped their tractor trailers today on the way back home from my canceled doctors appointment. One of which was following dangerously close to me with less than 1 second of following distance. This driver passed me while speeding along as if the roads were dry. They skidded out a few miles down the road and nearly killed several other drivers. Luckily they missed and flipped over the guardrail into the ditch. And yet despite that another flatbed carrying girder beams proceeded to see this other accident and kept up their speed while blowing the air horn in annoyance to the rest of us slowing down in the right lane. These "professionals" don't realize they are no better than murderers when they disobey traffic laws to "make a buck."

Sometimes I feel really insecure as a black man and have a hard time seeing my race as beautiful. Whites beauty has remained ever increasing to my eye. And, I can't stand the comparison between us and don't feel up to the task of standing next to them. Though I wish I magically could. I lack so much that they have. I'm doing all I can to catch up to there greatness but the gap is to wide. Makes me feel a bit empty and worthless. Thank you for not reneging on the example you set on the world stage. Even though comparison is the theif of joy. I won't be happy till I can stand next to you and alleviate the gap between us. Even if it costs me parts of myself. I take solace in the example you set of how beautiful humans can be. And, will continue to strive for such beauty myself in spite of my insecurities.

My life has no meaning anymore. I give up on everything I've ever tried to accomplish and will forever leave this site. Don't worry! I'm just venting cause I just spent 6+ hours writing a story only to lose the majority of my hard work ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ.