Depression and suicide.

My suicide choice feels permanently, heavily vaulted since my mother said suicide leads to Hades. Even my "low body battery" makes me just stuck in laziness almost doing nothing. Caffeine usually fails. Two things I ate that energizes me sometimes are made-from-scratch miso soup and especially Carolina Reaper seasoned baked salmon. EDIT: In addition, I prefer "bucket list" way over suicide. In video game analogy, "bucket list" is attempting to put yourself up in the rankings as high as possible. Suicide is either walking away after game over screen, single life lost, no losing while bored of gameplay, or not playing first time at all.

personally i think its ignorant to tell someone "you have so much to live for" or that "suicide is the selfish way out" if your hurting so bad you truly want to die, its selfish to guilt someone into continuing that kind of pain if you REALLY dont want someone to hurt themselves, then try and help them, dont just tell them the same things they've heard countless times plus, iv found personally that you can want not to die, but just to end the pain and its important to identify that

mhmm i just feel like theres no reason to continue if you know you'll fail at everything life throws at you. I have no motivation to do anything and have been struggling keeping up with life. There was a recent period where i literally cry multiple times a day and end off every one of those days crying myself to sleep. I feel like I have no reason to be sad but I just am¿ I'm over the fact that my parents are divorced (I live with my dad) but every time my mom drives me and my siblings home after our monthly visits, I just start to cry¿ I could be sitting in the passenger seat right next to her and tears would start silently streaming down my face without her noticing. I've always thought about committing but I'd only be passing my pain to my family. I dont wanna self-diagnose myself and say I have depression cuz that might offend people who actually have it and r going through much worst but sometimes i feel like im falling into pieces and i cant put myself back together again. no one would prob read any of this but sry for this long mess. Ive never talked about how i feel to anyone (not like they'll actually care)

First of all you will not offend anyone don't worry. Depression can take multiple forms and is different for everyone. I think you should actually talk to someone. And you already did with this post so good job for that :). I can imagine what you are thinking things like "i don't want to worry them" or "this is my problem not their" but this isn't actually true. I'm sure talking to the people you love can benefit you a lot. I don't really know what could benefit you more than talking about it, but keep hope. One day you will feel better.

look for a counselor online or offline. Don't forget 7 Cups!

Depression is not curable, you either get lucky to "get over it" or you learn how to cope. Sure, there are medications and therapists, but true medical depression has no "cure". Also, if you believe you have clinical depression, go to a doctor and don't self diagnose.

i think it will get a little beter because this is a time where people are not very happy. something with adjusting with the aquarius age or something. people will change and you lose friends. i really hope so, its supposed to be better then the pieces age. people work together insted of being in control. once the new thing takes over the old thing dies. that would be cool if my sign dies and a new age starts. some people will say in the more crappy world and some will continue with the changing world. fuck the old world. maybe it wont be a dog eat dog world soon

It was astonishing to see somebody jump from the cliff all of a sudden...I hope people who witnessed this by accident recover soon

I remember my first truly horrible time with depression, it was the 12th grade, a lot of my friends had left me to rot, the girl I was madly in love with acted like I didn't exist anymore after saying she had mutual feelings, my mother had left me and my brother over some issues with my dad and I had my second suicide attempt. It was horrible, it was a time I wish to never recollect. And honestly, sometimes I still wonder how different my brother and dad's life would be if I did man up to my word and jump in front of that trolley, probably for the better though, my life hasn't gotten any better since then, sometimes I still want to end it all, but I just don't know what's holding me back.

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