the narcissist

http://36.media.tumblr.com/3a1d0cc01b4ca75037405300c01a1177/tumblr_myhis5b4Oi1t4urfuo1_500.jpg There are some things about yourself that you just can't change, even if you want to. They form around your heart, and when you claw at it you fingers sink in like quicksand. 'Why do I hurt the one's I care about?' 'I'm sorry', you say, as you try to cover up your shame. You tell yourself you will change, but you make the same mistake again. As much as it hurts them it hurts you most. Because when the haze of steam falls away from the window, when you can finally see what pains you, you just see a reflection of yourself. You turn away and for another moment you tell yourself that you are not the same.

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http://i.imgur.com/hFQ8eak.jpg To love me or not to? Of course I do. https://s-media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com/736x/7a/c7/fd/7ac7fdbc3f02773943ffcb6683348af9.jpg To they loving me or not to? Here is the dilemma.

https://youtu.be/_K8K2oXxvEk?si=loVzoWtiJfMu97-v This was really helpful. What a eye opener it's literally perfect. It's outstanding. I will not silence my conscience in the pursuit of desires. I'm thankful for God's just retribution on my life. Keep breaking me down until I face the truth. I'm so happy I have a ongoing test a messenger a warning my gf. I've treated her well so far and gave her peace. May he have mercy on me for I am caring for one of his people. I still have other messengers and warnings that I owe much to. Please give me the opportunity, time, and guidance to learn from my mistakes and grow Lord Jesus. This condition is very difficult and can only be brought to it's knees by your grace. I would like to make it home. Please forgive me of my sins lord.

I finally figured out where my eyes at... I will not silence my conscience in the pursuit of desires. My conscience is my eyes. Yet I remained unaware to it because it didn't serve my selfish ways. Thus I walked through life blind. I couldn't figure out why I can't see. I know now I can see I just choose not to. Now I will take better care of my eyes for I wish to see and be alerted to what is just. I never knew I had eyes and I mistreated them all this time. I just hope it's not to late. I thank the good teachers God, Jesus, and the Holy Spirit for another revelation which I take no credit for. I hope I can continue to be a vessel of use to his divine purpose.