the narcissist

Starting to understand the core wound of narcissism better... It says what about me. Am I in this and that did they forget about me? I'm great did they forget about me? I have to remind them. Some uncontrollable deep desire inside me wants to be acknowledged and not forgotten. The counter I found is saying what about you as if you require special attention because in your mind you feel special. Still trying to figure it out maybe more will come to me. Trying to be more grounded. I'm glad nobody here treated me special or I would of missed this gap in my awareness. I gotta work this out with God. Edit: I'm at a middle ground I don't require special attention as if it is only right you give me your attention as if the world revolves around me. I'll ask for attention in the future going forward on matters I think are important if I ever get the chance to help other narcissists. May I have your attention to this matter please is what I will say. And, acknowledge I may not be worthy of others attention. But, please hear me out. That's more grounded.

I don't have a problem carrying your problems. Such sacredness I've come across today iykyk. It's the opposite of how a narcissist normally feels. But, I love my gf her kids and her family. I told this to my gf today because she worries her self to death and trys to carry everything alone so not to make me worry. Had to tell her she is a catch my prize in this life. Irreplaceable. She's God's gift to me with love so pure she can draw the sacred out of me. Had to tell her her worth and make sure she doesn't forget it. Edit: Time for a rant... Not everyone wants to have that sacred bond with just anyone the I have no problem carrying your problems. The more love you have for people the more you want to grow that sacred bond. There's a excess of love looking to form bonds out of excess. Some people want to destroy those bonds some people want to save and create more. Some believe the bonds make you weak makes whoever they consider the whole weaker out of excess love for there part of the whole they destroy bonds. Some believe the bonds makes the whole stronger out of excess love they make bonds with other wholes even if it could destroy them. One don't want to take the risk one doesn't know how to risk manage.