yuuzora

What is it with *some* guys and "wanting a relationship" but not wanting to do any work for them? Like addressing their negative self-views, acquiring realistic standards for a partner, Seeing women as people and not romantic objects, etc.? It's a big problem I see everywhere and I am very curious where it all comes from? I realize I'm opening up a lot of hatred by asking this but I really want to know.

I realized that I don't have any stress outlets anymore. It used to be my art, but now that it's my only way to make money, it's become a point of stress. I'm trying to get ahold of enough money to get an instrument, but I just don't make enough right now. Nor can I find a fourth job. I take care of my mother, I drive everyone around, and I do art and it still isn't enough to even pay all my bills. So that this is my constant reality, that's where the stress is coming from. If I can find a few more Patrons or start selling more things from my online store, it'll help. Until then, I'm stuck. I suck at social media but I do have a small following(824 followers) on Tweeter and about 200 on BlueSky. I'm working too hard for too little in return. Sorry for the rant. Just getting it out of my head since these thoughts are still lingering.

The knee jerk reaction is to say I'm fine. But the honest truth is I'm unwell. Slowly teetering toward a mental meltdown and only keeping it together because if I don't, everyone else loses their jobs and won't be able to function without me. So, like most people, I think. How about you? Hopefully you're doing better than me?

Have you been feeling better? https://youtu.be/miomuSGoPzI

World Eater: Rebirth Chapter 2 The second chapter of the light novel is finally here! I hope if you like it you'll be come a Patron, you can leave a tip on my https://ko-fi.com/corutanic to let me know you liked it. You can even share this with all your friends! Let me know which format you like best: https://www.patreon.com/posts/chapter-2-first-115394170?utm_medium=clipboard_copy&utm_source=copyLink&utm_campaign=postshare_creator&utm_content=join_link or https://www.quotev.com/story/16387936/World-Eater-Rebirth/2

Sorry I'm afk for a few days. I pinched a nerve so badly in my neck I've not been able to keep food or anything down due to the extreme vertigo. The whole room is spinning and I feel the centrifugal force of the earth is the only thing allowing me to concentrate enough to write this nearly blind. I can't walk in a straight line. It's like being the sick kinda of drunk and you feel kinda like you're gonna die. lol.

I'm out of meds, dealt with my mother's shit the last eight hours, so sorry if I haven't responded to anyone yet, I'm just kinda focused on staying sane. :')