https://youtu.be/YsDkWUJxtU4?si=lgeTd8b2EOEcimu- Another unconventional worship song to devote to God I'm not going anywhere until you make me move.

I should really treat myself to something to celebrate that a narcissist is able to learn internal validation they said it was impossible. I overcame so much. After I finish smelling the roses. I have to face the final boss responsibility and accountability. That shit does life drain damage. I pretty much conquerored everything else thanks to God's strength except mirroring I don't know why tf I do that. But, that one not hurting anybody so it's a side objective. Now that I think about it... It could be damaging but I have bigger fish to fry. I haven't even cherished all my victories yet but whatever. Responsibility and accountability. The bane to my existence. Why do you hurt me so much. I often wonder why God didn't give me a strong spirit moved to action for others. But, Jesus says the spirit indeed is willing, but the flesh is weak. It may not be a problem of my spirit after all like I thought it's just my flesh is weak. It's susceptible to fear, exhaustiom, and selfish desires. I been praying & begging God for any type of fuel to overcome my flesh. Because I lack emotions strong enough to move me cause I'm a narcissist. I been begging and praying to feel the holy spirit move me to action for the spirit to just have it's way with me. But, neither emotions came or did I feel the super natural presence of the holy spirit. I know I have the holy spirit or I would not be able to love God or draw near to him but I just don't feel it. But, guess what God answered my prayers for any type of fuel to overcome my flesh. I now have a rightoues anger at the devil for trying his best to deter me from being in alignment with God and my purpose. The voices fucked up by hurting me non stop last night. At first I was angry at God how could he allow these voices to torment me for so long. But, then I realize God is allowing the voices to torment me to produce in me perservance, character, and hope. And, boy did these voices have a big effect on my character. I can see through them with my discernment. And, they pissed me off trying to con me out of my hope and purpose. Today I am filled with a rightoues anger not at God but at the devil and these voices. Now I ain't going for nothing. They don't know they playing with a crash out. They poked the lion and done fucked around and found out how much a soldier I really am. Thanks to the torment from the voices and the discernment God has given me. I hear there accusations and get angry and shut that shit down because I know Jesus sheed his blood to advocate for us. The devil advocates against us. The voices are the opposite of God I finally understand that. God said resist the devil and he will flee. Instead of allowing myself to be tormented I'm up now it's my joy to shut down there attempts to torment me out of seeing who I am in Christ. Out of seeing how loved and protected I am. I'm active now in upholding my faith. At first I was like God help me I can't uphold my faith because I'm suffering. Now I see who causing the suffering and that fills me with rightoues anger to uphold my faith. And, retaliate with the words of God and God promises firmly. I know this suffering was to test and refine my faith. And, boy did it. I finally have the fuel I been asking for. I just remember how they did me. And, I can get fuel. I just remember what the thief is trying to steal. I can get fuel. No matter the voices and the devil accusations Jesus says he is still mine. I finally have something I can cultivate a rightoues anger towards the devil so I can then crucify my flesh and move forward in joy that the devil is powerless to stop God's plan for my life. Jesus died on the Cross for us and rose on the third day with all power in his hand. The cross rendered the devil officially defeated, stripping him of his legal authority, ultimate power over death, and right to condemn believers. While his power is broken, he is not yet destroyed, allowed temporary, limited influence until his final judgment. Believers operate in authority over him, not fear.  The voices don't bother me now because of my faith has become more firm. Thank you Jesus

Gojo <3 He's a big boy now (Yes, named after the strongest of today)

https://youtu.be/CUa8O5kaFac?si=Yohaoi8ZBhZULaQ6 I miss Killzone

Order something for a new hobby me and my buddy want to pick up. Waiting for it to ship has been painful XD https://media.tenor.com/DZKcXvpu-d8AAAAi/bongo-cat-cute-png.gif

@gabriel_true Day 137: I'm sorry I didn't get to message you yesterday, Gabby, in the midst of preparing to head out for breakfast and our aunts house, I forgot my tablet at home XD. But, yesterday was a very great day! The family woke up nice and early to go to a buffet for breakfast, and it was very delicious! I ate breakfast hash browns, grits, eggs, bacon and biscuits and then we immediately left to our aunt Jackie's afterwards. After arriving to aunt Jackie's and our aunt Gainell's place, me and my baby brother opened up our Birthday gifts. I received so many nice things! I now have two new very fluffy blankets to keep me warm (one with croissants on it and another literally looks like a giant pizza), a bag of snacks (spicy chips, Pop Tarts, M&M's, spicy Buldak noodles, etc.) a bag of bread/baked goods in general (a bagel, a Belgian waffle, croissants *almond, regular and chocolate filled*, Japanese milk bread, chocolate chip muffins, chocolate Madeleines, etc.), a croissant shaped glass jar which I love a lot already, a glittery body lotion-thing, a waterproof camera for traveling, a yellow stuffed gummy bear with a heart-shaped nose, a stuffed cat that I named LuLu (cause it looks like the one I pet at the Cat Cafe), a yellow hooded sweater with fluff on the inside and a yellow scarf to wrap around my head (I've been wearing headscarves lately). Edit at 8:25 PM (I just remembered some gifts): I got $30 in cash from our aunts, $25 in cash for boba tea from our parents and a Chipotle gift card as well. I don't know if I actually got everything? But I think I did...I'll edit it later if I haven't. Anyhow, it was very fun with our aunts, cousin Jim and my family. - I Had A Very Great Time: Ying

@arc For years, my most loyal uncle takes scraps from businesses like those and feeds them to his livestock.