I just had a dream about my narcissist collapse from 2019. I now realize how much of a miracle by God it was. Because most narcissists can't see or have awareness. But, somehow I woke up. Me... I'm so thankful Glory be to God. I could be on autopilot rn but I'm not it's a miracle. I could not have been a person of God or a person at all. My fate could of been one shrouded in darkness never knowing why I am the way I am. But God said let there be light and I saw and there was awareness. That dream made me thankful for God mercy and favor on my life because what was I before... What is a narcissist? It's a cold fate but I can see so I can fight. I'm so thankful I can see and that I escaped the inescapable fate of never knowing yourself. On the day of my collapse my real self arose glory be to God in that moment I knew myself where I did not before and I had awareness it's such a miracle I didn't realize how many people never wake up it's a miracle. Thank you Jesus I wasn't thankful enough. Ephesians 5:8: "For at one time you were darkness, but now you are light in the Lord. Walk as children of light".

Not having a penis. https://media1.tenor.com/m/-zSYIz7hxygAAAAC/penis.gif

@gabriel_true Day 91: Mom made Mexican chicken and rice for dinner, it had black beans and corn in it and was served with lettuce as a topping (I love lettuce). We had red Hawaiian Punch as our drink, but I gave the rest to my baby brother because the red flavor tastes weird to me for some reason. - Dinner Was Really Delicious Tonight, and I Hope You're Eating Just As Well As Me: Friend Wei

The more I think on it, the more I realize just how fucking awesome the skill kits in Skylanders were. And the more I realize that all my favorite gachas could never. An archer that explodes your ass off by literally running circles around you? A crystal guy that makes literal fucking damaging laser grids? Games these days could never.

It will be wierd for me this year. I just binged Medalist season 1, and Oshii No Ko seasons 1 and 2, and liked both way more than I thought I would, so for some reason, those are the two I'm craving the most right now. Something about a pitiful gloomy girl digging up earth worms build up her self esteem and athletic skills, and Aqua's grappling of ptsd in a world of brightly saturated girls hit a lot closer to home than I was expecting. But in way that I kinda needed. https://i.ani.me/0379/4065/128886988_p0_master1200.jpg Also, Episode 2 of Fate Strange Fake was well worth the wait. And damn it, I want to get back into Hells Paradise and that crazy ass world.

Because these types of girls unfortunately don't exist in our world. Edit: I *know* multi-select ruined the quality, but- let a real one cook in peace! (Note to self: that was embarrassing asf, never do that again.)

This song titled "Spiral" from Zero Divide 2: The Secret Wish... https://youtu.be/bv1HiLGy4X0?si=Vk-t9qfPt4_C9-OR ...sounds similar to "Summer Highland Falls" by Billy Joel. https://youtu.be/1tQKW9aquT0?si=dL2dNddDqv__AWCf

Woo! Brick City Anime Festival was a blast! Met lots of cool cosplayers and artists, some of whom are recurring friends, saw some interesting Q&As with voice actors, and got some holy grail autographs to add to my collection. Got items signed for some of my favorite series. Spice & Wolf, Shantae, Sonic the Hedgehog, Demon Slayer, and more. The Spice & Wolf items being most important. And a friend gave me an ambitious idea to enhance my Sanji cosplay. Any Floridians should absolutely check this place out.