I’m honestly so proud of myself changing as much as I have and overcoming hate from certain people. Being pushed around most of my life and never standing up for myself while others laughed at me for circumstances that I, at the time, believed couldn’t be changed. The more I progress, the easier it is to feel genuinely happy with myself with my consistent efforts. To have people approach everyday complimenting me on how good I look now while asking what they can do as well fills me with more purpose to help spread that love to everyone. To all my haters (you know who y'all are), you failed at trying to keep me down to make yourselves feel superior. “You can never do better than me” was the message y’all kept pushing onto me, but it backfired fueling my change instead to realize just how much more potential I have. So in a way thank you. Much love, your residential Snakey.

I met with my personal trainer today and we did a leg day. It was brutal. I did sets of squats heavier than I ever had before. Lunges, everything. Then after 20 minutes of that she had me doing jumping pushups. I then did 30 minutes on the treadmill. I might create the workout here but I’m just so friggin tired and sore.

(6:43 PM Wed.) My tongue is getting that disgustingly weird taste again from not eating in two days *insert distressed face here*. I really hate it and I feel I'm constantly trying not to make a disgusted look because my mouth feels weird. It also doesn't help I'm on my period so I feel extra tired cause of bloodloss and cramps, not to mention the lack of nutrients in my body...that's probably why I'm tired most the time not going to lie. But, it is what it is. Actually, it's pretty frustrating sometimes. I feel like I'm a very simple person to make happy or pleased, and sometimes all I wish is to be able to eat anytime I want, even if it's small lol. But, I feel like there's something I'm missing with this whole thing...and I've been asking God what that is because sometimes it doesn't seem normal the way we lack, but, I hold on even when it's hard because I've seen enough of my God to know He's faithful even when I'm confused.

today i got the manga keep your hands off eizouken. the city has a lot of water and i thought thats what my city needs more of.

Playing custom charts on ITG2 introduced me to Pendulum back in the day, what a fun throwback. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ogMNV33AhCY

I'm happy i finally have a laptop that has a hdr display. So i can use features like the ai driven rtx hdr in games. And rtx hdr video enhancement. I used it in Aion 2 and on yt and twitch videos. I have a oled display by bringing up the Nvidia app overlay and selecting rtx hdr and tweaking it i managed to get everything to pop on my oled but not losing the depth of the shadows. Also Aion 2 has horrible filters on it so I used the color option on the overlay that's top notch took it to the next level.