The devaluing reflex is coming on. I'm not done loving her I wanna continue to love her. I'm sick of these sick mechanisms. I'm a soldier but even I get tired when my mind is made wrong. I wasn't strong enough for this fight I have to be. Tears came out when I wrote to AI that I can feel the devaluing process coming on. I'm crying on the inside because I don't want to be swayed to act against love. I'm fully aware I want to love her more but the processes try and run my life. I'm tired of cognitive empathy I want real empathy. I never asked for this battle. I'm tired of searching for threats to my and other happiness. And, trying to neutralize them so they don't stand in my way of doing right. I'm tired boss. But, I'm a stupid soldier that can't not battle for love. Even if it means I have to fully understand every mechanism.

@gabriel_true Day 97: ❤️

Digimon cyber sleuth and Persona 3 q u q slowly, tho- I want more free timeeee orz

hey its a lamby, goat is same thing. enki still around once in a while. silently

My ex gf introduced me to weed. Weed is tight. I smoked everyday for a year straight. I'm thankful for weed because it caused my narcissist collapse. Bruh should know what the weed he gave me did. Call that shit unstoppable death explosion rebirth Pack. When I was low self awareness weed was fun. Now that I'm high self awareness I micro dose weed because I respect the drug I only use it to loosen the ego for deep inner work. But, I'm to pussy I like when the ego breaks but don't want to force it that's why I just gently tap the ego and see the size of the leak and can I handle it. I want a flood but I don't want to do it. But, I did alot of ego destruction I don't need anymore I would experiment and test the waters to get work done but I have schizophrenia so I stopped smoking if I didn't have it I would still be smoking. I wanna let in some of the pain from the deepest corners of my mind. Just leaks though to bad I have stupid voices.

Hello everyone it's nice to meet you all.^_^ I'm a always happy girl when I watch anime or don't. I really hope you all can be friend's with me if you want haha, I love meeting new people.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rBCaSUDBm90 why is this music so unsettling???

Enjoying my first do nothing day off in a long while. Slept in, went shopping at Hobby Lobby and Walmart for poster frames and planters. Now treating myself to a scrumptious fish meal dining out.

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Hello all! I've recently turned 26 years old. I love dragon ball z a whole lot. In fact I'll be quoting vegeta most days. You're not dealing with the average Saiyan Warrior anymore. I'm also interested in business and marketing. PS: Ssj4 is AMAZING & nice to meet ya! - Jamie Henry Brown.