I finally reached the point where as a narcissist I'm tired of being selfish. I'm so tired of it. Idc how hard it is to love anyone but myself I'm tired of it T_T. I always said it was to hard it's alien diffuclty to us because we have to understand something that's alien so I didn't change but I'm tired of it. Idc how hard it is. Somebody else besides me deserve love even if I don't have empathy to power than that love I know in my spirit and in my mind I care.

Been doing some mad scientist crap in my kitchen in preparation for holiday football season when my brother comes to visit. Been trying to perfect my recipie for fried pickles! Latest attempt using beer batter with just a touch of buttermilk. Inside are jalapeno popper pickles for an extra kick! Who wants to be a test subject?

Ran into a old mentor at work and even though things ended badly we were on good terms. Feels nice not to have that awkward tension