Views on Mental Illness

People would chop there dick off if psychology told them that it's the answer. Lol oh they really do that lol. Bruh these people take whatever the spear of influence say seriously. Poor malleable bastards. I'm black and a free thinker I don't trust the system. I know the truth. THERE AFRAID. Most of there work has been to cover up the truth. White people are scared we live in a mystical world so they try to make sense of it and put there brand of explanation on it. Lol I'm not going for that pussy shit. My type of Schizophrenia is either demons attack or some type of magical attack. I know my brain wouldn't make this shit up. You White people funny bruh they coral people to believe they know best when they scared and do what they do to hide that there's more to it. It's smart lot's of people can't handle Schizophrenia so to tell them it's fake is a good idea for quality of life. Those folks would of told me it's fake and don't listen and don't feel bad lol. Bitch I'm a narcissist fuck that feeling good shit if they feeding me information about my darkness I'm all for it. Fuck a quality of life I take that shit to the chin till I can't handle anymore and have learned enough from them then I'll ignore them. But if they spying on the deepest corners of my mind then I happen to get useful info from time to time. Fucking baby's shit not that hard to combat don't know why they try to coral people into thinking it's fake. Maybe because all the minds that got destroyed by Schizophrenia. I'm built different these mother fuckers boosted me. Lol these white folks really said it's your brain making it up lol. The brain generated something to hate my soul how fucking stupid and gullible do you think I am. This shit is funny. What I gained from Schizophrenia I gained awareness. My ego was crushed for good reason I started over fresh with new eyes I gained pain from my darkness which changed me though it was a storm all in all good experience lol Schizophrenia can't break me I don't need to think it's fake to get by they don't know how fast a black man thinks when the world is on line. I been operating like everything is at stake I don't play that's why people find me odd i find it odd your playing. Most whites that are narcissists don't even talk about there problem couldn't be me. I love the truth. Why do I talk about whites alot because they the only ones with power. And, I expect better of them because I know they can do better. But, we doomed you seemed to be locked on all side by your own ego and superiority. I don't have the words to describe you because I don't understand how you people could be so smart but locked in your own game it just feels like certain things are locked to you but I can't put my finger on it. I think it's because of your smarts you've closed off paths as being idiotic that's why they forever locked and it makes me sad. But, I could be wrong about schizophrenia all I know is I'm not bout to pretend this shit don't exist and is fake when they reading me like a book and passing the information off to me. I would be a fool to pass that up when narcissist are known to be blind. I needed someone to show me I'm not a angel. Edit: Sorry I didn't give white people there respect without your knowledge on the topic I would have to raw dog the attacks. But, you made medicine able to counter the attacks. Thank you white people but I don't think the brain is making this shit up. Much respect to you though. I forgot you saved alot of lives by telling the public it's fake. Thanks unsung heros. But, fuck that bullshit use your brain for real yall ain't even hit overdrive yet. I'm waiting. I can't believe things can hide from you. I think you choose to not see it.

Life & Mind was so cooked the voices had to lock in for me. Edit: It's a joke it was most definitely a storm the average person can't withstand. And, you have to use discernment because shit ain't sweet.

Diagnosed with ASD × 2. Took MRI Scan and no brain tumors nor abnormalities. Refused COVID-19 vaccine, got tested and no COVID-19 antibodies detected. Still being antagonized.

@poisonivy92 Have you ever been called this overused buzzword? A coworker who smokes, drinks and committed fornication called me that when I said, "I'm autistic!", because I'm nothing like his "five-year old cousin". Family and friends disagree with him. My most loyal uncle told me quote, "Although you have narcissistic traits, none of them are toxic." Stepmother called me "narcissistic" but denies that I am a "narcissist". Mother called me "Hitler", but apologized. Not everyone is against us. But bad people exist whether neurodivergent or not. "Covert" is "cynical jerk" and "Overt" or "Grandiose" is "elitist bastard". But let us all readers remember... https://i.imgur.com/BQcdVQW.jpeg https://i.imgur.com/sqwQz9I.jpeg https://i.imgur.com/FugmENy.jpeg

I don't like people who glorify schizophrenia on Twitter. They be like schizophrenia is a super power. I'm schizomaxxing. If I'm not schizophrenic by 40 I have failed as a thinker. Mind you the shit is completely random what type of voices you get. The voices may not be helpful at all and just random noises or worse horrifying noises. And, praise God I don't have visual hallucinations that's even worse. Though I don't think I have schizophrenia in the random sense. My voices always feel targeted which I'm thankful for because in the early stages of schizophrenia it's hard to determine what's real and what's fake thankfully my voices wasn't random because that would of made my delusions random. My voices always say the same thing. Your powerful. Your ugly. Your evil. They just trying to put chains on me because they scared I'll move. With great power comes great responsibility. That's why I think they tell me I'm powerful lie. They want me holding a responsibility a human can't hold and crumble under it's weight. The I'm ugly lie and your evil lie is to drag me into the darkness. But, when I'm there I discern. They just want to make me scared of myself and scared to move. Did I benefit from these half truths half lies deceptive chains I sure did once upon a time when I shouldn't have been moving. Those chains helped me discern myself more to be sure I can move when nothing in life was stopping me. Are they still useful? A bit though I don't like the chains the voices put on me because they try to drag me into darkness. I benefit from this situation being called evil and ugly repetitively causes me to discern myself often making me bypass a sure nature which helps me not get complacent. I'm a narcissist after all. Being sure of myself sounds like a trap. When I know there could be more flaws to be discovered. But, still I rest in the peace of sureness everyday. Sureness of myself and the sureness of God. Because it's the only defense against the voices. But, should I really be sure of myself I know it's correct to be sure of God or should I be in a low place surrounded by my darkness until the light within me recognizes it. Problem is I'm happy how I am. I made great strides. I don't want to willingly put myself through more punishment and let down my guard against the voices they are uncaring whether they destroy my mind or not and I think it's there goal. It's only through God gift of discernment I benefit. It's not like they helping me I helped myself in the chaos they caused. And, the people that glorify schizophrenia gloss over how sticky it got in the beginner stages. I could of hurt someone or myself. This illness has claimed so many lives so i wouldn't call it a super power the voices are to uncaring for that. It's not like i can just revert to being unsure even if I still can't know what I don't know and I can't even reach that low place to find out because I'm sure of all my effort. I seen the progress. I'm kinda sad that I have self esteem now and can validate my heart because I can't reach that low place because that's where my best work get done. Though I know the voices will keep trying to destroy me so there is a chance I visit there again until I'm sure the chain breaks. It was horrible times being tormented so I wouldn't glorify this illness. But, I know all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. Edit: Now the voices don't bother me and that bothers me. Cause I'm not perfect why so unbothered just cause I put in a little work and can see myself in a new light. I'm only human my ego defends against unwanted feelings. But, I know the voices will keep trying to change that. Maybe my ego will crumble some days and I will see what I been missing. Edit: Though I know God is better than these voices and more gentler. I will keep praying he saves me from this crude approach to life.

Mental illness…a lot can be said about this topic from my personal experience. Tbh didn’t used to be the best person to associate with on that. When my feelings got hurt in the past I would equal it back ,because growing up that’s what my mother did a lot. I was exposed to this majority of my life, and didn’t realize how bad it was until I got away from it all. To those I hurt in the past I did apologize to. For the first time I looked at myself hard in the mirror and envisioned the type of man I wanted to be. To still keep my soft side but toughen up. To be gentle even when hurt. To communicate my emotions effectively with others instead of blowing up. All this was the goal for me, and spent a long time on that process. Still am honestly. Been hurt by many in the past and still struggle to let go of some pains. Most I did for it’s out of my control, because why stress when you can’t change it? There are some who still wish me ill and to wish I stayed down in this life, but one thing I learned about me is that I never stay down or shut the hell up. However, instead of directly lashing out or wanting revenge, I chose to succeed in areas where I excelled at. Helping others gives me purpose to my life to inspire. People come to me now for help and depend on me, and honestly I never imagined that before with how scared I was to be a pillar. The smallest confrontation scared me shitless before. I would always run and cry. I’m proud of who I am becoming.

@meisterman1985 For me it's the other way around. A lady on quora tried to tell me I'm autistic with narcissist traits because I go against the expectations of narcissism. The whole idea that we will be stuck forever with no awareness and tormented. I'm not autistic I'm purely narcissist and at one time was fullblown but to them it strange that a narcissist can make progress. They think if you can make progress your not a narcissist anymore like the chains of narcissism pulling on your mind just dissappear. But, anyway I don't think your a narcissist your just different so you shouldn't let what people say get to you. There's alot of misinformation out there. But, anyway you express all the time in the music forum how much you think about your family a narcissist wouldn't do that. Your expression through music let's me know you have complex feelings and thoughts about them. Plus, you don't look for attention so I say your safe from being a narcissist. Sorry if anyone ever called you that. I don't see it. If you do have narcissistic traits I hope and pray you overcome them. Or atleast they don't effect your life. Thanks for sharing.

@willworkforisekai TBH, I've done some very harsh actions in life even against God while asking for forgiveness (Trump doesn't know how to forgive) while saving lives and still being "favorited" by various people including my family and friends. Forgiveness is a choice, not a requirement. It doesn't mean reconciliation. Hulk Hogan is another good example of a person who is disliked and called a "narcissist" while even saved a girl from a car accident. Some of us would be attractive to children and animals no matter how hard we resist, what we look like and who watches over us no matter if we are similar to Jeffrey Epstein or Michael Jackson. Michael Jackson even said quote, "When I look into childrens' eyes, I see God." Garland Greene is how I think diehard conformists see me. Once we are born, we become from the young girl to Garland Greene himself unless if we are very blessed. We will miss our childhoods if we grew up with child abuse that parents consider "Thou shall bless thy father and thy mother" as superior to "Don't provoke your children to wrath nor anger"... https://youtu.be/WIZq3K-RRC8?si=8tkIb0FzZObUFA8Y https://youtu.be/puQEcN_iI9o?si=tbZqc38gUWh8vJE7 Lieutenant Colonel Frank Slade is how my mother sees herself minus blindness... https://youtu.be/p9DQSnik1mw?si=QK5fVTeRoPaeiwaU Society is obsessed with fear, conformity and pursuit of power that risks becoming what Biden's father considers the worst sin of all: abuse of power. Society prefers that over beauty of imperfection found in DEI that includes POC, LGBTQ+, disabilities, various religions/secular, neurodiversity, etc.. The older we get, the more likely we'll lose our innocence because life has no alibis. One Buddhist monk said if you are seeking "normal" or "socially acceptable", there is none. No matter how hard you try to live in life, being judged by society is inevitable. Voice of Seto Kaiba and Brock. https://youtu.be/1QwZg25UX88?si=8r9-ribhHnY_e_QG This song I listened to a week before Brian Wilson passed away... https://youtu.be/xOf_359m_sA?si=omQ8QllBPg2qkfU4 The overused buzzword "narcissist" happened after Biden beat Trump's first term. At that time, I encountered three men who were rude to me and told me these quotes... Coworker who smokes, drinks and committed fornication: "You're not autistic! No, don't even use INFJ! You're a narcissist! You're you!" The job I was working at felt like this scene in "The Blind Side" with me being Michael Oher. In fact, I first saw it by accident when I checked on my mother and she was watching it... https://youtu.be/ExXPFsvKowg?si=LZj-IiVgQvIzVS-_ I had a hair salon woman who cried working in that same job. She did my hair like Charlie Sheen's character Topper Harley while the one who called me a "narcissist" looked like his opponent... https://youtu.be/Goo9dXlAVxY?si=hb0RR9uec6FzIPJZ https://youtu.be/l_UToLFXOSQ?si=odPdTnd1gs82wuJB I told him, "To anger an honest person, lie to them. To anger a narcissist, tell them the truth.", but he still used the buzzword against me. Honest enemies are better than fake friends. I'd rather be hated for who I am than to be loved for who I am not. I am neither magical nor broken, just different. https://youtu.be/QP4pkpXjJz0?si=Bvw6Ja_6GuFDD9Hn I still rather admit that I am a "narcissist" whether covert or overt/grandiose, because no one is immune to any sin whether white lies or Earth destruction. Sometimes it gives me suicidal thoughts. https://youtu.be/649MFelrOCk?si=bqHtur1nj0GX1G-Q Gen-X man who parents a transgender son that wouldn't listen to him: * punches my Hatsune Miku t-shirt * "You're gonna marry someone that's not real!", similar to people hating Barney The Dinosaur and Elmo from Sesame Street, while a coworker of one of my uncles defended me saying quote, "You can just take his words OR...just go home...and...play a game!" I showed same Gen-X man TikTok user Paige Layle about ableism autistic version and he was like, "Oh, she's beautiful! You should marry her!", but didn't listen to her while he disagreed with my most loyal uncle's quote, "If you get married, your trauma will be multiplied by ten!" The same Elder Gen-X man has a similar opinion as my Elder Gen-X big sister calling my hobbies "For kids and immature people!" while an agnostic woman said quote, "No offense, but, your sister sounds like an a**hole!", while big sister reacted negatively and regretted saying that by telling me, "That's you, Bubbers! You do you!" Baby Boomer father and stepmother call big sister an "idiot" while calling me "lazy as s***!" and "irresponsible and immature". My most loyal uncle uses manga/anime art with Biblical Scriptures against me while the coworker who called me a "narcissist" told me "Don't get too religious!", while I told him Jesus said, "Be careful listening to even other Christians telling you to do this or that or pray like this or don't pray like that. Rely on my Presence." from a Jesus Calling devotional book by Sarah Young. Naturally, I'm neither obsessed with nor against religion. Society is now deconstructing from it which is not disbelief, but cleaning up. Millennial Redneck who loves Trump but hates Biden: "Take that mask off!", but a kind blond waitress told me, "Don't listen to him! They're just being too patriotic!" When people do the wrong thing, they make fun of someone doing the right thing. https://i.redd.it/ph5tf7jiv1se1.png One kind black coworker a few months younger than me told me to listen to this song in response to my authentic self and didn't care if I am autistic or not: https://youtu.be/0WTrMuZOZvM?si=idKLr_t-XZIFKSQq One autistic TikTok user said quote, "Be humble!", while another autistic TikTok user said quote, "F*** being humble!" Even Retrojunk and YTMND forums had similar types of people who are careless. On Retrojunk in the 2000s, a member by username "Mezase Master" kept trying to ostracize me for my infodumping and called me a similar slang for overt or grandiose narcissist called "elitist bastard". http://elitist-bastard.urbanup.com/2689694 My biological mother sometimes calls me a "martyr" while my biological father told me, "Stop helping others too much! You need to be doing something for yourself!" A sensory overload is not equal to a tantrum. Neither are silent shutdowns nor alexithymia. Sensory overloads are like Obama's quote, "Don't be afraid to ask questions. Don't be afraid to ask for help when you need it. I do that every day. Asking for help isn't a sign of weakness, it's a sign of strength. It shows you have the courage to admit when you don't know something, and to learn something new.", sometimes works like "How can I help you?", sometimes it causes dismissing and belittling... https://youtu.be/eHFamApISCs?si=qmMM-6Oaqw7D1fhh My deceased Xennial big brother was like Sonic The Hedgehog... https://youtu.be/7dAATfBjyEI?si=wGyPIx8GcciZxGt9 I, an Elder Millennial, am a feminine, but straight man and similar to Maria and our Elder Gen-X big sister is tomboyish and similar to Shadow The Hedgehog... https://youtu.be/uUhS_H3q89U?si=Qe7hBYzyQNTP2FYA If we rely on this too much, we would become similar to Trump who only trusts himself. Biden trusted experts and is okay with being called, "boring" or "old fart" while wearing a Trump hat. MAGA or just people in general, are trying to be like Jesus, but foolishly becomes equal to Lucifer who became Satan. Atheism/secular and Christian hypocrisy are both considered equally "toxic". https://youtu.be/YrSLOHt3urY?si=fAEUnzns7YLkqZ2E This overused buzzword "narcissist" became widely used right when Biden beat Trump's first term. See also chauvinism. King James is a good example. The direct opposite of a chauvinist (one with prejudiced, excessive belief in their group's superiority) is someone broad-minded, egalitarian, or unbiased, such as a feminist (regarding gender) or an internationalist (regarding nationalism). Other antonyms include humanitarian, tolerant, and impartial individuals who reject superiority beliefs. Jimmy Carter is somewhat a good example of the opposite of King James. He is neither near James Buchanan nor Abraham Lincoln in the U.S. President rankings. It doesn't matter if we are either masculine or feminine in our actual gender roles. The Bible presents men and women as equally created in God's image, possessing equal spiritual value and salvation in Christ (Galatians 3:28). While worrying is like worshipping the problem, not worrying would likely go against the most human trait which is wanting to know "Why?"