Religious rants

@gabriel_true We all stumble and are imperfect so don't let it get to you. I know you try your best and that's all we can do. Yeah I got rebuked for good reason the pain of it all is finally disappearing and I see the purpose of it now. I'm thankful for such strict discipline because I was a headcase that needed it. I'm glad you found anything I said helpful. May the father, son, and holy spirit continue to guide and comfort you. I pray that those we have caused to stumble find there way to everlasting life aswell. Amen.

If you have trouble reading the Bible. Try just learning prayers. It's alot easier. If you have no motivation to do that. Or your recall intelligence is low like mine. Or if your spiritually and wordly retarded like me. Try to learn a prayer when you going through some tuff spiritual warfare. Fear is a good motivator. If you use it to your advantage. Wakes up the senses so while you boosted try and learn 1 or 2 prayers.

Tip for spiritual warfare. I found that saying the phrase... (IN THE FACE OF THE DARKNESS) In my mind helps alot. Example: In the face of the darkness I say I love JESUS CHRIST. This works if you have took account and become aware to how the darkness influences you so that you may resist such influences. I feel the act of addressing the darkness itself with your BOLD STATEMENT undermines it's influence because you are DECLARING YOU KNOW it attempts to move you but you WILL NOT BE MOVED. You are declaring that you know STORMS are coming but YOU WILL NOT BE MOVED. Declarations of faith can be strong reminders to resist yourself and evil. James 1:2–4 "Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness". James 4:7 says, "Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you". Psalm 27 "The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear?" A declaration of a personal relationship with God Psalm 16:8 "I have set the Lord always before me; because He is at my right hand, I shall not be moved" Psalm 62:6 "He only is my rock and my salvation; he is my defense; I shall not be moved" Luke 10:19 says, "Behold, I have given you authority to tread on serpents and scorpions, and over all the power of the enemy, and nothing shall hurt you

I finally picked up my burdens and started moving towards the lord to lay them down. The voices always call me evil. Which always stopped me from drawing near to God because of shame. But, now I realize that's a reason to draw near to God. They tell me I failed and God can't fix it. Anything to kill my hope and spirit. They try to use the fact that I am a narcissist and suspecticible to grandiose delusions to there advantage. So I become confused and huanted by a delusion of my own grand wickedness. A wickedness so grand that I am beyond saving. Romans 8:39, which states that no power in the universe, including "height nor depth," can separate believers from the love of God in Christ Jesus. I seen them haunt others with delusions of importance and wickedness. They just want you to focus on & fear the depths of your own wickedness and importance so they can keep using it to make / reinforce a inescapable situation / delusion that feels like it's real and out of God's hand. They want you to fear your own importance your own wickedness so the unfathomable scoop of God continues to dwindle in your mind, heart, and eyes. They want you to believe in the scoop of your wickedness and importance rather than the reach of God's GRACE, MERCY, and SOVEREIGNTY. God's sovereignty refers to his supreme authority and power over all things, meaning he is ultimately in control of creation, history, and the universe, with nothing happening outside of his will or permission.  They want you to believe that something really bad happened outside God's will and you caused it. So you feel obligated to there torture and lies while carrying a burden that's not real. They don't want you to notice it's not real. But, I seen enough examples of people carrying delusional burdens. I see there trick for what it is. They can't hurt me anymore. And, they can't make me distance myself from God with there lies. God said he wants our burdens so I'm on my way. Isaiah 41:13: "For I am the LORD your God who takes hold of your right hand and says to you, Do not fear; I will help you."  I found the magic words to block all attacks it's... There's nothing my God can't fix. So why worry. I will let my faith be bigger than my fears. The voices would have it the other way around. But, I shall find rest in my faith.

Part 1: I finally understand faith enough to start building it. I learned it's not about judging myself unworthy of grace and mercy because of my failures it's about leaving said judgment to the Lord. He already knew we would be unworthy. But, still offers salvation and love. I stopped looking at myself and started to rely and abide in his love. 1 John 4:16 We have come to know and believe the love that God has for us. God is love, and whoever abides in love abides in God, and God in him. I learned to leave judgment in his hands instead of my own. John 3:17 For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him.

Part 2: Instead of condenming myself to a life of fear knowing how unworthy I am... I instead abide in his love and promises. Even though I don't deserve it. Because I felt I didn't deserve it I had no faith in the lord beforehand. I had thoughts like he won't love me. He won't protect me. He's judging me. I now realize I wasn't allowing the Lord to love me. Because I wouldn't abide in his love because I felt unworthy. We can never be worthy even if everything goes right so I finally chose to REST IN MY FAITH AND NOT IN FEAR. And, it was the best decision I ever made. RESTING IN FAITH and not in fear let's you experience the peace we all can have in Jesus Christ. John 14:27 Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. He wants you to cast your worries, anxieties, and burdens on to him. It's a peaceful thing to LET YOUR FAITH BE BIGGER THAN YOUR FEARS. Knowing no anxiety, worries, or burdens can tear your faith down because your trusting in the Lord who overcame the World. That's a powerful testament we overlook. Knowing and believing this to be true strengthens your faith ability to withstand attacks. Knowing through him you can also overcome what the world is throwing at you. John 16:33 I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.

Part 3: When the voices attack and try to make me fear a mutipltude of things. I just say I rest in my faith and not in fears for my Lord has overcome the world so I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me and that upholds my faith and helps me abide in the peace he offers. But, that doesn't mean I will always be in peace sometimes faith has to be tested and you have to fight with the armor of God to uphold your peace in him. But, that's ok. I'm just happy my faith is strong enough to withstand attacks unlike before. That means I can finally please the lord instead of being a doubled minded man unstable in all his ways. I never thought I'd get strong enough to stop my doubts. All it took was to trust God words and stop believing he will see me how I see myself. I'm thankful I finally have a place to rest and the ability to grow my faith and strength. 2 Peter 3:18 But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. To him be the glory both now and to the day of eternity. Amen. He wants us to accept his grace and grow in it and to know how glorious he is. It truly is a wonderful thing to worship such a God of immense Love and Mercy.

Some people may wonder what's the point of Jesus showing his disciples he can walk on water. It's actually a very good example of letting your faith be bigger than your fears. Peter tried but ultimately succumb to his fears but Jesus saved him. You may think those days are over and we may never get the chance to walk on water with Jesus. But, that's the furthest from the truth. Jesus is actually welcoming you to walk on the water everyday. To put your faith to the test in deep waters. Psalms 69:1-2: "Save me, God! The water is up to my neck; I am sinking in deep mud, and there is no solid ground; I am out in deep water, and the waves are about to drown me." Jesus is asking us in those times where the water is to high, deep, and violent to focus on him instead of what we fear overtaking us. All he asks that our hearts not be moved by fear and doubt but emboldened by his omnipotence. He is asking to be your solid ground if you'd let him. I'm getting the jist of walking on water with Jesus and I hope others will also. The voices attack daily so I get alot of practice and chances to overcome my fears. Getting to the point where your faith can withstand and repel fear and doubt is one of the most peaceful and exciting things ever that I hope others get to experience. At first the voices use to corrode my mind with there unwanted intrusions interfering with my thoughts. But, now that my faith is strong enough to withstand and repel fear and doubt nothing they say faze me or controls me anymore and they growing quieter because of this. Trusting in Jesus and resting in our faith gives us all the power we need to overcome whatever we need to. I no longer find myself drowning because of the voices but find myself at peace in the mist of a storm and violent waters and because I'm at peace the storm realizes it can't shake me and passes and the waters calm. Everything passes. The storm and violent waters don't scare me anymore. I've had enough practice in letting my faith be bigger than what I fear. I'm no longer afraid and susceptible to being washed away. I am firm in my belief. I hope and pray others find there foundation in the mist of the storm and violent waters. Jesus said, “Come.” And Peter left the boat and walked on the water to Jesus. But when Peter saw the wind and the waves, he became afraid and began to sink. He shouted, “Lord, save me!” Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught Peter.