Mental Illness (Mental Wellness)

I don't really know who that's addressed to or what it means, but hang in there breh, consider therapy, and keep ya head up king

Something that I've noticed in the last year is that I have complete melt downs on Sundays. I don't know why, I don't know if it has to do with the fact that it's the day before starting the work week again, if it's the end of the weekend and my free time has diminished. It can be traffic, people/crowds, cleaning/laundry. Regardless of what trivial things are going on, it seems I hate Sundays or Sundays hate me.

@VerucAssault Time to take a vacation or a career change... But, I'd stick with a vacation, it's easier.

I’ve been diagnosed with BPD for a large chunk of my life and in many ways it’s robbed me of a “normal” childhood. It made me obsess over and idolize people and even with the slightest thing it would break me for days at a time. The height of it was some of the most painful days of my life. Through meditation, journaling, and other therapies I have improved a lot, and I’m proud of myself. There’s times where it lays dormant for months or even years, then it’ll hit me out of nowhere into a suicidal frenzy. But I’m learning more everyday to cope. When I first began struggling with it, I never thought it would go away since I never met anyone who even worked through parts of it. But now I can have a lot more peaceful days than chaotic ones. I used to be beyond ashamed of it, and perfectly disguised it. I thought it made me a horrible person. Someone so unworthy of love or care or anything, but that isn’t true. People judge what they don’t know about. It’s always demonized or falsely represented, so growing up I struggled to accept it. But now I’m realizing that I am not what I was diagnosed with, and that it doesn’t have to effect my life all the time. After meeting other people with it, I realized I wasn’t alone, and that made all the difference.