Vent

I feel like such an outsider in this family. As much as I love him to death I fucking hate his wife. Why can’t he be how he used to be? Back when he was like a second father to me? She’s changed him. I feel like I can’t even spend any time with him she controls him so much! I hope they’ll get divorced so I can have my fucking uncle back. I never realized how much I loved him and how much he actually cared about me since she never lets him show it. If only I was good enough for his wife. But I’ll never be. I miss being his favorite girl. I hate this. She crazy, can’t you see?

Today I was reminded of the past, and all the stupid things I’ve done within in it. it isn’t an easy thing to accept responsibility but to everyone on the site that was affected by my past stupidity, I want to apologise. I’ve done some really questionable and dumb things but I’m beyond them now, the last place I want to be is stuck reliving these past events and feeling guilty. Change in any form is always possible don’t let yourself be chained to one path, success in life requires you to keep moving and that’s what I’m going to do, bit by bit.

Busload of a high school band came by. Felt nausea and dizziness increase, but felt careless about having a free meal or even clocking out unless if told to. After clock out, I fell down my job's backdoor stairway, but I'm okay. I took an epsom salt bath with Tiger Balm.