Random thoughts...

Watched a schizophrenia video that's heart breaking. Starting to think I wanna join a schizophrenia community since I'm one of the lucky ones that's adjusted. I don't usually want friends to keep up with because of what I am. But, I think it would heal me and another if I become friends with someone who has it worse than me. I wanna try and be there anchor to reality. Especially the ones with God delusions. They know not what they say and think. I know I was a loner when I contracted schizophrenia. So I wonder if there alone and nobody can put up with there crazy. I know alot about crazy. They don't scare me. I just hate seeing mfs fail shit like bruh why couldn't you make it to. Maybe I can help idk. I know alot about darkness enough not to judge them for what they harboring if I'm being attentive and aware. I just wonder can I be a effective care giver as a schizophrenic myself.

Not counting my chickens just yet, but DEFINITELY crossing my fingers on this potential job that'd be a good $25,000 more a year.

@joemama711 I'm in a jacket, my twin's comfy (over the jacket) and two blankets every night/day, and I still can't get warm XD. Our temporary living abode has really poor insulation and my body is horrible with keeping warmth (I have crap circulation). I hope you are staying warm where you are! Don't let your fingers turn blue like mine do .⁠·⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠(⁠>⁠▂⁠<⁠)⁠´⁠¯⁠`⁠·⁠.

@wei_ying I hope you have heat in your house at least I am sorry that you have to deal with shitty insulation :/. I am definitely trying to with a undershirt, 2 long sleeve shirts, merina wool sweater and long johns, jacket and bacalaca/ whatever covers the whole face cept eyes and beanie. I work inside a heated place so I'm lucky for that currently but our heater blew out Saturday and we've had to rely on space heaters, it might not get fixed week due to snow storm.

@joemama711 We do have working heat, but our heating sucks too and doesn't reach certain rooms (it's either too hot or too cold in some places), and sadly the room I'm in doesn't have heat lol. It doesn't help the windows have small cracks so the wind from outside also comes in through them as well as the walls (due to said poor insulation). Luckily enough I've gotten used to being cold years ago and so I don't complain about it anymore. My fingers are always in some state of cold (either blue or so cold they feel stiff)...so I've gotten used to it in some way XD. I hope your heater is able to be fixed soon enough, we don't need you getting sick again and having Popsicle fingers.

@wei_ying That's shitty to hear :/ I hope you and none of your family get sick, I hear Sherpa sweaters and jackets help, I have one that's kinda small on me but helps a lot so far, I'd send you some if I could ;-;. I feel like I can never get used to the weather, Florida was always a hot sunshine state, Georgia is a bipolar bitch, as tempting it is to make a lot of money up north idk if I could deal with -8 or -27 degrees even if it's 50+ a hour.