Random thoughts...

Late last night I almost slipped into another episode but thanks to this sweet person I didn't. I never knew how much victims of psychological trauma went through until all of this. I just want to say, PLEASE, no matter how bad you THINK your partner is or what your peers say about them. DO NOT bully them and put them down while laughing to look cool or accepted by your peers. That will always get back to them and fuck them up. When someone gives their whole heart to you just know any negative thing you do towards them can lead to long term repercussions. It's hell for me when I get those episodes hating myself thinking I'm ugly, trash, and deserve to die all because someone I treasured at one point decided to say "fuck it" and repeat most of those things that their peers said. Finding love for yourself again after that is incredibly hard so please be mindful of how you treat others. I am not some "ugly bitch from Texas", "fat fuck", "pathetic wannabe Gojo", "fatass Walter white", "troll under the bridge", "Balding Meliodas", and the rest of the things stated. I am me! I am a sweet caring person! So no matter what you don't control me anymore! I'm not this safety net or back up plan to toy with. I wish all those who did me harm happiness, however. Just please don't do it to anyone else again.

Sounds like they're still a child with limited prefrontal cortex development. All's good. Life moves on and I hope you continue to as well.

@solid_snake95 Christ be with you during your time of hurt. Know that your today is yours alone. It's not abnormal to feel terrible when terrible things are said or done, but you're doing too well for yourself inspite of these challenges. By the way I don't see you as fat. So please don't think you are unhealthy physically. I do sense you are struggling emotionally. However I have faith with all that you've been battling inside yourself that you are going to continue to succeed in life. I have seen your progress through some of your previous posts. Don't ever become your own stumbling block. And be mindful of your temperament towards yourself as that can make all the difference when handling difficult people in your life.

Thank you guys I appreciate the positive reinforcement. It's hard breaking this but I'm doing better than the day before and that's what matters.

I have some free time for once and it feels weird, it's too early to sleep, I'm full yet I want boneless wings and nothing's going on. I'm either busy or distracted by entertainment online, it's a weird cycle.

I'm freaking out this streamer I'm watching played this exact game yesterday but today his stream says first playthrough and he is acting like this his first time seeing this shit. I'm tripping giga balls. Wtf happen to the time line. Kidding seriously though wtf is going on. Maybe I watched someone else play it and my mind just mixed em up. But, he say things like I forgot. Is he just acting like he don't know the game to farm content?